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..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005
well..it all started like this..i was in the art room doing sum charcoal sketches...>.< where i got really frustrated at trying to draw the legs of an ice skater...yahde yahde dah...n den ian came... n when he left he gave me a peck on my lips.. but at that time my tooth was extreeemmllyy sensitive..so it hurt..at 1st nothing wan..den like 10 mins later..pain like hell..i took 2 pain killers..still pain until i wanna cry..so called my mum..my usual dentist fully book..so went to my dad's 1... which I AM GLAD WE DID...cuz he is so much nicer..he didnt yell at me despite the condition of my teeth...
righhttoo..im going bali morrow 4 3 days...less den 3 days actually..and I THINK I OVERPACKED BY A LOT.... 5 or was it 6 tops... 3 shorts.. 3 bikinis.... 3 skirts...1 dress....4 bras...5 panties... u_u..... but i cantt hellppp ittt.. oh well...better more den less... hehehe..juz like last time rompin...;P
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
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Monday, March 28, 2005
n today evil alina put me as ponteng.. *_* hahaha..oh well..like i care.......
Sunday, March 27, 2005
on the other hand if u really r wad i think u r..n really r the person i believe u r......please....stop it....i cant hold on much longer.. if u really need me and love me.. think abt it..think of me...do u really want to lose me that badly...??i have my limits..and dont say u have ures..cuz i noticed..ure limits.. r sooo stupid..ure not even being hurt or anything...ure just too egoistic to notice things properly...
Saturday, March 26, 2005
yesterday oso quite sien..but i skipped the whole day of school 4 art~ wahahaha..den on tuesday oso...got sum sculptur thingie ....TeeeHheeeeeEeee~! and i still havent started on my projectss~~ wooohooo~~!!! swamppeeddd!!!
today..juz now lar..went ate lunch at watched movie wid ian at leisure mall... watch house of fury ;P not bad..although when u watch the starting..u feel like..fark..i wasted my money...hahaha..but surprise surprise...it was meant 2 look like that...haha..later it gets better~ i reccomend
i hate my nose.... >.<>.<
Thursday, March 24, 2005
well..went for dance class...wahh..today...super tiring ..my legs still slighty aching!! >.< damn fast..oklay..after u get ued to it not that fast but when u keep doing it n suddenly stop..ure leng..damn *pei... so cham....haih..im sick..coughing n flu..n now my maid is sick as well??? therefore..my whole friggin family is sick!?!??!!??!? i wonder when it's the dog's turn...hahhaha
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
today arh...oso nothing particularly interesting ler....my life getting really boring eidi..but i die lar...hahaha..wad shit project oso havent start..and i juz remmeber..soon will have KH project oso!! woooohoooo!!! how good is that!!! opps..gtg..promised my fren sumtin >.<
Monday, March 21, 2005
nothing much happened today...but ms jessie made me go all the way to the 5th floor to get her blardy cap!???! so she could torture us in the scorching sun which btw my mum told me is extremly harmful today *written in newspaper* bcuz the sun is directly on the equater.... U C!?! she is torturing us!?! while she sits in the shade wid a cap!!! but i had fun ..so bleah... den in the lift..i saw cik masayu... n she was like
her : sheen leng???!! kenapa?? tak makan ke??
me : huh??
her: macam pucat sangat...dah nak mati...??
me : im sick lar
her : ohhh...like that izzit..tapi??? macam tak makan aje..rupa macam aneroxic...u aneroxic ke?
me : *blur..n juz...look at her*
den there was another lady in the lift who went..yah yah...like aneroxic..so thin... omg..this ppl r all blind
well..after school..ran down from my hse to leisure amll 2 meet my baby..haha..we ate lok lok ^_^...den went over his hse...den came back..well nto go home..went to some desert shop in connought....den traffic jam home..haih..damn..ish..supose to bathe my doggie... she got skin infection..oh well >.<
well...saturday nothing happened lar..just went to lunch wid ian n my pet bro..damn arghh!!! stupid like hell what happened..dont want to talk about it.. T_T... ahhaaa... but i had the worst period cramp possible on sat..omg.. it hurt like hell..and for some weird reason..the pain wasnt enough?? i kept going to the toilet to shit..and even weirder still..after shitting..i started vomiting!!! that lasted for like 2 hours!?!??!?! I HATEEE YOUUUUUU PEERIIOOODDD... it's never been this bad before..sighh...so cham.. but im okay now ^o^v no worries ppl....
today went KLCC wid my baby ^_^ hehee..happy..bcuz it was our 9 month anniversary... kakaa..i bought a new skirt..and onli paid 30 bucks..wahhahaa..cuz i had 90 bucks worth of isetan vouchers.. whahahahahahahahahahhaha :P i love my new skirt..its so pweetyyy...n silky too.. heheeeeee.. had lunch in genku..omg...dont go there anymore ppl..the food.. urghh!!@ horrible..should have went nippon tei instead.. oh well..
walk here walk there... ian got a new cap n slippers from quicksilver ^_^...den went back lor... huhuhu..also nothing much to blog about wan ler my life...
hmm...ive been on9 for like 3 hours..i was suppose to just listen to winamp and do my hw.. and i havent finished it..and here i am blogging..but screw it..i'll finish it in school..haha..i have like 2 paragraphs more of each.. 2 malay essays and malay lit!!! arghhh!! total..7. paragraphs.. yea yea.. 1 essay..i need3 more.. shuttup already..its not my fault.. T_T..my BM teacher is psychotic...i mean...SO MUCHHHHHHHHHHHH WORK MAN!! okay not that much.. but holiday lar.. pleasseeeee...let us be free..sigh..next holiday..far farrrr away..wuwuwuw..i dont want to go school T_T
Friday, March 18, 2005
damn cacat...eat until damn cold..so some of us moved outside...then wei sheng sat on a chair..and it broke!! hahaha..damn funny...couldnt stop laughing and i choked on my sorbet.. >.< nearly went up my nose...wuwuwuuww....sigh..saw nice 29 ringgit pants in british india..they had...medium but no more small!!! warghh!!! *runs around frantically..i mean..they were blardy 29 bucks!! 4 british india pants!!! how sad is that..and they looked good too!!*
after that went to sungei wang...was still suffering from my constipation+stomachache.. but i finally shit everything out in lot 10..was walking walking..den suddenly my stomachache very gan yu like my shit gonna come out liao..den rush to toilet...im disgusting arent i....
went to redbox..but i onli stayed a while..got bored >.< i have short attention span as most of u already know that...i saw a nice top in guess but it cost a BOMB... beeps... so cham...went to vivien's hse after that.. *solli ar..kacau u* haha... not bad...had quite a bonding session ^-^..glad i went there....
today..nothing particularly interesting..erm..ian drove his dad's camry >.< hahaha...and there is an unidentified dent by the driver's door..so.. huhuhu..we shall all remain silent shall we not ^-^ nothing much to blog about lar..except..i am so dead?? my geog project..not done.. T_T...whehehehee...i should b doing it..but instead im here blogging..for ure reading pleasure leh :P so grateful a bit laaaaaa.....and i cant believe im missing the i am a force of nature concert juz bcuz nobody wants to go =_= apparently..it's too expensive??? i mean its for charity ppl!! chaaariiityyy!!! bahhhhh humbug
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
apparently..im getting from bad to worst..his words.. i dont's study..i dont give a fuck abt my exams..i fail??? *i have not failed in my lifeeeeeee* im a blardy average a student 4 gawds sake..is that like not friggin good enuff?? the school also havent call and say anything abt my attitude yet and he's screwing me for it?? he says everytime he comes home im on9!! onli c me on9 or on the phone...say im crazy.//24 hours... and then nearly slapped me?? i mean like wth is that all about??? why cant i be on9?? so i asked..then wad?? go to sleep?? at 8?? URGH!! n he went YEAHH..go to sleep or study!! he says i dont respect him by being online!??!?!!?!? seriously..WTF IS THAT ??? it's not my friggin fault he's going through a lot of problems...he brought it on himself...so why blame it on me.. its not like he's been the best dad in the world either...talking abt responsibility and shit..he should look at himself first...
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
nothing partciularly interesting happened.. but when i was in the shower just now..i was pondering about some extremly random stuff...like..the world is seperated into different hemispheres..like..north..south..east and west..how can that be possible..when the world..is round????? there is no ending..there is no start?? how the heck do u know which is which?? or have we learnt this b4 and i juz completely forgot abt it..?? hmmm
"and there's this quote from 'the mexican' (according to -)... 'when you are both deeply in love with each other, but the relationship is getting too hard... when do you give up?'
... the answer is never.
because when you truly love someone, you keep trying and trying. and differences fade, and you learn to accept one another for who they truly are. put it this way - let's put a girl and a guy on a stranded island together. they'll be together in no time at all. that's human, and that's life."
..................i have no comments on this..yet i want to post this.. why???
Monday, March 14, 2005
i've reached the point where i'm getting really tired of this...always taken for granted always lied to..it isn't a honest relationship...it's more like one of those.. guy takes advantage of girl relationship kind of situation now...i still believe he loves me..honestly i do.. but...every little thing he does..keeps making me think otherwise..i use to have put all 100% faith on him...but not anymore..my faith slowly deteorates...day by day..week by week...and he just doesnt give a damn?? what does he do instead?? continues lying to me..continues taking me for granted...like..nobody how fucked up he treats me..i'll never stop loving him..and i'll still always be crazy over him...and in a way he's right.. but he's forgotten..even i have my limits
i mean...yea..i am gullible and i do love him and i would do pretty much everything for him.. but doesn't he think of my side?? i am willing to do it * no..please ppl..don't think things like free sex* but i mean...i haven my limits..like...he always expects me top give him massages..and when i want one..he complains i also never give him la..he tired la..and then..another girl wants a massage n bam..there's his hand on her shoulders massaging her?? what am i?? am i really the one he loves..or am i just...this thing...where he gets stuff from??
or another thing..i want to go...sunway for example..he refuses to go..witht he excuse it's too far and he has no money..ignoring the fact that i want to go reaalllyy badly and i'm willing to pay... but once a friend ask..even if he's FLAT BROKE... woohoo..he will sooo be there..lend money or watever..NO PROBLEM.. ginny... BIG PROBLEM...bcuz being with her is a waste of money and boring..?? is that it?? is that it?? cuz if it is...i honestly don't see the point of this relationship
i used to really believed this relationship would last..i used to give him my 100% trust...i still want it to last..and he says how can it when i don't even trust him..how can i trust him?? when he lies to me 24/7?? he doesnt want this to work..does he??is he testing me??people use to say i was patient and had an amazing tolerance level...but to him..i have neither...and seriously..i am losing it...if he doesnt want it to work..why do i try so hard??? why do i even bother..i just end up hurting myself in the end...this comes with the simply answer..because i love him... but is that really it..i don't think so...because he ays he loves me..but he doesnt seem to want this relationship to last...so what is it really..??? or am i just plain stupid..like what my father said..oh yea..my dad calles me a bimbo..not using the word bimbo cuz he doesnt know it..but he terms me as a bimbo in another way..maybe he's right??? maybe i am one.. T_T
(11.33 edit : ea..i am having pms..n no... i do actually think like this..but since me having pms now..easier to express myself)
ate the chiken buffet thing for dinner...or is it tea?? im not particularly sure..assume its dinner i guess..hahah...waste my money man..so expensive!! >.< ate so little..actually can eat sommore..but damn lazy to go n take..and i see all the girls also didnt eat much.. hahaha..i eat some more..LIKE A PIG.. Ian's says after wid him liao..i fat eidi.. is that true arh T_T im really sleepy atm..BUT I MISSSS MY BLOG!!! *attaches self to blogger*
well..i've got another doggie now..a schnauzer..heheeheee..she's adorable...but naughty like hell arh!!! haih...atm..her name's Chippy..my dad named and everyone don't care.. but..i dont particularly like that name.. T_T..me and my sister wanted to call her Boo Boo but my mum n bro dont let?? my mum say very ugly that name..my bro...he just dont let??but really..Chippy?? i mean...what kind of a name is that..but it's kinda stuck liao....she's started responding to it..SIGHHHH
going for haaagaaann dazzs buffet on thuursday!! well..i hope ler..hopefully nothing goes wrong *prances around SA/PP n tempts her* lol..i am mean ;P
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Friday, March 04, 2005
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
today is a happy happy day ! ^-^...hehe...today my class went to the planetarium but i didnt feel like going so i stayed at home lo..den ian came to teman me today!! very happy..cuz very long we didnt spend so much time HAPPILY together liao.. we talked about stuff.. something we havent done in quite a while..watched a dvd...made lunch together..blah blah blah! very very happy! ^-^ ...glad i didnt go school today...haha..my poor baby had diahhrea summoh..so lucky also he didnt go school!! if not..kesian..keep going schools toilet >.<
hmm..im in deep shit now...T_T...my geo project havent start..i tot geo on thursday..apparently its morrow..im suppose to like do most of it n like pass up morrow..oh well..too bad... i'll bring someeeee 2 school and come up wid sum crap excuse..oh gawd!! my art folio is dued on thursday!! im nowhere near done either.. there goes my sleep T_T..n i got a blardy karangan to write later!!! jeez...damn sad damn sad