Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

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..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

the thoughts of suicide play over and over again in my head...thinking how..when....yet...i cant bring myself to it...so many things undone...so many things not settled.. yet the pressure and the stress and the hurt he brings..keeps pushing me to that option...my life line shows an extraordinarily short life line which breaks into 2 paths..if i succeed in avoiding death the 1st time..i will have a longer life but strangly enough..that line also breaks into 2.. a shorter and a longer one..yes i do believe in palmistry...

i wonder which path i will eventually fall into and follow.....the 1st shortest line shows death extremely early...it's more than 2 inches away from my wrist...a normal person would b 2 cm a way....maybe that time is now? .......

i want a life...that cease to exist....im not strong..i am just demanding and dominant...im stubborn.. but im not strong............................my life is so messed up right now........ i don't know what to do anymore

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

CURSE U my wretched sleep cycle.. GARHH..im darn sleepy atm... BUT I CANT SLEEP..been tossing for more den an hour..whats worst is im itching T_T.. those dman chinese superstitions cant possibly be true could they T_T... DEAR GOD? CHICKEN POX a 2nd time?? U CANT BE SERIOUS....

joined yoga zone... up 4 yoga anyone? =S .. wonder how long i'll last this time........ AND I AM IN DIRE NEED OF CASH! OMFG... ive never been so broke or pathetic in my 15 yrs of life.......

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, October 22, 2005

i am so stresssed..so stressedd.. ive never felt like dying so badly in my life........fuck everything... im so tired of all the shit i've been through the past week .... seriosuly..i don't know how the fuck im gonna get outta half the shit im in now.. JESUS..i cant wait 4 the 5th of nov... where i'll escape everyone and be in shanghai for a week..!

right now i just want to bury myself and die in peace... i am without my most comforting item now..money..so shoping is a no no for stress relieving... my bf is a jackass..and i don't know if we're even together now cuz he taes me for granted so often..yet wont let go of me..cuz he needs me? yet strangely..treats me like a thing more den a human

sigh....i need a hug...T_T... big time

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

URGHH..ive never been so stressed out in my life!!! arggh... i feel like dying TT.......why i try to help 1..and i end up getting another in trouble..so fucked up wan TT

-BabyGinz-

Monday, October 17, 2005

herm..life... relatively boring... money... negative ??????????????..... didnt go to school today.. =S dun feel like going morrow but i have to... aihyaaaaaaaaaa........ HOWWWWWWWWWWWW......... wan meh..my mum super force me.. very kesiann arkk

watch the myth today.. quite lame i must say "=_= n dunno why the story..the end like.. super familiar.. another show oso like that..the immortal princess waiting 4 her love to return to her "=_=....

iii cannnnnn't stoooopppp wassssstinnnnggg mooonnneyyyyy.. JEEZ!!!! HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW... and im tired.. OMG..HOW TO WAX LEG LIKE THAT!!!! T_T..... damn lar... why my life so sadistic wan...

-BabyGinz-

Friday, October 14, 2005

I DONT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY BF!!!!!!!! all he seems to enjoy doing is getting me in bloody trouble.. LIKE TODAY.. FUCK HELL..i spent like more den 6 hours running around KL lending money here and there.. JUST SO WHAT?? So HE CAN MAKE MONEY!! thats not the big deal..the big deal is.. I FUCKING GET YELLED AT in the process... apparently.. HE IS THE 1 SELLING.. FUCK HIM LAR... i told him abt everything bcuz he is my bloody bf.. i so susah payah find money oso 4 him.. BLOODY HELL.. now the bugger make me go in debt like 1 k + ....................as if im not poor enough already....... simply order order when he dont even have the bloody money and ask me tell people as soon as possible.. WTF IS THAT...and then i tell ppl already and then he fuck me..say i didnt tell him i confirm already.. WTF MAN..he is the 1 ask me confirm.. DEN BEST STILL.. APPARENTLY JOINT VENTURE WITH HIS FRIENDS.. WTF!! HIS FRIENDS ARE EVEN MORE BROKE THAN ME? JOINT VENTURE WITH WAD?? DONT EVEN have the source of money..how the fuck u wanna start business like that............ im sorry ppl 4 my incredibly vulgar and confusing post.. but im just fucking pissed off right now... i go out wid 300 bcusk and i come back with -1000+ ................. AND DONT EVEN HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME.........................................................................

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, October 13, 2005

The Candy Flavored Condom!!
You are sweet. You have this good girl/boy persona,
but that's not so true in the bedroom. You aim
to please and making him/her happy makes you
happy. You like to be dominated but not to the
S&M level.
Best Position: Doggy style

Condoms!! what is your kind of condom AND what does it mean?( with pics not dirty sheesh!)
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-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

i just watched something's gotta give AGAIN..god..wad is wid me and watching sappy love stories when im all depressed and just got into a fight with him T_T

changed blog addies again..haha..so if u have it once more... u know i love u ;p SO DUN BETRAY ME PPL... *glares*

-BabyGinz-

ARGHHH..the agony the aggooonnyy!! MYY BOOOTSS!1 MY BOOTSSSS!! no more siiizzeeee...my erm....leg...area...erm..i don't know which area is too smalll! so it's too loseeee!! ARGHHH...in the end i used my mother's money to pay 4 my watch instead of using my own money! wakkakaa..n bought 2 tops from topshop..those i always wear..WAD..i wanna collect all the colours okay T_T.. saw the chunnest MICRO mini skirt man..really MICRO MINI man... 160 arrhh..arhhhhh..i sacred i use my mums money to buy she kill me..such a tiny piece of clothes 4 nearly 200 bucks...N THERE's like 3 left onli!!!! 1 of them my size..!!! *painn*

on anothr note..i think i screwd up my geography big time.. iTS not a good sign when u see ure frens jumping around happily commenting on how easy it was when u tot it sucked... GARHHH... runs around screaming..at least KH was good!!!... BUT HOWW!1 MY GEO WORST DEN SEJ ARKKKK!!!! *grinds teeth*

watched the longest yard....not bad not bad..muz watch orh ..nelly looked so.. young..n small size.. LOL..and i have developed a thing for black basketballers... <3 <3 ..they r soooo hottt.. *drools* ..chinese basketballers so ah beng.. dunno why blacks so SUPER YENG lor

OMMMGGGGGG>.i want this!!!! i saw this in mid valley last yr!! I WANTED TO GET IT BUT NO MONEY THAT TIME..went back like the next day and no more liao!! AND UNTIL NOW I HAVENT FOUND IT BACKKK!! ARGHHHHH!! HAS ANYONE SEEN IT??!?!?

-BabyGinz-

Monday, October 10, 2005

dear god...2 of my suckiest subjects are tomorrow and here i am in front of my beloved laggy computer =S ... DUHHHH... and my brain is like emptyness and i know shit of my syllabus!! CRUDS..i am so screwed... i really should b studying.. BUT ARGHHH!! i can't get the mood.. someone slap me silly... *chants..must study must study must study* but before that..i shall go locate something to eat first =S ....what can i say..im a pig who loves to eat and sleep

hey does anybody know how to get rid of scars fast or know any good products?? =S

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, October 08, 2005

watched flight plan today~ damn good show i must say XD ..watch it if u havent..darn it..i cant kick my meiji strawberry choc addiction..i bought more today!!

and i ordered the swatch watch i wanted!! TEEEHHEEE..it's not most adorablest thing ever..all pink n fluffy..no really..it is fluffy..well not fluffy...i dont know what word to use.. but its like soft toys material XD..its sooooooooo cuyteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. my escort of the day said it was cute too.. hahaha

bought new jacket.. kekekekee.. its short..reached until below the boobs and has the mooostt peerrrfecctt hood for hiding my chicken pox XD ... damn my chicken poxed body... i want to wear my short jacket with my bikini top out.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ... saw the most gorgeous boots today~~ UGHHH.. i dont care anymore!! I DONT CARE THAT ITS PIG LINING!! ITS TOO DAMN GORGEOUS!!!

ahhhhhh..i miss days like today ..talkkk talkkk talkkk all day.. heheee.. happy happy... AND I AM SO DEAD BROKE.. UGHH..i better get that bloody promoter job.. so many things i want but cant afford..DAMMIT

*Shoo scars shoo.....let me have my dressing style back..i miss being seexxxxaaayyy*

-BabyGinz-

Friday, October 07, 2005

sometimes..you do the satrngest things for the poeple you love.. like getting 5 hours of sleep a day..feeling like ure dying but yet.. sneaking around just to go look for them....today.. i woke up at 6.. and waited till my mum went out.. 7.30.. called him... but noone answered..so i decided to go over.. i called cab.. for over half an hour until i gave uo and decided to walk... =) so anyhoooowww.. i reached there at 8.30. and..................I COULDNT GET IN.. the pig refused to wkae up..i shouted till my voice got hoarse and in the end called his gradnmother's hse 4 the maid... well..she said she couldnt come so i ended up speaking to his godfather... =) he said he'd come.. IN half an hour T_T...............so yeah.. i stood outside his hse 4 an hour.. when i could have gone home and continued sleeping ....=) haha..call me stupid.. but hey... i juz wanted to spend as much time as i could with him........ is that wrong?

well...sadly... he doesn't feel the same way about me.. nah.. had nothing to do with wad i did earlier..he was really happy in face..cuz i hadnt done such stupid things for him in a while.. but.. it's always when i do these things i end up getting hurt sooner or later...so...a day with me.. or more den a day with me..after i finish my pmr... and after our anniversary... is...so meaningless to him.. that he could say that WHAT IS THAT FEW DAYS??? ....while he's off enjoying himself....and im home alone... missing him ..... his words pierced me like arrows...but like i said.. funny really.....how one sided the relationship seems...

another friend...so many things... on how guys treat their girls.. OMG...one of them is going on his gf's birthday..what's worst..they are quite a fresh couple.but she's so sincere....i don't know why.. he doesnt seem to get how important it is to spend time with his gf..instead of running off to some holiday with friends....SUPPOSEDLY BUSINESS TRAINING..snort.. well i tell u this now ppl... n stream is a con job... im sorry i tried cheating u ppl.. =S........ hey... guys... u have the world.. supported by ure gfs... and what do u guys do..i mean not all of u..but a majority...it really isnt funny..like they say.. you onli realise how important it is till it's gone.. but.. is it really worth that risk? i know what it feels like.. and...really... it's not something i want to go through again...

watched a jane austen classic just now.. i forgot what it's called...kinda shows u that...lose relationship thing.....and into the blue as well..i watched it today...are there really guys like erm..... SAm's bf anymore...?? ......cried a lot today......hahah......in the cinema and after that....feel so...*blinks* i dont know.........i don't know who to trust... i don't know who's real who isn't anymore... THANKS IAN.....for making me less gullible to the world.. u taught me a lot.. and never throw ureself into love.. full on... sometimes... you really end up wondering if it's really worth it...

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, October 06, 2005

OMG..im addicted to MEIJI's strawberry milk chocolates =S.. the ones in the shape of erm.... cone like with.. erm.... AIHYA!!! T_T.... soooooooo addictive man..

once again.. i have no comments abt exams =S

BUT MY SCARS!! *screams* unglyness.. UUGGLYYNNESSSSSSS

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

oooo....susan gave me an interesting sight....

HERE

.....do u believe in predictions?? apparently in 10 yrs time there will b world war 3..n 3 billion ppl died =S .....maybe im 1 of them..seeing as i have a very SHOT life line..no kidding..a lot of ppl shock when they see my life line ;p

but better not to know the futute.. and live life as it is..anyway that page might b a fraud ;p but im gullible so heck...

exams..OK KUA.....not too bad.....no comments actually...im still under quarantined... I MISS GOING OUT N WASTING MONEY *stares blankly into space n day dreams of malls*

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, October 02, 2005

OMMGGG OMMGG OMMMGGGG *runs around screaming* THEReS A FRIGGIN HOLE IN MY FACE!!! there was this hudee ugly blackk scaaabbb..and i couldnt resist so i pulled it off!! AND A PATCH OF MY FLESH CAME OUT WITH IT!! OMG OMG OMG!! now theres a friggin hole on my face .. wails in agony.... as if there isnt enough scars already!! CURSE U WRETCHED CHICKEN POX!!!

on another note..my pmr is morrow.. and once again.. i have achieved ultimate laziness... I WAS GOING TO STUDY THE PAST WEEK! i swear i was T_T.....but... aihya..u noe lar.. ppl got chicken pox..and so vain..must sleep to heal it wan geh... ohohohoh.. and today..was spent sleeping as well.. in fact.. its nearly 6 now.. and im about to go have a bubble bath.... I SWEAR I WILL STUDY LATER TONIGHT!! i swear i will T_T...................................................

-BabyGinz-