Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

..She Supports..

..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Made up Dolly Lies

It is the beginning of a stupid school girl crush. Pathethic attempts at self degradation in order to get just the tiniest remarks from that one person.

I am not a make up person. And i rarely ever dress nicely for anything anymore. Even when i do,as soon as there is a chance i get to pull everything off and get into my usual slouchy clothes i do it.

so the past few days i have been in girly clothes with gunk on my face and every time i get home i cease to change back in hopes that he will call and i will get to show myself off. and so far it just doesnt happen that way. and when i do get to see him i just walk out in house clothes and be questioned as to why am i dressed like an aunty today. hm. how very quaint.

even now i still have make up on my face from a previous photoshoot. even when i know i will probably not get to see him today. and i know that i will put on that tube and that floral skirt just in case.

"he can make you feel anyway he wants you to feel. just be careful" - R

and i just never learn.

Labels: confessions, personal, stupidity, tragedies

-BabyGinz-

Friday, October 16, 2009

Starry Eyed Fall

im smiling for you. im smiling with you except once again the jokes on me.

built my walls on hate. told myself no just go. have fun let loose and now i find myself doing things for you i normally wouldnt. sitting on your bed telling you i was going out yesterday, the cold look and answers you gave me froze me in place. i irritate you to no ends, piss you off unexpectedly and normally i wouldnt give a shit because who the hell are you to me? and likewise i am nobody to you. and that is how you like it.

today i said 5 years down the road im going to see you and you're going to forget who i ever was just like every other one you have. without a hint of hesitation you said most likely and for some reason i smiled. an affectionate smile. i think you noticed because after that you said, you? i think you i will remember. it didnt mean anything. it doesnt mean anything. so why even bother?

we always want what we can't have.

and i should know this by now.

so why do i let my mask slowly fall like raindrops against a window pane.

i'm falling.

and i cant help it. and i know you will hate me for it.

Labels: confessions, personal, stupidity, wordy

-BabyGinz-

24-28 Feb 09 @ Randoms 2

happy chairs

spent much time here in the past.

wtf retarded

baby cotton =(

chippy again la

tsk..dirty

muka retarded.

oh haiz

Labels: animals, camwhore, dogs, pics, rabbits

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Pitter Patter Insanity

"pit pat pit pat thump thump thump"

i usually relish rainy nights. today its sound resonates at a frequency much higher than usual in my head. the rhythemic repetition sounds like nails being drilled into my head and i want to scream in frustration at it all.

my eyes are burning again. i am very very tired.

yet i cannot stop moving. as we speak i am jiggling my right leg in such an unruly manner one would snap at me if they saw. my body aches all over.

i want to crawl into the arms of someone familiar and be soothed by his/her voice. someone to tell me it's okay and that they care. yes i am needy. and yes i am clingy. and even more yes i should probably learn to grow up.

i did not need to hear you mock my parking today. i know i am bad at it. normally i would laugh it off. today, my emotions couldnt deal with it. your voice rings in my head and i am torn between crying or being infuriated. you are drunk yet perfectly sober. ah. such contradictions.

this is bullshit.

angst is eating me up. i am eating myself up.

i dont even know what the fuck.

Labels: angry, annoyed, confessions, personal, random, rants, upset, wordy

-BabyGinz-

Solemn Tuesday

i have been unbearably quiet over the past 2 days. perhaps its PMS but it feels like im slipping back into that depressive phase again. i do things so sluggishly that today someone i care a great deal for got angry and annoyed at me and my sluggishness. i hate it when people i care about get angry and annoyed at me, even more so when all i want to do is make them happy because they are already in a crap mood.

my inability to do so makes me feel ill at ease. im not suppose to get attached. im not suppose to care. in a way i dont yet i still do. why did the way u talk to me sting so bad today. i almost cried in front of him. he has seen me cry. but it was never about him. today it was.

to add to the whole pathethicness of it all i have discovered that another one of my guinea pigs is on the verge of dying. and will very well be dead by morning. and im sad but im not. im so numb right now. so devoid of emotions. so empty. what the fuck is wrong with me. am i really as mentally retarded as everyone seems to think i am?

i need my boys and babes who are not in the country right now. i need you guys so badly.

anyway. do be a dear and click on THIS LINK. all help is much appreciated. thanks

Labels: angry, annoyed, confessions, emo, personal, upset

-BabyGinz-

Monday, October 12, 2009

Dazed Blue Monday

i felt myself cry in the dark last night. clutching at everything around me, grasping at everything i thought i could see. and then i opened my eyes and again i am thrown away from your surroundings like always. your face, your laugh and that way you tend to cock your head when you're looking at me as if wanting to say something yet hesitant. it isnt a bad look, there was always a smile on your lips and a glow in your eyes when you look at me that way.

you say i have the same look. you always tell me to stop looking at you that way yet your eyes showed signs of approval and you always ended it with a shy laugh. i never got what u meant, at least not until it was just that little too late.

i havent dreamt of you in over a month. last night was a painful blow. i have not smiled today. and i cried again in the car. i can't tell if it's the music i've been listening to or the way the sky seems to remain downcast but today has been nothing short of a dazed blue monday.

i miss you

still.

Labels: confessions, emo, personal, sad, upset

-BabyGinz-

15 Jan 09 @ Ruums, Mist Club + 19-26 Feb 09 @ Randoms

i actually dont remember if i've already posted these pictures but yeah whatever. havent been in much of a mood to blog lately. and i think im going to be transferring my blog over to wordpress somewhere this week. with an empty templat first la. will work on the design some other time. pfft. but yeah.

brought my 2 babies with me to Ruums for their launch i think ? @_@

my favourite people.

mew

u have no idea just how much.

love love love

cheh. they learnt my red picture effect skill

it really does make u look gorgeous. hahhaa.

ghosting

dream.

baby nat as always with her weird expressions

chay chay

huai bin

horr.. who simply take pics of us

simon seow

cornered. wtf

the wall la what else

The Feb Randoms

herbal chicken noodles @ MingTien Taman Megah
i love this. a lot for some reason.

sarawak noodles

fried lychee! omg best shit ever

and watermelon juice laaaaaaaaa

broadway musical. hm

the pigs

totally random apple pie from o briens.my apparent birthday cake from them. wtf

Labels: animals, asian, camwhore, clubbing, desserts, drinks, events, food, guinea pigs, noodles, nuffnang, pics

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Wordless To Channel V

i dont know what to say here anymore. i guess when youve been internet deprived for such a time period you forget how to blog. or more like u lose the need or will to blog. still there's that nagging feeling somewhere in the back of your head going you're online dammit just post a line or to. ahh.. the inner blogger speaks i guess.

nothing much to say nothing much to do.

at a friends place right now with channel V blasting jpop and i forgot how much i loved it @_@ wasnt really paying much attention to the tv just now but boa has a really beautiful voice no? okay so random and hell she can dance .__.

i really dont know what it is i want to say. but not doing anything alone in the house with good music at high volume does wonders to the soul. hm. a few days back i was here in the same place next to an open window with the pool outside curled up on a couch with a book. i think i am getting too comfortable here. this is starting to get worrisome.

wi has boring games. why do i only play games at other peoples houses? mine remain untouch. strange strange.

my body's in a shit mess. screwed up left right up down. hm. am dead broke now thanks to a crazy expensive medical bill. sigh.

im falling back into my social recluse stage.

im tired. are you?

Labels: personal, random, wordy

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Masked Uncertainty

its always easy to pretend to be someone else in the face of another. so easy that it becomes more than just a mask. yet inside we know, once the whole facade is over and done with, so does the mask. it crumbles in our own hands, soiling all that was once there.

it haunts and breaks you.

i know how i feel. i know what is happening. i know i should walk away now before i hurt myself again. i know all the answers, every fact every truth yet as always i let my defences slip right in front of my own eyes.

i never learn do i?

i did not choose or vouch for it to happen. it just did.

and im sorry i couldnt live up to your expectations, but i know you saw it coming.

Labels: confessions, emo, personal, tragedies

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Scratch to Death

and the itch is so agonizing i really dont know how to react.

yesterday afternoon i developed a weird lumpy rash on the back of my thighs. and what the hell this morning i wake up to discover it's still there and it seems to be slowly spreading T___T

omg.

it's so fucken itchy.

now my lower back has some of it T__T

in case you've been wondering my internet has been dead. in a friends place now. hmmm.

FUCK FUCK FUCK this is shitty!!

Labels: annoyed, nightmares, rants, tragedies

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Wootsie woots!

Do you know... Do you know.. Do yah?

*boogies!* =D

Maybe i'm just that fella in the mirror..

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, October 01, 2009

An unusual kind of busy

and i really want to find time to update this overly pink blog (yes for some reason its pinkness i starting to annoy even me) but i cant seem to find the time to really sit down and do this.

will be going on mia for a few days =)

till then. toodles!

Labels: random

-BabyGinz-