Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

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..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

..She Supports..

..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Friday, September 30, 2005

never there would b the word that best descibes him, never there when i really need him... he says it's becasue i can't come out 24/7 and yet i control his every movement ... but what about me? do i wish to be in a family that TEACHES DISIPLINE ... and what about the times when he's out playing and having fun... forgetting about my very existence... am i suppose to be happy for him? when im at home crying and wanting him? he's never there at the most crucial moments... or couldn't b bothered might be the word...

the story of two very different people from very different backgrounds... attraction yes.. compatibility? who knows... co existance in peace and harmony? yeah right... how's that possible ..when my patience has worn out? he can't be bothered.. no no ... his fun is much more important... let me go.. let me be free.. is what he wants most.. so be it.......take ure freedom and let me be....... i wish u would make a choice.......decide and mean it........ don't keep hurting me.. it really isn't funny

-BabyGinz-

watched bridget jones diary again..for the god noes how many time.... crying my stupid eyes out now.... AGAIN.....stupid really... to go watch love stories and cry like an arse hoping that something magical might happen when really...fairytales...dont exist.......

-BabyGinz-

dissapointment rears its ugly head again..... hahahaha... i don't know why i do this to myself.. continuously believing that maybe he actually does something FOR ME... only to find out the very next day.. he didn't do it at all..and in the start it had nothing to do with me... hurts like hell it does...

my life is full of dissapointments.. haha..wont be surprise if i screw up my pmr as well =)

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 29, 2005

i seem to have found 3 of the most interesting blogs ever @_@ and they are all assocaited with each other XO ...

1st person - fren insisted she looked like me so went to take a look
2nd person - boyfriend of 1st person
3rd person - sister of 2nd person

seriously... their blogs are interesting XO

an example of the entertainment found...

"WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! I HAVE NO FUCKING INTEGRITY OR DIGNITY LEFT! EVERYBODY IN KUALA LUMPUR WILL KNOW ME AS THE GIRL WHO GOT DRESSED BLIND AND TUCKS HER SKIRT INTO HER UNDERWEAR AFTER PEEING."

-BabyGinz-

depression hits at the strangest times... and each time it leaves a wound and a face tear stained .... the though of suicide has popped out so often that i wonder.. maybe i need help or something.......

i just want to sit in my little black corner and cry .... alone ....

my greatest fear in life... would b loneliness... and it's been visiting more and more often lately....i want to meet someone.. who can take away all my loneliness and make me feel safe and warm again.....

-BabyGinz-

it's funny how you tend to miss people at all the wrong times...when they're there u just never acknowledge them or take them for granted.. it's always when they're gone or you've gotten into a big fight with them that you start to miss them..it's quite frustrating really..and when you think of giving that someone a call.. your egoistic self looms over and just takes over.. too proud to admit that you miss the person?? is that really something weak?? or am i just a shallow person??

well...i havent been to school in ages..or out for that fact..last time i went out was for stomp...WITH HIDEOUS POX marks on my face *shrinks into corner* i've never felt so ugly before T_T... oh no wait..i went to the doc's again on monday... haha..i am under house arrest not that i want to be seen by the public in such state anywhere... btw..i think my hamsters are pregnant again.. must remind self to seperate them this time .. XO...

PMR is just around the corner and what have i been doing? picking at my spots...watching tv.. and reading shanghai baby *gasp* i dont even have any books with me.. haha... i crave meattt...i cravvee a lot of foooodddd... T_T.. but due too much chinese superstitions..i can't eat a lot of things... 4 3 months T_T.... there's 1 about cucumbers..haha..if i eat cucumbers i'll b itchy for 100 days XD and if a pregnant woman touches me or i see a pregnant woman i'll get very itchy and my poxes will get infected and be full of puss... *shudders* they are already gross enough thank you...

i miss cam-whoring T_T...oh..i just notice something.. when i type b itchy ... if u connect them u get BITCHY!! XO ...i'm so corny i scare myself..

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

ahh..u have never seen this on mah bloggie before ;p but seeing as the pink pau has tagged me.. i might as well...seeing as im such a good sport and all.. XD XD...kekekee

SEVEN THINGS....

Seven things that scare me.
1. loneliness
2.thooseeee... *things* u noe... *those things*
3. failing
4. heights
5.worms and all insects that wriggle about like worms
6.nightmares
7.deep deep sea..where its all pitch black n bottomless..

Seven things I like
1. chocolatesss and candies
2.PINK!
3. music
4. technology
5. FOOD
6. being loved
7. animals..babies n adorable old ppl ;p

Seven important things in my room
1. MY BED
2. My photos full of memories XD ..neoprints included
3. my dollsz
4. MY WARDROBE WITH ALL MY CLOTHES N UNDERGARMENTS!!!
5. all the presents ppl have given me =)
6. the memories in it =)

Seven random facts about me
1. i like exams =) *less school work
2. i dont like eating what i bake
3. I HATE WHITE CHOCOLATE
4. i actually like the smell of some cigs
5. i dont like the taste of alcohol
6. i love to cam whore
7. most of the time when im online, i just stare blankly at the computer screen

Seven things I plan to do before I die
1. have the wedding of my dreams
2. have kids
3. travel around the world
4. learn how to cook properly u_u
5. be taller .... *sits in corner with a cone that says shortie*
6. learn how to surf
7. stop being a hunch back

Seven things I can do
1. bake *onli when im in a good mood or else everyting taste funny ;p*
2. SHOP!!
3. lie and wriggle my way out of situations
4. sleep =)
5. eat ;p ;p
6. touch my nsoe with my tongue po=
7. be a bitch >=p

Seven things I can't do
1. resist tempatations
2. not use money
3. go out wearing a baggy t shirt
4. snap my fingers
5. wriggle my ears
6. diet
7. be hardworking..im too darn lazy

Seven things I say the most
1. EEEE!! SO CUTE WAN!!
2. FUCK OFF LAR....
3. WHATEVER...
4.yeahhhhhhhh... suureeeee
5. soon soon ( ends up never)
6. yerr...why u so weird wan....
7. cacat lar u~

Seven people who will have to do this:
1. Susan
2. Vivien
3. Amanda
4. Magdalene
5. Li Tien
6. Jia Min
7. ALVIN LEONG ;p ;p

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 26, 2005

i am on the verge of suicide.. no...seriously.. i am........ T_T............

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, September 24, 2005

OKAYY..sooo i have the chiicckkenn poooxxx.. howww greatt is that... i wonder if im still watching stomp morrow.. fucking screwed up mood right now.. dont bother me.. *grar*

-BabyGinz-

Friday, September 23, 2005

im having a headache.. been having it 4 a few days already... my head is heavy..i feel like chopping my hair off T_T... which i will..eventually...my body is aching and weird little balls of waters are popping up all over my body..i wonder what's wrong with me this time..... sighhhhh..... there's evenin my ass crack.. luckily at the top most of my ass crack..n 1 of my boob.. T_T AND ! OF MY EARS...dammit..after the ball of water pops.. it HURTS..and 1 on right above my lips.. T_T... aND anoter 1 high up on my thigh.... beeps..let's see if anymore will develope... and my period is late... not that im complaining ;p no mess and bigger boobs 4 a longer time ;p ;p

went to prince hotel 4 buffet today.. not much to eat orh..in fact.. i mostly indulged in cream of vegetable soup n chocolate brownies.. THATS ABT IT..lol... i did it other things... but not much... i finish their brownies.... u_u... u noe how they put glass trays with mini cakes and stuff.. yeah well.. i took the whole roiw of brownies... thats wad i payed 60 bucks 4.. LOL..and they wereee tinnnyyyy... TINNNYY i tell u so its not my fault.. HMPH!

i want chocolate.... i want bigger boobs and a nicer butt... i want flawless skin and hairless legs... and whiter teeth.... and a well toned tummy...and nicer haiirr.. n a nicer nooseee... n i wanna b talllerrrrr....n perfect eye sigggghhhttt.... IS THAT TOO MUCHHH TOO ASKKK FOR??? gosh... im random and emotional...

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 22, 2005

well well..since im in school and im bored anyywaay ;p i shall post a picture of mahh sexy new bra neway XD XD with a hot model to go with it.. yummy yummy.. eye candy 4 all XD

oh dear..much to my sadness.. i'm sad to say... BUT.....i can't find it online..but i shall psot other eye candy pics to give you an diea of what it looks like.. wahahhahahaa

well..it looks like the zebra 1..the pattern..instead of dots its zebra strips.. =) n nots o much lace..got but not that much ;p but i have the dotted 1 too..lol..but not this 1..mine muchhh sexier ;p bwahahahahaa

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

oooo...m feeling exceptionally hyper at the moment..and im hungry too..i didnt eat dinner.. u_u i shall go locate some food right after this entry... WHHAHAhAHa...

had a pretty weird conversation with zaid today.. hahaha..it went something like this (may not be accurate but mroe or less the same)

him : SHEEN LENG~
me : WAD?!??!?!?!?! *annoyed look*
him : teach me how to do sex rambang
me : *raises eyebrows but proceeds to crap anyway* first you unzip ure pants *this was because amanda n sabrina told him 1st u take off ure pants so kenot same wan ma ;p* den u unzip ure pants...
him : lepas tu?
me : den u take ure dick out
Him : how?
me : neh u noe guys underwear got a slit in the middle wan ;p there lo
Him n Boonsz : EH!?!? HOW U NOE WAN!! YERHHHHHH
me : i have a father and a brother...
Sabrina : yahhh..her bro owiz wear boxers den never button wan
me : yah yahh..den can c wan sumtims...

*time to go home....while walking*

Him : eh? u havent finish teaching me
Me : oh..then u go and find a tree with a hole..
Him : den den?
Me : EH WAIT??!?! NO NO ... i start over... first..u find a tree with a hole den *blah blah repeats upper conversation*
Him : den what
Me : then u insert ure dick into the hole and move until u satrt to feel high
Him : How ahh?? how to move ahh? can u demonstrate ahhh
Me : .........*i dont actually remmeber what happenes next.. u_u*

i feel like working.. am i weird?? no..seriously..i feel like having a part time job....@_@... i'm weird..i know im weird....

cruds..my tummy can't take it anymore... *scurries off in search of MEAT*

( 10.48 p.m edit : i have.. come...to...a shocking discovery.......................

*gasp*

it's too horrible.......i can't bear it....

I HAVE RUN OUT OF MAGGI!!! SOMEONE HAS BEEN EATING MY MAGGI STASHHH!!!!

*faints*

-BabyGinz-

*woots* in the span of less den a week.. i have spent a total of 1 k~!! OR POSSIBLY MORE!! *woots* and im not quite well broke but ladidadida ;p i dun care~!! im goin buffet on friday ;p bleah~!! I DONT CARE WHAT YOU PEOPLE SAY!! LET ME SPENND SPENNNDDD!! U TOOK AWAY MY JAPAN TRIP!! SO LET ME BE HAPPYYY~~ *runs off laughing insanely*

well let's see.. went to isetan pre sale.. didn't really have mood to do anything lo.. akkaka...went there 4 the DIRT CHEAP strawberries wan.. budden the sales ppl say hah? strawberries not sweet wan wor when i ask them which was better.. australian strawberries or USA straberries.. ignore them wann..den ian went... HAH? u wanna carry strawberries all around... that got me thinking and i eventually 4got all about my strawberries T_T...........dang nabbit.. i was gonna dip them in chocolate too... BEEPERS...

teman ian buy shoes... I DONT GET IT!! GUYS LEATHER SHOES ALL LOOK ALIKE!!!!! T_T........So stress man trying to differenciate them and choose which one look nice.. all also nearly the same wan.. cheh~ louyah... haih... i want a gay friend lar.... u_u ... give better opinions.. LOL...

i bought neww thonngssss and a newww braaaaa XD yay yay... my bra is pink and black with black lace..pink and black cuz its zebbraaa stripppsss XD woot woot.. i would post a pic 4 all ure drooling eyes too see but im too darn lazy... LOL ... it's so puuurrtyyyy.... i wuv pink.. and i love lace.... puurttyy....

im gonna go watch stomp on sunday..im gonna go watch stomp on sunday *wonders of chanting stomp*

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 19, 2005

fucking stressed right now.. my bloody head hurts like fuck i think it's gonna split open any bloody minute...

i am pounding on my keyboard as i type this entry ..i feel like poking my bloody eyes out as well!!!

I DUNNO WTF IS WRONG WITH MY RELATIONSHIP WITH IAN........... DO LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIPS REALLY BLOODY EXIST.............it's so fucking stressful..it's just like that bloody saying in my book marrying buddha..... GARHHHGHHH

To love is to suffer.
To avoid suffering, one must not love.
But then one suffers from not loving.
Therefore to love is to suffer,not to love is to suffer.
To suffer is to suffer.
To be happy is to love.
To be happy is then to suffer.
But suffering makes one unhappy.
Therefore,to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.

LIKE WTF!!!!

-BabyGinz-

i finally finaalllyy watched final fantasy 7 advent children!!! FINALLY! they destoryed my clouuuddddd..he's not yeng anymore..he's... so... PRETTY T_T....luckily vincent is still yeng *swoons* the show was ok only lar..not too say that good but not to say bad either.. certain parts were a bit stiff.. and WHERE CAN SEPHIROTH BE DEFEATED SO EASILY WAN!! he sooo.. *sighhhhhhhh* and howw can his spirit b like that!! SO GIRL!! SO NOT MY SEPHIROTH!!!

skiped school again..so bored of it liao... =_=

mooncake festial..boring..the eve.. pretty entertaining i guess.. lol.. forced sze ye to watch japanese av because she was going on and on abt sins and how christian yahde yahde yahde...wad has that school done to her T_T....but no candles and lanterns to play with TT ...opps..accidentally exposed daniel boy who is 6 to the japanes av as well.. LOL...

played tennis on friday..kakaka.. i cannn so play..ok..so maybe i have really crap eye coordination.. BUT HEY!! my first time oK!! at least can serve back ;p BLEARGHHHHHH ....

im just too lazy to blog lately.. i crave chocolate... dammit.. im gonna go eat ice cream instead T_T

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 15, 2005

*$&*(&#$(^$&^*&#$ IM SOOO FUCKING PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!!
MY FUCKING COM HAS BEEN ACTING UP A LOT LATELY!! I CANT EVEN BLOODY TRANSFER FILES ON BLOODY MSN ANYMORE!!! and its lagging like fuck.. im sooo fucking ARGHHHHH!!!!

SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME... T_T

-BabyGinz-

i feel fat..i juz ate 3 mini magnums n a packet of strawberry pocky sticks.. i think im gonna go pig out on some instant noodles now... u_u

-BabyGinz-

retard

zaid is sitting next to me T_T..... god knows if he'll suddenly close my whole window and all my post will dissapear.. WUWUWUUWUWUWUUWUWUW.....

once again..i have sadly forgotten what i wanted to blog about.. HAHAHA.. u must be wondering whaths the point of me blogging then...ahhh..it's just to pass time... kekekeke........

busy busy lately....busy yet free... LOL... i sound retarded.. i shall name this post retard on the go XS

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

luh hurrr luhh hurrr luhhh hurrrr... i actually 4got what i wanted to blog about T_T... BEEPERZ..i shall be back later ;p kekeke

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, September 10, 2005

1 oh my hamsters died.. wuwuwuw..so charm.. my mum throw it without telling me..i come home onli tell me.. haih.. wanna bury it oso kenot.. rest in piece my poor lil baby..

went to the aquarium..was quite dissapointing ler.. not as chun as i expected..its ok ..quite fun... but not big enuff~!! T_T... HAIH.. we like small kids..running around pointing here n there n laughing... got this 1 fish that i really like..yellow wan..it swims round n round n round super fast.. its soooo cute!! n i love the turtles!! kekeke..they come to the glass wan so close!! cute like hell..hahaha..i caught beetles..mating...n saw sea horses n turtles abt to mate as well.. BWHAhHA..i also saw lizards peeing n shitting..i saw fish pee n shit also.. akakaa..i dunno why i end up seeing all the weird things..n there was this fish at the end..haha..damn funnny.. the nose like tersumbat with 2 straws

watched red eye..blearhhh..ok ok onli..kinda short.. walked around klcc park..kekeke..quite a nice day today...happy..bought new bag from mambo..haha...was gonna get my micro mini skirt from topshop but i saw the bag i got attracted to it so got that instead..had chocolate fondue oso!! yummy..long time didnt eat liao

garh..my com hates me..after reformat..now got trojan again..den my internet laggy like hell..den now i cant connect to msn!?! WTF

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 08, 2005

friends

i hadnt notice but i've discovered i really truly have given up a lot of my friends for him.. not literally give up friends but my so called good friends.. i used to have 7 of them... in seperate gangs but i was always a part of either 1... outings discussions.. everything i was always with either group always included... but lately..things have started to change... im just an outsider.. my friends are still my friends but they arent what they used to be

outings without me..a lot of plannings excluding me.. and something happened a few days back that kinda shocked me but not nice to talk about it =/ i dunno... just going through my mind... but it's ok..i dont really mind.. cause either way.. it's better to be free den stuck .. i have friends all around some most people would never expect... and that's ok.. im happy..so heck ;p dunno what im yapping about...

just a little moody atm.. thanks to a certain someone and his pig headedness...thinking he's king of the world and stuff.. bleah.. you guys probally noe who im talking about..LOL...

finally got around to reading a proper story book again after like what 8-9 months? LOL..yes..that is how long i have not read a story book.. gosh..i miss it.. the chick lits..the mushyness of the love stories~ <3 sigh... im reading marrying buddha now.. really sexual and atm it's pretty good.. but they have damn weird names that's all i can say.. but as usualy.. a chic lit love story... LOL... makes ya feel like being the heroin of the book at some point... =S

i might not be going to japan after all... sad sad... and im really fedup of baking..so.. haih..i also dunno wad now... see how ler... =/

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 05, 2005

im getting pretty bored with life lately.. i dunno? im bloody 15 and im working my arse off baking cuz i wanna go japan for christmas.. the exams are here.. im short of cash to spend.. ive lost interest in a lot of things.. INCLUDING FOOD...and lounging around watching movies and animes..

well not that it was very intersting before and all but..it seems to be getting really bland lately.. the same old things over and over again.. i should appreciate it i know i should.. but i cant.... GARHH~ *chants emo emo emo over and over again*

and i've been lost with quite a few things lately mainly my relationship...yesterday a friend ask me how do you tell if its love or lust? kinda makes me wonder a little.. but to me..if there's no love there's not much lust is there.. there has to be that little bit of love buried there somewhere... i think too much =X

hm..i seem to be going through emotional stress or something

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, September 04, 2005

bad bad day

BAD BAD day 4 baking today!! VERY VERY BAD BAD day.. so many weird things happen!!! XS GRRRRR!! oh well.. nvm..still muz sell..if not i rugi a lot.. SIGHHH

watched lords of dogtown n dukes of hazzard.. both oso not bad XD .. I SAW THE MOST PERFECT MICRO MINI SKIRT in topshop!! BUT I HAVE NO MONEY!! and the most gorgeous boots in zara!! BUT I HAVE NO MONEY and i dont want to touch it either.... T_T... its pig skin lining!!! i shall have nightmares

i love piao chings hse XD it's so comfy.. kekeke..btw piao!! I WANT I WANT I WANT!!! i want the tortoise... T_T....i oso want the pink cat carpet!!! XD XD GIMME GIMMEE!!! *god noes when he'll read this

i need money..i need money.. I NEED NEED MONEY....

-BabyGinz-

Friday, September 02, 2005

...........MY DAD IS SUCH AN ARSE>.........!! BLOODY HELL!! he wants me to friggin throw my hamsters BECAUSE HE CLAIMS THEY BRING BAD LUCK!! WTF IS THAT.. all bcuz the parents keep eating the babies..but hellloo..so what..ask me throw.. lagilah berdosa.. wad shit..

i wonder if he has ever thought that maybe or his bad luck is his own doing.. jeez... couldn't he be a little more considerate..they r my bloody hamsters!! n they were presents as well~!! and they meant something!!! T_T

-BabyGinz-

sometimes..i kinda wished..we never got back together..i was happy...i got over him...but yet.. we got back together.. it's less than a month..and already we've broken up again.....and..my heart's going through the same thing it went through 3 months ago... i thought i would be ok because afterall..i was the one who decided to break it off.. but yet.. im not...

i let my guard down... i gave him my heart again..sooner than i wanted too.. and now...it's feeling the betrayals it felt before... i just never learn my lessons......

i just want to close my eyes and never wake up.......

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 01, 2005

fed up

im sick of his lies...im sick of him..i wish he would go away and leave me alone.. if he wants to be with me... then be sincere.. stop hurting me.. i can't take it anymore... please..................... either let me be or be with me................. decide..and stop messing around... i'm not a toy...

all you do is lie to me...make me cry..break my heart........and cover it up with another lie... if thats wad a relationship supposedly full of love is about.........i don't want it....................HONEST... i don't...

-BabyGinz-