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..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Monday, January 31, 2005
Something isn't right,
I can feel it again, feel it again.
This isn't the first time,
That you left me waiting.
Sad excuses and false hopes high,
I saw this coming, still I don't know why,I let you in.
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong,
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable.
So take your empty words,
Your broken promises,
And all the time you stole,
'Cause I am done with it,
I could give it away,
I'm doing everything I should of,
Now I'm making a change,
Living the day,
I'm giving back what you gave me
I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong,
So you don't have to call,
Or say anything at all.
You're so predictable.
Now everywhere I go,
Everyone I meet,
Every time I try to fall in love,
They all want to know why I'm so broken.
Why I'm so cold, why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared?
What am I afraid of?
I don't even know, this story's never had an end.
I've been waiting,
I've been searching,
I've been hoping,
I've been dreaming you would come back,
But I know the ending of this story.
And you're never coming back,
Never... I knew it all along,
You're so predictable.
I knew something would go wrong... (So predictable...)
Everywhere I go for the rest of my life,
Everyone I love,
(So predictable...)Everyone I care about,
They're all gonna want to know what's wrong with me. (So predictable...)
And I know what it is,
What it is is right now
(10.21 edit :Ian, i was really happy today....it's a long time since i've been so happy...u know this...u could feel it too...i know u could..cuz u liked today as well....there was something special..there was just this very special atmosphere this feeling...so full of love...like how god created love to be... but u had to go n ruin it all...like how u always do...........how much more of this do i have to go throught??)
hmmm...theres a strange lump on my hand and it hurtss... according to ian is muscle pain... but..i don't recall actually using my hand to do any er..stressful exercises? but durnno le..been there for quite long liao...haih...damn chamded
NO HW TODAY!! ahahaha..finished in school... but got my art folio..and something abt sejarah..they ask me look for something..but i 4got wad liao..i juz noe sumtin to do wid sarawak...ahahahaha..opps..gtg..sis bugging >.<
Sunday, January 30, 2005
today woke up at 1.30...actually can wake up later wan..haihhh..but my mum laa..keep on fan me..wanted to go KLCC today..but my evil mum dun wanna take me..so cham!!! so stayed at home and on9 only...aiyor...i gonna on9 until crazy already leee...
after that went to my do'gs vet's open hse near my hse..lol..sienz..nobody there..then suddenly i saw one of my darlings ;P kekekee...den i ran to her..den she was o_O!! ahahaa..den both of us immediately open our arms..and like those cartoons..run into each others arms and hug!.kekeke...anyways my darling is melissa ;P apparently the vet is her dog's vet as well..lol..but she was only there for awhile den she went liao..den left me ALONE..wuwuwuwuwuww..so i just ate..stood around..got bored..and walked home... talked on the phone which happenes to be why im moody now..and then on9 la.. haih..damn boring... just eating cadbury chocettes...
Saturday, January 29, 2005
toodaaayyy...school.....nothing much happen..but i miss laili gemuk like heck ;P ehehehe..n yea..she noes i call her laili gemuk... its fun teasing her..kekekeke...sigh...pn alina keep making jokes..that r kinda hurtful den funny..but laili.. gawd..i miss her!!sighhh...>.< i dont even really pay attention to alina..dorno y..laili can get my attention more...ahahahaha
pj..damn tiring..but i did somthing stupid..ehehehe..i ate a lot of oily sambal..so i had to puke before PJ.. n halfway doing my shuttlerun thing..which is explained in amanda's blog..i had to puke again..so i stopped..sat down n it came up..but i swollowed it back >.<>.<>.< kekekee..quite funny actually...
stayed back after school..was suppose to take care of somthing cuz of a friendly match..basketball..but cancled cuz the other team FFK....huhuhuhu....so end up damn lil ppl stay back in school..me n ian like one of the last ppl to go home..wuwuwuw..den heavy rain n thunder...damn scary errr.. oh yaaaaaaa... IAN FRACTURED HIS NOSE!!!!!!!! AHahHAHAhAHHAhAHHAhHAHAhHA...damn funny..cruds..does this make me a bad gf 4 laughing at him?? hahahaa....but i cant help it..it was soooo funnnnnnyyyy!!! i mean... he hit the pole hard enough for the guys at the other end of the court to hear the *piang* sound!!! haha..
went hartamas to collect my skirt from Trend Korean Boutique..n den ate dinner there...ate korean BBQ.. damn nice lor!! try try... er..dorno the name liao.. but its like at coffee bean that side wan..the sort of food court..walk past it then can go in wan..mostly actualy korean n japanese go there... but super nice the food ^-^... after that...ate ice cream at alberto..teehheee.. yummmmyyy.....besides that nothing much happened ler today.. i think >.<
n im missing the jay chou concert!! arghhhhhhh!!!!!!
Friday, January 28, 2005
and i found something cool! ehehhee.. andreas birthday is on the 10...rachel's on the 12..valentines on the 14.....kimberley's on the 16..mine's on the 18 n amanda's on the 20!!! hahahahhaa..how cool is that??
neway me taking in japs again...argh..on my bday..i oso dorno wheather i seriously want to host them annot..beeps... nth much happen today..oh yahhh!!!
damny funny!! ian trying to lan c ;P hahaha..den he dorno do wad....hit the basketball net..the pole!! then i dont even noe..i was like talking to friends..den ju koon..ei..ure bf hit the tiang also u dun wanna go n c arh..den i eh..izzit..hahaha..apparently he hit very loud..from the other end of the court oso can hear..but me in the middle oso didnt noe.. but my poor baby bruised er... hit nose bengkak..bit his lips n tongue also..den his leg..the bone like dislocated a bit.. n he blacked out..but onli for awhile..den keep dz.. so now my baby go c docter liao...dorno he's okie annot oso...well besides that nth much happen...i think
hmmm...i dunno y i read my own entries..feel so weird..cuz like so japalang english..ahha..would my dear readers prefer if i actually typed it in proper english or is my current style okay?
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
2day skipped sports for some kiwanis meeting thing..but had to go to the field to get some ppl..den pn nor saw me n made me run.. but i was already so friggin tired cuz i'd been running around school looking for ppl n stuff >.< ...i had approximately 5-10 mins to get back...so i had to run up...rush to the meeting..tell them i'd b right back...ran up to class..change..run back down...run back to field...den havent caught my breath..damn tired...den haf to run again....den everybody dowan come 2 the starting line...very impatient liao....so kept fidgeting n moving abt..which further exhausted my already half dead body...den dorno wad ms teoh doing...start..den blahblah..den run..den run half way liao..den suddenly i notice..eh..y nobody running beside me xcept 1...den i turn..all going back..dorno 4 wad oso...den i haf to run back.. dem tired arhhh!!!..legs damn numb already....den run 2nd time..starting run but like less den 3 secs later...slow down..like jog..den stop..den jog..den my can feel my shoe like slipping off..den so damn tired oredi..so got fedup..n juz ran off the field halfway n ran..or jogged to the kiwanis meeting..which im very late 4...>.< wah..damn teruk lor i run until today..never run so crappily before in my life..except that 1 time in primary where my shoe flew off my leg..n i had to hobble abt on 1 leg...lol...
besides that..nothing much happened in school i think..oh..my class air cond broke down a few times..so kept switching classes left n right...hahhaha...stayed back in school..watch ian play football..watch ppl play basketball n badminton..disturb kar ho the coach apparently.. :P ...den later juz play ard wid ian wid the basketball at the netball court...hahaha...den messed ard at the basketball court oso..den pn munap keep asking me shoot the ball..hahaha..den i refuse cuz got a lot of ppl... very weird...>.
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
had a fight with my dad on sunday..a really really serious one....sigh..personal as well..so i wont tell about it.. but i honestly don't feel like staying here anymore..it's like when im alive..i cause so much trouble for people..nothing good ever comes from me...=/ n im sooooo sorry lie peh..i really am.. honest..i didn't mean for things to end up like that...
anyway enough of all the sadness n moodyness...=/ ....today..nothing particularly interesting happened i guess....got scolded by 1 of the kindergarden taekwando teachers..well not exactly scold la.. but sort of..cuz i went n played wid them..and then logan and aloysius attached themselves to me...and they wouldnt let go and kept ignoring the teacher..so the teacher came up to me and told me to stop disrupting the class...lol..gosh..but they were soooo cute!! i think there was some kinda fight in the badminton hall today but i dunno abt it..eventhought i was in the badminton hall..at least not until after lunch..huhuhu
monday....also not much stuff happen la... but i think visiting the kindergardeners at lunch has been a daily routine now...lol...well ;P nth better to do...but pn alina has been absent for 2 days!! Yes! *fist in air* ..played basketball for PJ...properly..althought a lot of weird stuff happened..like my own teammate snatching the ball from me when it's in my hands.. *_* lol...we play weird basketball >.< ...n most of them don't pay attention to their team mates and usually just hog the ball...haih....but i had fun ^-^ ekkeke...i'm starting to get back that i like sports feeling i used to have in primary again...maybe i'll take up something like last time ^-^...any suggestions?
oh...mrs tan is soo freaking freaky!!!i was like observing her at assembly cuz she was sort of next to me..and i noticed she looks not onli like a toad..but she has really freaky features.. the part below her eyes..like where the eyebags are..continuously throbes..LIKE NON STOP...n its like damn obvious...n it was so gross but i couldnt tear my eyes away..haha...and if that wasnt bad enough..her cheeks were like continuously throbbing as well..and the way she breathes..looks like she's wheezing or something >.< arghh!! scary!!
on sunday..before the thing wid my dad.. *giant sigh* went to hartamas to buy new yr clothes..actually went to 1u 1st..not that jam..but my dad hates 1u..n went..u c..n blahblah..den got irritated n drove to mid valley..which was like a million times worst..so he got more pissed..so i finally said..hartamas..so went there lo.. ate at alberto..kekee..not bad wo the food..n gosh..i love their gelate!! damn good!! bought a skirt from trend...a korean boutique..then 3 tops from cat's whiskers..tried a lot but most of them not nice de.. saw Chloe *Ian's cousin* kekee..she's wroking there.. 1st time i talked talked to her.. she's nice =)..i think so far...althought i've only seen her like 2-3 times...this 1 time i talked to her is more than the amount i talk to his other cousins...not counting Han Zhen n Han Chung but they don't count..lol..later went to Blook..bought 4 tops from there...oso tried a lot but end up wid 4 onli...wuwuuww...gawd! and there was this group of girls..damn freaking annoying.. this 1 girl..was trying on a dress..and she was hogging the whole freaking mirror..i took in like 10+ tops to try on..and when i was finished..she was still there..like posing like that..and her two friends by her side helping her hog the mirror..i was like standing there looking at them..wanting to c the mirror..and they completely ignored me.. so i got fed up and went in front of them and she sort of gave me this really dirty look..hmph.. but i tried on some really tight stuff..and that girl in the dress...doesnt really have a nice body and not to say thin or pretty oso..so she kept staring at me ;P ahahahhaaa....being thin..well..not very thin but still thin is good for something... mwahahhaa..stoopid biatches...and on top of that..she kept going on..i love this dress!! omg...this dress looks so good on me.. ARGHH!! the dress ugly like heck!! aunty like hell!!! and her two friends were going omg..yea!!! you look so good!!! this dress damn nice!! u have to get it.. hello..for like 15-half an hour...jeez..how sad is that
Sunday, January 23, 2005
yesterday went KLCC...bought 2 skirts and a dress from urban n co.....n a pair of very very very casual heels from vincci >.< .... wanted to buy more stuff..but there was an accident.. beeps..hahaha...my stoopid period came very unexpectedly..n it hurt too badly..and n on top of that i didnt have a pad >.< so....haih...went back early le... but i dun think anybody want to know about that...akakakakakkakaa
Saturday, January 22, 2005
aiyoks...kena just now!! ian came over n slept..den he was wearing nothing but his undies >.< ..haha... den dorno why my mum didnt go work..i didnt know..den she came back n came into my room...ugh~!!! den she saw ian sleeping next to me without clothes!! whoopps..in the 1st place..he isn't even allowed in my room...ahahhaa..and he's sleeping clothsless on my bed..next to me >.< dats y im feeling suspicious now..as u can c from my unkymood thingie :P n because of this morning's incident..my plans all kaboom liao.. now she forcing me to go KLCC wid her.. wuwuwuwuuw....
anyways just for the knowledge of those that know abt me n ian's situation..i think it may actually be okay now..i think..this time he seemed really sincere..thanks Andrea..whatever it was u told him..it really helped.. Love u lots Drea~! muacks!
AND MY FREAKING MUSIC ISN'T WORKING!!! STUPID GEOCITIES!!!! UGHHHHH!!! why why whyyyyy why why why why why why!!!!!!!!!! WHY ISNT MY MUSIC WORKKIINNNGGG!!!! whimpers...
Friday, January 21, 2005
(1.13 edit: finally got it working....................that was highly frustrating)
(1.23 edit : oh fark..its not working again......................................)
Thursday, January 20, 2005
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
hahaha..play wid my lil darls again..the KINDERGARDENERS! gosh i wuv them...hahha..today damn cute ler they all..attack me from all sides..jump n drag me down until i really fall flat on my ass..den climb all over me..n sit..den i kenot get up..so cham..kekee..but they were soo cuttee.. they were hugging me while doing that..hahah...then got this 1 boy..keep throwing a hard ball at ian n hitting ian's leg with a chair..kekee..but then he follow me n gimme the ball..never throw at me de.. MWahHAHAHAhAhahHAhAh....then they went out n plaid with their bucycles n stuff.. hmph.. Aloysius angry at me..wuwuwuw..hahha..cuz i left him outside the class n i 4got..kakaka..den he came back in he run past me i call him he dun even wanna look at me..i say bye bye oso he didnt stop me like he usually does..juz keep ignoring me..hahaha..nearly got run over a lot of times by all the lil cyclist...damn cute ler they all!! missing them like heck already.. kekeke..i think morrow gonna go take pics with them! ^-^...so darn cute...
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Monday, January 17, 2005
today..school normal.. more work then usual.. ughhh~!! got hw to do..but damn lazy..teehheee..havent even finish my art...too lazy to blog...n my contacts r irritating me.. >.<
Sunday, January 16, 2005
yesterday went mid valley ..watched bridget jones diary 2..hahaa..damn funny yet touching! should wash! gosh..i love british comedies n books! damn entertaining...bought a new skirt from zara... hehe... last 1 wor..i think...at least that was the onli 1 i saw..but expensive..1 of the onli items not on sale!! BEEPPPSSS!! nth much happened in Mid valley ler...
after that off to Chee June's hse for her birthday party! ^-^...haha...damn fun le!! took lots of weird cacat pictures n played with VERY VERY STRONG n GOOD QUALITY balloons.. hahaha... observe some of them pics here, here, or here ... haha
when there was cake..me damn dirty arh!! yeesh..actually damn clean wan.. but then suddenly siow wei put cream on me..den chee ting sprayed body lotion..argh~!! but thank gawd still cleaner then chee june..!! hahaha..her whole face all red..den like blood...wash that time oso look like blood..then the food colouring stained her face.. i use so many er...facial stuff also cannot get the colouring off.. but i think today ok liao le.. SINCE SHE WENT RED BOX N 4GOT ABT ME.. >.<
Friday, January 14, 2005
tot late 4 the polka dots/fantasie night thing in school..haha..pn najah said i kenot go wan..but i went..den she invite me in tim .. (''¬_¬) wahlao..!! my darling Melissa dance until damn shock oooo!! guys..watch it man..start drooling..i mean it... hahaha..she is so clubbing material... damn chun lor she dance until..i oso stoned for awhile...serious shocked... didn't know Melissa could dance so well... not bad wor the fantasie night thing..i actually had fun! lots of it as well!!
oh yea! SOME BLARDY DICKHEAD STOLE ANDREA'S PHONE n GINNY LIM'S MP3 PLAYER!!! u stupid assholes!! in case u happen to read my blog...put it back where u found it *fuming* hellooo people..u can blardy afford to come to Sri Garden so why the fuck to u go around stealing other people's possessions for u blardy fucktards..retards....
okay right..so i tried making Melissa n Nancy dance like sluts for me on a chair.. but they refused >=( hmph~!! n den Melissa juz told me im being forced to dance for a charity thing.. gah~!!! im president n my underling is forcing me to dance!~~ how do i get into this situations?? *runs to a corner n cry* hhahahaa..
n there's this mosquito bite thing..or sum weird bight on my left boob.. *_* it looks like a love bite...hahaha..n i was wearing a low cut top summoh 2day!! gah~!!! dorno wad ppl say later..aihhh....i now onli notice.. this yrs from 1 got a lot of pweety gurls wo >.< hahaa..n most of them damn fun wan~! kekekeke..today got to mix around wid them! gah~!! i wuv them!! hahaha...
ok well..my day started of pretty good..even in school.. but it ended badly..won't talk abt it thou...beeps
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
She : why are you here????
Me : why can't i be here...? ;P
She: GO away la!!! disturbing ppl eat onli
hahhaha..den my little table of darlings satred daggers at here den she shuttup..den she scolded ian oso..cuz ian asked aloysius where he cut his hair..den the girl.. went.. WHY?? ppl cannot cut hair wan ah?? in an irritated tone..aiyooo...she's only 5 summoh..or izzit 6..but they look 5 to me..hahahaha
anyway in case you're wondering..hahaha.. i had art class yesterday and we went to the library den half way surfing the net... the kindergardeners came in..with MY EX TEACHER! ekkekekeke..so i went and played with them lor...hahhaa...then i made er...5 or 6 new friends..kekeke..1st it was logan...who was reading then he smiled and said hello...den wing soon..who hello n pulled me next to him to read 4 him..den aloysius..who i was trying to get the attention off since the satrt but he kept running away..then i finally caught him..and after i caught him..he stuck like glue...kekeke..then there was edward..who hijaked me from behind and asked who i was...heheheh..damn cute...den finally..the naughtist one..according to teacher..and from the markings on his face..lol...but he looked so sweet and angelic..i kept talking to him but he kept looking away =( but then the most magical thing happened!!hehehhe..when i had to go..he was the 1st to come hug me!!! then all of my little dears came and huged and we had this giant group hug where i nearly fell over >.< hahaha.. damn! i miss them..then they wouldnt let go of me..some of them went to the extent of attaching themselves to my leg!! hahaha...until teacher told them off....sigh...didn't really want to leave but i had to...=/
but sadly..after that not so happy..after school had a big fight..and i broke up wid ian for about 2 and a half hours *_* hahahaa... 2 and a half hours.. how more pathetic can u you get??? but im glad we're together again..sigh... i really don't want to go throught that stage of break up again..it hurts to much...anyway..i think i've probably bored you guys to the max.. ;P so ciaoozzz
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
hmmm...im actually quite lazy to update my blog....kakkakakakakaaa...dorno what to write about.. *_* mmmmm..school..boring..full of work..as usual....hmmmm............sarkiness...wad to write about.... hmmmmmmmmm.....
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
today had sports meeting..damn sienz..didn't bother doind anything..just wanted to go home n sleep!! gawd im such a pig! nothing special happened today i guess...at least none i can think of *_* geee...is school really that boring??
i seriously don't wanna go to school tomorrow...school's....very boring and unhappy..ugh~! PMR PMR is all the teachers talk abt..its sooooo far awayyyy!! can't they at least relax a little!! hmph~!i think im forgetting something but i dunno wad... i shall go and ponder now >.<
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
6.40 edit : thank gawd not a complete jackass
yesterday was the first day of school and it was pretty sarky..my right eye was all twitchy and dry the whole day too...but i luv my class teacher! kekeke..she's so cute!! i could just hug her!! sigh.. but i want Cik Laili baccckkk!! *cries* i miss bullying her...i miss the way she threatens me in her strange cik laili way but then laughs it off later..i miss the way i get to tease her ..sigh..i want laiilliiii!!! meany! she said she'd teach us this yr..hmph~! she followed me 2 yrs liao..and now bye bye..but mrs andrew will b with me for 3 years!! gahhh~!!!...no idea who most of my teachers are though..will find out tomorrow..>.<
sigh..the start of the day was pretty crappy! had an AMAZINGLY LONG ASSEMBLY thanks to that annoying woman..jeezz...who the heck found her and employed her anyway..she just rants on and on about this and that..we're not a prep school...we don't need to act like how she wants us too...hmph~! she's not very ladylike either..pulling on ppl's hair and uniform...mean old hag~!! classes were okay!! but the 1st day and got homework and teacher teach liao..so kesian!! Bm damn scary!! >.<>.<
i missed my asam laksa yesterday!! gah!! i didn't know they had asam laksa so i ate fried rice but dorno why the fried rice got extremly weird taste...hahaha..im seated at the same place i used to sit..except in a diff class :P i love the wall..kekeke..my ex class teacher used to comment on how stuck i am to the wall because i always refuse to budge..but the wall's the perfect place to scribble n lean on ;P hahhaa...
Saturday, January 01, 2005
anyways HAPPY NEW YR!
ookkaay...new yr's eve had its up's and down's..woke up went to KLCC but someone nearly FFK me..make me moody but eventually showed up so everything was okay..teehee..everything was fine...bought new heels...watched "meet the fockers" bought groceries..well sorta..bought some spaghetti stuff cuz Ian has a new obsession wid spaghetti and wanted to cook it for his family.. *rolls eyes* everything was okay until it was time to go back...sigh...better not talk about it..was moody after that all the way to about 9pm...4 hours of extreme moodyness...jeez...
was my pet bro ah "7"'s birthday on new yr so celebrated it in barfly wid him and lotsa ppl including some unexpected ones *_* hahaha..like this guy came up to me and asked if i recognize him and i was like totally stoned..in my head the words *he must have recognize the wrong person* popped up the instant he asked me that..haha..turns out he was my friends bro!! who i have met various times!! gah~! i can't believe i didnt recognize him..do'h!!...u noe wad..i still don't know my pet bro's real name.. AhHAHAhHAHAhHAHAA...some sister i am...was an okay okay night le...den went in atmos 4 awhile.. met lotsa old fwens ^-^v ..haha...but SOMEONE was suppose to come find me BUT DIDNT SHOW UP AND NOT EVEN A MSG OR A CALL...hmph~! meany..i was waiting and waiting keep looking around barfly and outside to see if he was there annot...dush~!(ps.try the snacks they served there..like the long john hot dog thing..expensive..=( yes.. but tasty >=D gahahahahaa)
hmmm..spent today at chee june's hse..haha..srota dog-sitting..i even bathe her doggie..but her doggie got some body odour problem *_*...n matter how much u bathe and wash him..he has this permanant pee smell...jeez...went home and slept lo ...
aih..school starts in 1 day 2 nights.. whimpers..totally unprepared..i know nothing.. i have nothing...havent gotten my uniform.. no new bag..and my bags broken in a lot of places already..no new shoes..my shoes are practically white...no new stationary...crap..i don't even know if i have any usable stuff..huhuhu...books..wadever..not wrapped ..name not wirtten..can't really be bothered.. gah~! i'm still in the holiday mood!! i dun wanna gooo schoollll..not just yet =( *pouts* sighh....i don't even know what class i'm in but seriously no mood for school...=/