Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

..She Supports..

..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

.........u_u ............... i feel dead.................. like got so many things smashing into my face right now.. wtf...

just yesterday from monday till yesterday have to jadi host lagi to the japs... den i got my orals n lisans n all sort of things.. BLARDY HELL.. now i got 13 MOVIES SHOWING IN CINEMAS THAT I WANNA WATCH.... BLARDY HELL....

sigh............im just to lazy........ i feel like sleeping again u_u

-BabyGinz-

Monday, March 27, 2006

woots.. i rarely update hor now... what to do.. my life damn drama wan.. kekeke.. but sadly.. i cant blog about it or i could possibly reaaaaaaalllyy diee.. REALLY WAN.. waahahhaa.. ppl like ANG HSIO HUA know my tragic tale of drammmaaaness ;p but not really also la... can say expected expected.. or same old same old.. just that its been taken up a notch i guess?? HUHUHU

right.. i still have not done my lisan.. or my english lit ... OR MY ORAL.. well.. i intend to do improptu anyway so whatever ;p hehehehe ...well.. today i have to entertain jap girl again.. AIHHH T_T... this is all ian n nicholas fault's... T_T... DMAN DAMN.. im trying to save money..

SO SAD U KNOW..... I PLAN LAST SAT GO OUT KLCC.. plan nice nice.. watch 3 movies... eat haagan dazs with my vouchers T_T... FREE LOR..1 free ice cream n 1 more voucher 30 percent off.. WHICH IS LIKE EXPIRING at the end of the month..!! MAKES IT WORTH..i got 70 bucks of isetan vouchers also.. intended to use on sat.. ALSO EXPIRING AT THE END OF THE MONTH wan.. but then that asswipe had to go through one of his bombastic mood swings and spasms of mass destruction... and i spent the day being in my usual *drama* state...

AIH!! at least i got to watch dont open your eyes on thursday.. DAMN STUPID LOR THE SHOW.. SCARY YET FUNNY .... BUT DEN YET BLOODY SCARY.. actually not scary wan.. budden the damn bblardy sound effects lar.. damn kesian.... WHO WANTS TO TEMAN ME GO WATCH MOVIE MARATHON???!?!

involving any of these following movies in no particular order or preferrence..
-shaggy dog
-v for vendetta
-date movie
-i not stupid too
-tristan and isolde
-the new world
-inside man
-yours mine and ours

and those that are coming up soon.. actually i think got more to add to my above list wan.. just that now my brain blur blur kenot think onli.. ITS MORNING.. AND I REACH SCHOOL LATE.. so ark.. i did not have my usual morning snacks.. u_u ... brain dead~

...btw.. i have a sudden urge to join drama school u_u

OH YAHHHH!!! past few days ive been watching the rhythmic gymnastics on astro.. AND I FEEL SO SAD AND PATHETHIC.. those chicks are like 14-16 and they can do suchhh chun things!!! ME LEH!??!?! i cant even do a normal split anymore T_T not less bend my body around like im boneless.. DAMN REGRET LOR NOW.. regret what... well hahaha.. last time im suppose to learn.. my mum signed me up.. but me being my very procrasinating self.. didnt attend a single class... HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA...........i thought it was stupid at that time.. BUT NOW DAMN REGRET!! HAIH.. but then again ;p they all look so boobless.. so maybe the bending is related to it ;p so nvm la ;p i like my boobs.. not too big but not THAT SMALL ALSO.. *ken..u can stop laughing ure dumb head off now*

my boobs are growing okay ;p i can feel~ hahaha.. cuz my bras dont fit anymore.. YES LA.. NEW EXCUSE TO BUY BRA.. WMAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA........ or maybe its just a temporary thing and when my period ends it will deflate back to its original state... u_u .. i know la it memang does that.. but im implying now its bigger than it usually is lar.. HMPH~ *perasan perasan*

exactly 1 more month to bali... HUR HUR HUR......

OHH WAIT... 1 more thing to blog about.. IANS HOUSE GOT GHOST LOR..fuck shit.. i was playing with his phone.. then suddenly no bat so i put it on his cupboard.. den that day he was going through his moods as said earlier on so i tried sleeping lor.. den i heard his phone drop.. but i ignore... 4-5 hours later only i decided to go look for it.. THEN RIGHT.. totally cannot find lor the whole damn floor.. ITS LIKE NON EXISTANT in the room di.. so right the maid said..maybe got *people* lend eidi.. so i also believe la.. then i go n msg his phone.. hahah..asking whoever it is to return it.. then ian being his violent and aggresive self got damn angry... not that it was much different cuz he was alreayd damn angry to begin with.. so i got no choice to look again lor.. THIS TIME i opened places where there was like totally no possibility of it being there.. and guess what... yupz.. i found it.. WHERE...??

well.. you see.. ians room has 2 plastic cupboards..1 with wheels and 1 without.. the one with wheels obviousla la duh that at the bottom got big empty space.. but nooo it wasnt there..it was at the other 1.. which is DAMN WEIRD.. because.. all the drawers in that cupboard was closed..so there was totally no opening to it..its just like this solid oblong... but at the bottom got this hollow space.. and IT WAS THERE...

u all sure dont really get what i mean.. but the thing is.. its like u have a box okay.. the top of the box is open but the other 3 sides are totally sealed off.. and u turn the box upside down.. so like.. obviously theres a space at the centre..and now that center space is totally sealed off... because the 3 solid sides are on the outer sides.. GET IT GET IT??? SO HOW THE HELL DID IT GET THERE...................... T_T.. dammit..i sleep in that room alot.. ians room.. not my room ;p so u all no need scared... my room very safe wan.. HAHAHA.. well except from the mass of ants that occasionally attack my room due to all the sweet stuff i keep around.. aih.. what to do.. im so sweet..the ants also love me.. hHAHAHAH....

if youre wondering why i seem to b so high now.... its because the computer labs air cond is freezing me... and im on a high dued to it >.<....

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

XD ... well..today marks a very important day! I FINALLY DID SOME EXERCISE!! wahhahahahahha... after so so so long.. and it felt good to run around again.. barefooted in nice cool mud too for that matter of fact.. and today is also special because FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.. I ACTUALLY SCORED FOR LONG JUMP and not get DISQUALIFIED... *although only 1 point* BUT EH!! A LOT OF PPL DIDNT SCORE LOR.. TOO MUDDY GOT PPL SLIDE SUMMOH LOR ... lagilah i got phobia of falling flat on my face in the sandpit when i jump so i jump with the leaaasstttt effort possible and i still made it!! WHAHAHAHHA.. DAMN PROUD SIAL~

BE PROUD OF ME LOR! although red house is the lousiest.. blame all the ppl who didnt participate la.. blardy heck.. form 4 n 5 girls onli had like 8 participants??? AT LEAST I CONTRIBUTED 4 POINTS LOR... 4 OKAY!! banyak tau ;p for a person who hasnt done any exercise in well over a year... ahhhh... i miss the feeling of running around sweating.. >=D

i realised i LOVE MUD!!!!!! HAHHAHAHAH.. especially on a hot day..at 1st i was like.. wahhh.. how orh my shoes and socks den liz ask me take off then im like.. EWWWWW.. want meh..so gross.. budden i see everybody sliding here and there crashing here and there seeing as the shoes make them heavier in the end i took them off.. and when my warm feet touched the cool mud.... BLISS... *sighhhsss happily* den wading around in puddles of amazingly clean water.. although i did get a lot of stares like i was crazy and nazeera even commented that i would get tetanus which i replied with a if im meant to die ill die.. and someone started clapping at my answer "=_=....

btw... kafka on the shore is a retarded and fucked up book ;p but do read it.. quite intruiging i must say.. HAHAHAHHA.. im damn weird.. i noticed... ahhh.. ive finally rediscovered the joys of reading =) ... to read and get lost in the words.. in the story like you're there.. to lose track of time and just envelope yourself in the plot of the story...

last year i seem to have forgotten abt a lot of my likes and abandoned most of them... but im slowly rediscovering them.. i wanna join drama school again... but alas.. no time u_u oklay.. got lar.. i lazy only... cheh... dun cheh me la.. onli i can cheh u all okay.. WHAHAHAHAHA... i sound so high today....

which reminds me... i still have my yoga zone membership from last year..i still havent gone to a SINGLE CLASS... and the membership was 1k+ 4 a year.. and about 5 months has already gone by...??? oh dear oh dear.. anybody wanna go with me ark?? =S ... ive been putting on weight and lost my figure >.< MUST GET BACK NICE FIGURE... but not alone ;p kekekek... cuz i cant do shit alone...

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

right..i must blog on this.. it has been tugging on my mind for a while now.. last week.. the EVIL GRANDMOTHER STRIKES AGAIN... blardy fuck shit... i wanna dress sexily and show off my nice chun body u dun have .. CANNOT IS IT???! SORRY ALR URE OLD FLABBY AND U CANT FIT INTO NICE CLOTHES.. at least im not the bloody retard who cheated on my husbang n married him just for his money and when my bloody boy toy didnt want me anymore i run back to my husband whom i cheated on and used up all his money and have the guts to b mean and retarded to him even when he took me in... BITCh....bloody murderer as well.. T_T...

well you see..i was wearing LONG BAGGY PANTS..n a black tube.. SUMMOH ITS LONNGG TUBE... not those mini tubes.. LONG TUBE okay.. and she suddenly.. in cantonese.. eh whats your problem arh? why u like to dress like that? so i answered back.. huh.. dunno wor? den she continued to shoot me by saying... DONT U DARE TAKE ANDREA OUT... HUH.. JUST BOTH OF U U DRESS LIKE THAT.. U WANT PPL TO RAPE IS IT... if u kena rape.. NVM U KNOW... its your own fault.. but if andrea kena rape.. huh.. WHOS RESPONSIBLe.. U LAR... and summore crap like that...

bloody fuck shit.. no 1... I LIKE TO DRESS LIKE THAT CUZ NICE MAR.. CAN OR NOT.. IM PROUD OF MYSELF.. CAN OR NOT.. i take andrea out .. WHY.. CUZ NOBODY TEMAN HER..AND U STUPID RETARTED GRANDMOTHER WHO GOES OUT at 3-4 PM COMES HOME at 3-4 AM.. sleeps wakes up at 1-2 PM.. URE THERE TO TAKE HER OUT MEH??! HAH?? HAH?? DARE TO BLOODY SHOOT ME... BLOODY HELL.. i wear shorts and a t shirt also im half naked.. WTF ORH?? GO N DIE LAR U STUPID RETARDED WOMAN.. T_T

-BabyGinz-

Monday, March 20, 2006

ARGHHH!! there's so manyyy placceess i wantt too goo thiss yearr!! WHY WHY WHY?? WHY AM I NOT FILTHY RICH?? filthy rich for half a year also can lor!! SO MANY PLACES!! REDANG!! SARAWAK!!! JAPAN!! KOREA?!?!?! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

WHYY WHYYYY WHYYYYYYYYY those stupid ppl are so stupid to cheat my father's money now!?!!?WHATS WRONG WITH U BLOODY RETARDS?!??! CANT U BLOODY EARN YOUR DAMN MONEY WITHOUT MAKING OTHER PEOPLE MISERABLE IN THE PROCESS?!?!? I CURSE U FUCKTARDS TO A MILLION BILLION GAZILLION DEATHS AND TO HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T...... WHY IS IT WHEN I NEED MONEY THAT MY FAMILY FACES FINANCIAL DIFFICULTIES!?!?! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???

*sits in corner n sulks*

i have been going to my blog's corner..sulking and being a spoiled brat quite oftenly lately havent i.. lol

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, March 19, 2006

righto.. after 2 hours of CLAIMING that im not going to procrasinate anymore.. i have achieved.. 2% of my work =D. YAY! hooray for meeeee!!! but aihyaaa.. i can't tahan anymore lar.. aihyo..damn malas i tell u...

U TRY MAKING A VIDEO when u 4got all ure pics in the schools cam and guessing which pic is which den putting text on it.. HARD LOR.. den trying to put music when all u see is white screen with words at the bottom n X on the white screen... T_T.... IMPOSSIBLE LOR.. hey..at least right.. i eidi shortlisted a few songs n copy them into my thumbdrive so can take school and do right... THATS SOMETHING RIGHT?? RIGHT? RIGHT??

and then leh..morrow no addmaths.. den english lit..can do b4 tuition mar.. HOR HOR.. clever hor!! den ah.. oral ah... since teacher din't ask us do research and stuff... i can do improptu geh~... i hope u_u... havent done that in a long time.. BUT CAN WAN!! this kinda person.. always chui sui and crap.. i dont believe that i cant do this.. how ironic... im being so cocky now and my topic is on egos.. hmmm.. but maybe i'll talk about alter egos.. HMMMMMM... morrow only shuin...

damn..i feel damn un nice when i read what im typing..so ah beng style.. crap lar..i must return to my former glorious english self.. where can b stuck in between wan T_T.. so cacat man

i wonder whats wrong with me.. @_@....

-BabyGinz-

HUR HUR HUR................................. im screwed.. i spent yesterday playing playboy mansion ......... "=_= ........................ AND SO NOW..ITS 9.10 PM ON SUNDAY... and i havent finished a single thing!! eh no wait..i did achieve 1 thing.. I WAXED MY LEG! WAHAHAHAhaha. at least not entirely wasted maaa my day.. hor hor hor

1. Movie
2. Addmaths
3. English Lit
4. Oral
5. Lisan
6. Bukit Kepong

CRAp... n im feeling soooo sleepy now.......... this is not good.. this is seriously not good T_T... i wonder how long i can survive... MUST..at LEAST...COMPLETE 1 THING... I MUST... must not procrasinate... T_T... toodles~

-BabyGinz-

Friday, March 17, 2006

right... im still not done with any of my work.. and i even forgot to list 1.. ENglish Lit... T_T... and i still dont know what im doing for oral and lisan.. great.. just great.. im pretty much screwed!!! *mental note to self. Must. Stop. Being. Lazy. Must. Work. Hard!*

anyyyhoooww im going to ballliiiii~ this time it's for real okay!!! bought eidi everything.. hohohoohoho

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

ive come to notice something.. i have a lot of work 2 d0 @_@

1. IT-movie to be handed up on monday. only just begun
2. Addmaths - er..do i have addmaths? oh ya..i do.. haha..on a paper.. HMM
3. Oral - my topic is ego. but im still not sure what exactly im gonna talk abt.. haha.. damn cacat right!! where got ppl choose title liao den dunno wad to talk abt wan!
4.Lisan - i have nooooooooooooooooo ideaaaa
5.Bukit Kepong - dear gawd..i dont think i can get through it.. i just see the thickness also dun wanna open liao.. DAMMIT

and its already wednesday night.. HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.............. lazy lazy lazy.. n ok la.. not that much work lar.. but for lazy ppl like me.. VERY STRESS U KNOW.. i havent wax my leg la... i havent organize all my picture files properly la.. i havent plan my trip properly la.. matta fair this friday XD .. luh hur luh hur luh hur....aih.. so soon holidays gonna end.. so stress u_u

(11.20pm edit: OMFG!! I DECIDED TO DO MY MOVIEW.. BUT I CANT DO SHIT!! i 4got to save the pics and they r all in the schools com..SO THEY APPEAR AS BLANK SCREEN WITH X IN MY COM!! OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!! IM SO EFFING SCREWED!!! WTF WTF WTF)

-BabyGinz-

.....................THE BLOODY WORLD DOESNT REVOLVE AROUND U OKAY!!!!! FUCK YOU!.............

U KNOW U SCREWED UP URE EXAMS U BLOODY WELL KNOW WHY SO WAKE UP AND REALISE.. TALK FUCK THAT YOU REGRET JOR.. BUT YET DONT DO ANYTHING......... WTF....................

IM HERE DOESNT MEAN IM SUPPOSE TO JAO U 100% OKAY....... I DO WHAT I CAN....... STOP BEING SO CONCEITED AND NAIVE........ I MAY B YOUNGER THAN U.. BUT SO WHAT.. THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT DESERVE YOUR FUCKING RESPECT...

-BabyGinz-

Monday, March 13, 2006

i am sooooo soooooooooo sadddddddddd..................... there goes my trip to redang......... blardy hell... the hotels already fully book!! DAMN WAI LOR!!! WHERE CAN WAN!!! ALL THIS PPL NOTHING BETTER TO DO MEH SO FAST GO N BOOK T_T... KL ONLY LOR... KL N REDANG DAMN NEAR ONLY LOR!! NEED TO BOOK 4-5 MONTHS IN ADVANCE OR NOT ORH U STUPID PEOPLE................. *sulks in corner*

BLARDY FUCK SHIT.. OKAY LAR..... FINE LAR.. I GO ANOTHER PULAU............ CELAKA.........if i can think of another pulau to go to T_T.. *sulks* QUICK PEOPLE!! IM OPEN TO SUGGESTIONS!!! date.. 29 April - 1st May

NO.. NOT GENTING.. i hate genting.......... T_T.. soooo.. unromantic okay.. n sooo *shudders* ...... u know lar.. and consumes damn a lot of money also.. aih... im so heart broken.. my redang.. T_T........................ I HATE U STUPID PEOPLE WHO BOOKS 4-5 MONTHS IN ADVANCE!! DIE DIE DIE!!!

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Woots.. SPM results will b out morrow... kekeke.. good lucks to those taking their results ^-^

i did the stupidest thing today... i bought marrying buddha...I ALREADY HAVE IT.. i thought i only had shanghai baby but when i looked through it..i realised i already had it.. FUNNY THING IS.. i dont remember what's in shanghai baby... "=_= ....

ive got nothing much to blog about... life hasnt been anything but the norm ...

im starting to get depressed at my english.. my english standard n fluency has dropped like a stone @_@........... now im good NOTHING.. my english also just average.. my bm.. slightly below average... my cantonese n mandarin.. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA.. any other languange.. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA....... see... point proven...

once again... I AM IN DIRE NEED OF CASH... anyone wanna be my sponser??? *puppy dog eyes*

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

aih aih aih.. damn malas to blog already.. dont know why... feeling really dead and tired lately.. but u know what..

IM SO DISSAPOINTED AT THE PINK PATHER...

omfg!! i bloody thought the show was about my fav kitty next to garfield... THE ACTUAL PINK PANTHER.. but noooooooooooooooooooo............... the bloody pink pather is just a bloody diamond.. WTF??? HOW CAN THEY DO THAT!!! DAMN BLOODY CHEAT PPL LOR!! i thought the pink pather would be some 3d animation thing.. but its just a bloody dumbass diamond.... GOD DAMN IT... HOW CAN THEY DO THIS!!!! *(@$^*#&^%$*^%#^$^#$

..............so many movies.. so little time..... so very little cash T_T.....

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, March 05, 2006

We need each other. Yet we refuse to accept the reality of it. We want each other. Yet we choose to think that we dont. We want to escape. To be free and rid of this God forsaken relationship. Yet God binds us in his invinsible string.

Stuck in a relationship where love barely exist. Struggling and fighting. Are we in love? Are we not? Unable to see the truth. Unable to accept the facts. I am me. He is him.

Binded so tightly. 2 becomes 1. Without each other. We are incomplete. Half and half. An empty void. Lost within our hearts. Yet the flame of our hearts continue to dim. Even with each other. We are half and half. Never Complete.

Unable to handle God's given gift. We are so incompatible. Yet so strangely alike. Like magnets we seem. Same from the outside. But different inside. Yet with characters exactly alike. An unbreakable force. We continue to fight. Knowing the outcome. Of how we will always be 1.

What outsiders don't see. Don't continue to ignite. The flame's of our torments. His friends seem to bring. How do they call themselves friends? I wonder all night. For all they do. Is continue to make us fight. Making our hearts shallow. Leaking it's love. Forcing us into an empty circle. He is half. I am half. Without each other. Neither is complete.

Face it you asses. No matter how hard you try. We can't be seperated. For seperation will only be temporary. So why don't you try. Try to understand. Some things just can't make amends. Leave us in peace. Im sick of your games. I'm sick of this emptyness. That even i cannot deny.

-BabyGinz-

i wonder whats the point of making others suffer from your own problems.. n furthurmore.. making up fucked up lies and getting others into even more trouble??? SMIRKS..

sorry sam..suddenly shoot u.... =S dint meant to wan.. juz very luin den dunno wad to think..

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, March 04, 2006

i went to mid valley today. THERE is SO MANY THINGS THAT I WANT.. *btw i have not been to mid valley in more den a month!! GASP....* sadly.. I HAVE NO MONEY.. this is SAD..... i need a get rich quick scheme T_T

-BabyGinz-

Friday, March 03, 2006

i was in the shower just now when i came to a sudden realisation .....

Jeng Jeng Jeng....

HAAGAN DAZS MALAYSIA HAS NO MINT FLAVOURED ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!! at least i dont recall having ever eaten mint flavour ice cream in haagan dazs.. HMMMM

onnnn another note... it's strange how things between me and ian are going on @_@.. now im the one trying to pull away.... HUR HUR HUR... whats up with that??

me: *sprawled on sofa*

him: *just came home from work turns to me and smiles* AHHHH...the best thing for a husband when he comes home from work is to see his wife lying on the sofa waiting to give him hugs and kisses *proceeds to hug me*

me: *just smiles*

how ironic.. he's been trying to break up and suddenly we're "married" ?? okay.. so like whatever... good lar like that... anyyywayyy... lately been supremely emotional and been crying about pretty much everything..and have definitely thought of breaking up because i JUST.DONT.THINK.I.CAN.HANDLE.IT.NO.MORE. so this is what happened

me: *crying like a cow due to reason i prefer not to state*

him: so what u want now??

me: ..i DONT KNOW..i want things i cant have.. blah blah blah...im gonna give u what you wanted the past few months *like i said..he's been trying to break up a lot*

him: CHI SEEN WAN LOR U.. *proceeds to pretend like he never heard what i said*

and then another scenario... today in fact..

me: I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...

him: THEN?? WHAT U WANT?? U WANT TO BREAK UP IS IT??!DEN BREAK UP LAR

me: FINE *proceeds to walk out of the room*

him: YOU SEE!! I KNEW IT WAN LOR!! THE PAST FEW DAYS UVE BEEN TRYING TO BREAK UP ONLY MAR... JUST SAY SO LAR... WASTE MY FUCKING TIME...

me: *crying*

him: COME HERE LAR STUPID *moves to side of bed and DEMANDS that i lie next to him*

me: what u want??

him: NOTHING LAR OKAY.. I JUST WANT TO LIE HERE AND HUG U CAN OR NOT?? *hugs me so tightly that its kinda hard to breath*

and conclusion.. we are still together...?? but i don't get it.. like my friend pointed out... you guys can't live without each other yet you guys want to leave each other...

BLAHHHH.. MY HEAD HURTS... did i mention ive been getting headached a lot lately... and im off to the doctor soon cuz my mum reckons i got low blood pressure.. =S...

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

my mother is so strange..... @_@.. she wont let me go to rompin with ian n family and she's letting me go with them to hong kong n macau.. NOT THAT IM COMPLAINING... WKaKAKAKAKakKAK

-BabyGinz-