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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p
Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.
..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Friday, May 29, 2009
I want that A but i obviously dont want it enough. The more i think about it the more upset i am that i took this course instead of my original decision to do journalism. I cant believe i let my parents push me that far. Oh well, engineering still does sound interesting but seriously? how much longer is my attention span even going to last me.
i finally got a much needed sleep of almost 8 hours after my 48 hours insanity. i am still very tired. but in about 3 hours time my presence will be expected somewhere i dont even see the point in being. at night, i am still in confusion whether to be there or to stay home and pretend to study which we all know ends up with me on msn being distracted by stupid natalie. pfft.
why am i going to a charity event instead of going to personally meet steve aoki is a freaking mystery. i want to squirm out of this so badly =(
oh god, my eyes cant stay open.
Labels: angry, emo, personal, rants, sad, tragedies, upset, wordy
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
in the process of this semi drunkened state, i proclaimed very confidently to the boyfriend " HOR I KNOW WHY I SO FAT AND DULAN AND UNCOMFORTABLE!! I HAVENT SHIT IN A LONG LONG TIME!! but why liddat wan!!! how can a vegetarian suffer from constipation!!! its so wrong!!!"
to which he replied " this proves there's something wrong with you and you should go for a check up" to which i sulkily folder my arms sat back down in the car seat and gave him a "hmph"
today.
i ended up in the toilet 3 times and 2 out of those 3 times my shit was so massive it wouldnt go down .____. and no i am not suffering from food poisoning but wth. the irony of me talking about having constipation and then going to the toilet that many times in a day is just so in your face @_@
okay. maybe you didnt need to know that but i had fun telling you anyway so mieh
Labels: confessions, funny, musings, personal, random, stupidity, wordy
after over an hour of tossing around in bed my eyes are wide open now, every detail seen with a strange clarity one gets from being high. yet the brain is disconnected and studying attempts become futile if not totally a waste of time.
even music does nothing to calm me down and i wonder what the fuck is up with me now.
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2.30am edit : this confused state of mine is tearing me apart. anger annoyance frustration, it's all hitting me at once. it's like schizophrenia + depression all over again. i want to hit something, break something, be destructive.
maybe it's the pms talking yet it doesnt seem entirely feasible. the last time i felt this way was after learning what a cheating scum bag my ex actually was and how my closest friend at that time could so nonchalantly hurt me the way she did.
not like anything like that is happening now, but that channeled frustration seems all too familiar. i've had enough of self inflicting wounds so what the fuck do i do now then? strange how watching my own hand cut myself can calm me down in almost an instant; but no, not this time, there isnt even a solid reason for my current state of emotions.
my fan is making the most disgustingly disturbing sound and its repetitiveness is driving me insane. it's in situations like this i think people find it easiest to put a gun to their heads and pull the trigger without hesitation.
if only i had a gun.
if only...
Labels: angry, annoyed, confessions, personal, rants, tragedies, upset, wordy
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
the bf does not have this problem because he lived in London as a kid and he still has that somewhat english accent going on though not that prominent as his childhood days or the first time i met him. la la la. i deduce it's my very strong ginny influences that killed his accent. not intentionally mind you but you know la. malaysian accent so addictive. its unavoidable wan!
here are some examples. what me and apparrently most malaysians end up saying on the right and the original word in bold on the left. (note that if u try to pronounce it after someone tells u ure mistake you may say it right but when u dont notice and speak freely this is what happens "=_=)
Third - Turd
Seth - Sef
Birth - Bert
Thick - Tick
Three - Tree
HOW COULD THIS BE?!?!?! where were those years of barney obsessions and learning how to pronouce the way barney did!! yes people. i love barney the giant purple dinasour so boo to you if you thick he's stupid >=( because barney is awesome and YOU KNOW IT.
huhuhuh.. interesting discovery no??
and dont tell me can pronounce nicely ah when u say to yourself because your ego would probably stop you from noticing the mistake. wah wth. damn mm kam yun can die.
Labels: asian, confessions, funny, musings, tragedies, wordy
Sunday, May 24, 2009
my exams are still on and already im in the holiday mood. how la like this. epic phail.com wei
im hungry but i cant even get my butt out of the house which is new with ginny. hello? its me wei how often do i tell u eh dowan la i damn lazy go out la when it involves yum cha food and my favourite people. something is soooo wrong
ive been eating porridge for the past few days and the taste is so repetitive at home i feel nauseas just looking at it. miehh... dumb throat. i want yee mee and cake .___. this sucks.
go away evil lazy bug. i spent pretty much the entire day in bed today. even typing this "=_= wtf is wrong with me
actually i wanna go out wan but i damn lazy change outta my sleepin clothes but cannot la. damn shy go out of my housing area like thissssssss.. urgh urgh.. getting dressed and putting on clothes is such a chore lately.
mieh.
Labels: annoyed, confessions, random, rants, tragedies
i live in the house 4 with the street number containing 4. i end up with 4 almost everythings. good friends an example.
which is weird because it's like im an atom with 4 valence electrons. everytime i get close to someone new someone old drifts away and in the end the number of good friends would always go back to the number 4.
i also noticed the repeating patterns of 22's in my life until natalie pointed out that 22 is actualy 4 in disguise. 2+2 is 4. and by jove she's right. (.____________.)
my anniversary is on the 2204 and unknowingly i bought air tickets to australia on the 14th where wahla thenumber 4 once again appears. hmmmmmmmm. okay so maybe this part has no relevance but whatever
the chinese always bring 4 as a bad number but i've always had this fascination with it even as a child. what is your favourite number. i remembered how my answers would always be a consistently 4 or occasionally 6 depending on my mood. i would get so annyed seeing floors on places saying 3b instead of 4 and houses that do the same.
4 is a pretty number no? so wholesome and complete. 8 is just a division of 2 fours. so mieh.
okay totally pointless post but i was just wondering so what would the significnce of 4 be in my life. ho hum
Labels: confessions, musings, random, wordy
arghh.. i think the saying the sun is frying my brains would be an understatement. i bet my brains all weirdo and messed up right no.
fark the pain. i can feel them veins popping up. its friggin midnight and it's still unusually hot.
knocks head on keyboard.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
be warned. it's a pretty picture heavy post. redundant too but i LOVEEEEEEEEE bubbles so boo!!
when my hair was still of acceptable red instead of gold .___.
some random kid came up
little bubbles!
urgh square face "=_=
see waking up early and exercising and bubbles makes a happy girl
sun started heating up
up up and away!
its quite cool. enlarge. u need to wait for just the right moment before it pops
it looks like earth =D
transparent much. but i like the cute kid and mum behind
Thursday, May 21, 2009
well technically i was but my brain was working on slow mo and i didnt have enought time to finish T___T good bye A.. hello resit for the 3rd time. wtf
Labels: annoyed, confessions, emo, personal, random, sad, study, stupidity, tragedies, upset
when this worry sets it it starts a chain of annoying heightened sense of awareness of everything around you. lights become brighter and sound waves reach those delicate ears in an amplitude much higher than you once remembered.
everything becomes clearer allright,except that fuzzy tired mind and as much as you want to study your mind tells you to take a short nap and this annoying cause of anxiety just fucks you over.
sometimes i wonder why we have exams. i remember randomly reading my text books out of curiousty and due to the leisurely sentiment of that time, my brain absored every little bit of detail and fact like a sponge. my mouth would open up and shoot out random excited statements aimed at the bf out of the whole thrill of learning something new.
i am in nerd in such sense, i love learning new things.
but the whole idea of having to be forced to memorise everything just to score in a damn paper that barely proves anything makes the whole process appaling. nothing i read is interesting anymore and nothing i read even wants to make a little lodge of indentation in that pissed off brain of mine.
where is the beaty in education if this is what it has become. a pathethic way of students to prove how well their brain can memorise facts that they find absolutely no interest in.
i want to be a kid again. time where exams didnt exist and where the opening ups of encylopedias and dictionaries made my eyes light up. U_U
er..do be warned not to watch this if u intend to go through long hours of studying because i made the mistake of doing so "=_=
why?
well..the sound effects and the whole movement of the film made me dizzy and pretty nauseas although that coud be due to my fever right now. but dude. its been half an hour since i watched it and my head is still swimming in confusion.
i want to go to arts school.
mieh...
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
1. eat fried rice.
2. follow TJ out on one of his random excursions especially if it involves crazy cold houses.
3. eat very salty foods
mieh... so yesterday i tried studying but i couldnt cuz i woke up with a very bad sorethroat after some seriously salty maggi mee the night before. i was online and then took a nap only to wake up with a body ache and i felt a little warm but the bf said it was just the weather and i assumed my body aches were from my rather weird sleeping postures.
so the boy went home for a while and i decided to follow TJ out and we ended up at someones house where his aircond nearly killed me if not literally killed me.
after about 2 hours my eyes started feeling funny and my body felt like it was frozen. TJ FINALLY DECIDES okay we can go now and in the car i was a goner.
initial plan to hop to another friends place to study came to a halt for me because my body just couldnt bear it anymore.
at home i rolled myself into my uber thick comforters and felt like my whole body was still encased in ice.. the boy came back and i told him to come feel my frozen fingers but his reaction was errr..they arent that cold.. mines colder @_@ ..and i knew i was doomed.
i asked for a glass of hot water in my froggie cup and when he gave it to me i went ITS COLD @_@.. den he went noooooooooooo its not. wahlao. body total chaos wei.
at about 2-3 am i woke up and wanted grapes. and i was told by the boy my fever just went up and im having high fever now.
zzz.. so i dindt know what to do @_@ i had my grapes and rolled back into bed.
now the fevers gone down but it's still there and my brain just wont focus on my physics notes which i am going to be doomed for in exactly 24 hours if i dont snap out of this.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
forgive me for the extreme lack of updates but ive been crazy busy lately and not in a good way either. garhh!! havent had time to study and theres just 2 days left. but see.. i damn sayang my blog lor.. no time also must find time to update wei. WHERE TO FIND LA U TELL ME
u have no idea wht my dog is doing but no she cant fit under the bed
agedashi tofu my fav from sushi king
or so i thinkla
mmm..sticky chewy chocolate is the bomb
their fries are the best also lor! especially with them dips!swensens ss2
while eating some old man came up to sell this and so cute buy la!
he then started chanting some stuff and giving me some luck prayer or something? @_@cuz he agve me a paper and it had stuff written but i lost it!!
mwahah. cuz we so fat like that
just look at that perfectly baked cheese wei
one of my fav home made pastas =D cuz damn easy and damn niceLabels: asian, desserts, dogs, food, funny, home cooked, pics, western
Monday, May 18, 2009
2 days to my exam and i am still staring at that damn screem waiting for my points and money to go up. pfft.
nope. no prizes for the one who guessed right considering it's already in my title. well do'h.
im sleepy.
oh no. it's not loading again T__T
Labels: confessions, games, random, stupidity, tragedies
Saturday, May 16, 2009
that is what im craving very badly for right now. in fact, i realised i havent had that in almost a year @_@. my favourite used to be in Bakerzin but there's no more Bakerzin in KL which is so so sad.
sigh. i need $$.
times almost up and my exams are only a few days ago. made promises t omyself of studying and self grounding but all the angst that has been building up just keeps deterring me. i havent studied at all for over a week. construction at home doesnt help either.
im just really tired.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
i answered good, kill me as well. that got him. he went into a frenzy of insults and almost laid a finger on me much to my amusement. he asked or more accurantly concluded "YOU THINK ITS SO EASY TO DIE IS IT? WANT TO DIE DIE DIE."
i smiled and in my mind played the scene of death and how deliciously satisfying it would be.
i hate people. they are nothing more but arrogant pricks that assume age makes them superior. his comment about "it's just a fucking animal i can kill all of them and buy a new one so easy" made me sick.
because jolly ho, death really is easy. be it an animal or a human, because life is life. his infuriating ego of human superiority makes kids of 5 look smart.
at 1am today, a man very significant in my life passed away in a car accident. at this moment, i am still in disbelief because it was just weeks ago he had made fun of me and promised to take me out to eat. i am still waiting for that call or sms to tell me it was all a joke but we all know better than to keep our hopes up.
he was one of the most sincere human beings i have ever had the luck to chance upon. a man so deserving in life for all the good he has done. he was one of those few people that you never heard hate statements about. and just like that, he's gone.
fuck family. bias idiots that scream empty bullet shells of insensitivity. dont fucking talk to me about death and earning money or how easy it is to kill an animal because fuck you. my friend died today and i wish it was you instead.
Labels: angry, confessions, family, nightmares, personal, sad, tragedies, upset, wordy
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
why the hell am i even blood related to him. the thought makes my blood curl in disgust.
fucking psycho.
I FUCKING HATE YOU.
hate doesnt even come near to the abhorance i harbour for you.
if i had a gun.
you would be the first to go.
Labels: angry, confessions, family, personal, upset
they covered my rabbits holes......and now she is nowhere to be found T__________T the last time they saw her was yesterday BUT THAT WAS BEFORE THEY COVERED HER HOLES.......... wtffffffffffff.. how can one assume that if they saw her yesterday it is logically correct that she would be outside her tunnels today so they can bloody put soil in it?!??!
just spent an hour digging up her tunnels and we still cant find her..
WHERE THE FUCK IS MY RABBIT.
i am so angry right now all i can do is clench my teeth and stare at the workers in my garden........
Labels: angry, animals, nightmares, rabbits, tragedies, trauma, upset
most ppl have already seen this but i kinda forgot.. no reason for posting it. just wanted to blog abt something. lol
day 4 of sick kid who skipped meeting the weirdos and slept at midnight. whoooo... and who had crazy expensive steamboat T___T mieh.. okay la.not crazy expensive la but when ure sick and exams are nearing with no time for work its expensive.
garh. broke ass kid on the loose.
so the tragedy is this. i, miss anti cough syrup queen who still antis the doctor more, shamefully went up to the boy with the saddest most pathethic eyes ever and concluded that she will once and for all try his beloved benadryl cough syrup which he drinks straight from the bottle like it's coke.
ONLY for the pharmacies in the vicinity of her area to tell her its SOLD OUT!!??!? omgwtfbbq how can this be!!! maybe its the medicine facilities evil plot to overcome recession by sending out this evil cough/flu viru so medicine sales go up!! its a conspiracy i tell you.
oh great. 1 week to the exams and im still messing around and rolling around in bed sick as a dog.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
how can a vegetarian dickhead like me find so many things to eat @_@ maybe i should really consider going vegan like sam said. that'll teach me to stuff my face that way again
so this is what happened.
miss Natalie Chai decides OH WOW IMMA GONNA HAVE A PRIMARY SCHOOL REUNION!! so we end up at TGIF.. me representing the smart apparently lan c class(if only i was smart and nerdy again so i can stop procrasinating and get good results..wtf).. wtf.... yah "=_= i was the freaking oddball at the place because everyone else was from a different class (labelled the naughty class) EH IM NOT STEREOTYPING OKAY THEY SAID SO THEMSELVES...
they were going through this conversation where they aimed nat and went why u never invite this that this taht suddenly someone says EH WHY NO SMART PPL HERE WAN (the smart class ppl) then all fingers come zooming at me neh one representative. wtf.not that im really smart la. i just did well at exams for some unfathomable reason considering the history of shit i had in the past and was in the class. OH YA I REMEMBER. i think it was because i was bribed with stuff like the PS to get good results. hence. end of bribe=end of good results. wtf. im such a shithead.
and really my classmates were my closest friends until form 4 where i just totally became the black sheep and got along with the other classes better instead =/ ...
er yah so ANYWAY.. after TGIF we stoned at Wong Kok.. and then after that Tien Tien Lai @ Pudu AND THEN CAKE AT ALEXIS!!
so if u do that in a labelled diagram as so
IN THE SPAM OF 6 hours (TGIF > Wong Kok > Tien Tien Lai > Alexis) ........... that really is a lot of food isnt it @_@ and among the mini entourage of 4 i brought along with me to Tien Tien Lai and Alexis for dinner and dessert with le fatso TJ.. i was the only one who continued eating and had cake. OMGWTFBBQ
but cake and chamomile tea is good for the sick soul U_U not that im any better today but that's besides the point
AND BECAUSE I DID NOT GET TO STUDY YESTERDAY %&$^$%&$^%*&$^# i am camping out at Fitness First Damansara today from 12pm-5pm to alternate between studying and working out (sweat them icky flu germs out baybeh) .. jeezus.. im crazy hyper right now arent i @_@
U SEE MR CHAN AND STUPID TJ I AM SO CAPABLE OF SAYING NO TO OUTINGS AND STUDYING!!! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
oh shit.. its only 11am.. im getting sleepy @_@.....
Labels: asian, confessions, cravings, desserts, drinks, food, gym, happy, personal, random, study, western, wordy
Monday, May 11, 2009
this flu epidemic is pretty scary @_@
mieh..
Sunday, May 10, 2009
some skewer thingie in nandos.. not really nice =/
guinea pig gathering
"=_= the boy and the dog
my dog is secretly batman or..batgirl
i used to be afraid of red eyed bunnies
but now i think they're really cute =)
hm
see what i mean?
some fish at Bruno's, Jaya 33 i think @_@ i forgot. it was okay. nothing special
whats this?
the boys lamb. no idea how it is. i dont eat lamb.
my beloved porridge from Bonjuk, Desa Sri Hartamas again!
him stirring his
while i camwhore with mine "=_= wth
saw this HUGE thing @_@ the front was a lot cooler but didnt get to snap a pic
burger at paddingtons
i forgot what this is "=_= but its nice! wtf
my fav banana honeycomb butter =D
gin and hsin
do u just not love our beanies. hehe
mouse and bear?