Saturday, October 17, 2009

Made up Dolly Lies

It is the beginning of a stupid school girl crush. Pathethic attempts at self degradation in order to get just the tiniest remarks from that one person.

I am not a make up person. And i rarely ever dress nicely for anything anymore. Even when i do,as soon as there is a chance i get to pull everything off and get into my usual slouchy clothes i do it.

so the past few days i have been in girly clothes with gunk on my face and every time i get home i cease to change back in hopes that he will call and i will get to show myself off. and so far it just doesnt happen that way. and when i do get to see him i just walk out in house clothes and be questioned as to why am i dressed like an aunty today. hm. how very quaint.

even now i still have make up on my face from a previous photoshoot. even when i know i will probably not get to see him today. and i know that i will put on that tube and that floral skirt just in case.

"he can make you feel anyway he wants you to feel. just be careful" - R

and i just never learn.

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-BabyGinz-