Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

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..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Ghost of the Past

and i sit here listening to the songs you downloaded, stare at the screen that once belonged to you. i feel desolated.

all of a sudden, all your missing shirts are appearing in my cupboard. i turn and look at my bed and i see you lying there with that child like grin i had adored. the one i told everyone about when we played truth or dare in Otto's house.

i want to curl up in your arms. smell that familiar smell and cry to my hearts content. hide in my safe zone. in your posession, safe from harm.

you look happy now. more determined with life. dreams i know you will finally make an effort to reach. you lost yourself when you were with me. i never figured out which side of you had been the real you. and i guess that's what destroyed it all.

i remeber the image i watched on the mirror. and at this moment i want to run back in time. run to that memory where everything felt so right.

You flew like an angel to me
Then you fell and broke your wings
It was never meant to last
Your were just a ghost from the past

I thought you really could be real
That my heart was ready to bleed
When I walked through pain and fear
You would certainly disappear

You know that I love you, you know what I need
You know that I found you so tender so sweet
We walked through the darkness, we walked in the sun
We shared all our sorrows, we shared all the love

You said that you loved me, you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don't know where you are, I know that you're hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert

You came like a stranger to me
And you said you were for real
Though I do know where this would end
I was cold and I needed a friend

I turned on the light so you could see
I was stuck in some other dream
Still my eyes were crystal clear
You came closer and shattered my tears

You know that I love you, you know what I need
You know that I found you so tender so sweet
We walked through the darkness, we walked in the sun
We shared all our sorrows, we shared all the love

You said that you loved me, you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don't know where you are, I know that you're hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert

Go, How could you say you wanted to go
When my diamond were starting to grow
When you knew that I wanted you so
You left me alone

You know that I love you, you know what I need
You know that I found you so tender so sweet
We walked through the darkness, we walked in the sun
We shared all our sorrows, we shared all the love

You said that you loved me, you said that you cared
So how could I know I had something to fear
I don't know where you are, I know that you're hurt
I should have been able to sense your alert
- Ghost of the Past,Bang Gang

i miss you. i miss you so much right now.

and i hate myself for how i had hurt you so deep.

Labels: confessions, emo, lyrics, personal, upset, wordy

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 14, 2009

This Life - Mandalay

You couldnt even bring yourself

To stay, oh no
You had to go
Spoil it all
I know you had to go
Now I find these endlessly
Colourblind days
To fill
You never will

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
You understand, fine

Again
I dream
You come to me
(come back to me)
And comfort me
But now I dream
Where did this time go
Where did this time go
Did your love go

I know
You have to go
Spoil it all
And now I know
You never will

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
You understand, fine

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
Again

Just what you said was cold advice
I discovered sticks go with knives
I discovered I could die in your chains
Still I feel, so wont you stay
Oh, babe

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
You understand, fine

(take this life)
Take this life
Take it all
In your hands
You were mine
I could smile
Again

Labels: cravings, lyrics, personal

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Back in KL

and ive never felt lazier.

maybe its KL or maybe it's just me. on holiday i thought abt exams and studying and how if im planning on going to Sydney for study break i'd lug my books along with me. Coming back i just found out classes started yesterday when i thought it was next week and all my head can go is FML. im skipping class this week. screw it.

im hungry.

where's everyone.

why does KL feel so empty all of a sudden. it's pretty lonely here isnt it. now that i really think about it.

" Tell me what is on your mind
Help me 'cause I'd like to know
What the hell is going on
Never thought I'd sing this song

Let's not get started with the he said she said
Sometimes it just doesn't go as planned "

never thought i'd start crying so early with my life back here. I've always loved KL, i still do but right now i want to be anywhere else but here.

Walking on the streets where nobody knows me and i know nobody. Ciggie in hand and tears running down my face nobody's gonna give a flying fuck out there. And sometimes i guess that's the way i like it.

I want to sit out there on those rocks facing the sea and just let time pass by me. Or lie in the grass and stare at the sky like i had all the time in the world with that warm sun splashed across my skin while that gentle breeze plays with my hair and tickles my smiling face.

KL no longer feels like home.

Labels: confessions, emo, lyrics, personal, sad, upset, wordy

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Anxiety v2

been waking up in this shitty mood over the past 3 days resulting in me hermit-ing myself at home close to tears every alternate hour.

i thought i was stronger than this. i should be stronger than this.

my heads spinning in unanswered questions. questions i dont even realise much less understand.
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating

Labels: confessions, emo, lyrics, personal, sad, upset

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Rachel Yamagata - Over and Over

I really thought I was okay
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke this time
There was nothing to take me back to sleep
To take you off my mind, this time

And I keep saying
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I need to hide within a storm
So have the lightning come
Bring the winds that scream
And spill the fog all over town
Hold me in your standstill ground
And I will sink down
And you’ll be washed away
You’ll be washed away

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I really thought I was okay
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke up this time
There was nothing to take you off my mind

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain, let it rain

I need to hide within a storm
So have the lightning come
Bring the winds that scream
Spill the fog all over town

Break through every door
Strip away the trees
Raise the rivers high
Just help me drown

Hold me in your standstill ground
And I will sink down
And you’ll be washed away
You’ll be washed away

Labels: angry, confessions, lyrics, personal, stupidity, upset

-BabyGinz-

Monday, July 20, 2009

Sia - Breath Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Labels: angry, confessions, emo, lyrics, upset

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Soft Tired Tears

Rachael Yamagata - Sunday Afternoon

It's a choice
to stay
It's a dream
& I wanna wake

You have blood on your hands
and I'm feeling faint
And honey
You can't decide

I'm a drug
Ya don't wanna give up
Smoke your cigarettes
Make your love

You poured blood in my heart
and I can't get enough
I'm drowning, drowning
and you can't decide

It's not about geography, or happenstance
you need to fly, & take a chance
You don't need to soar to emptiness
Float on high, & forever dance alone

Your scared, scared, scared
cuz I feel like home

Hear your voice
Knew right away
If you were here
your eyes would say

There is blood on my feet
as I'm walking away
Rivers are red
Its starting to rain

I'm not gonna live for you
or die for you
Won't do anything anymore for you
Cuz you leave me here on the other side
You leave me here on the other side

Not gonna shed one more tear for you
shed one more tear for you
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you

At least not til Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Afternoon

Leave or Stay
Leave or Stay

Rachael Yamagata - What if I Leave

Oh why don't you call
When you say you will my dear
Is it because I don't belong to you
Anymore

And why don't you come
When you say you will my dear
Do you really think it will work out wrong

Oh and you've been lost
And I've been saved
Is that what comes from giving away

Maybe in time you will come back along
To greet me

What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?

Why don't you call?
Don't you miss me at all?
Left a long long time ago
To where the weather was better
For his kind

Why won't you play?
You've gone and left your face
I may be a fool all along
But I never understood these rules

Oh and every street calls your name
A whispering ghost of neighborhood flame
Maybe in time you will wake up to find you're free

What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?

So I grow up longing for another
With the windy city left behind to my lover
Will you ever know the way I cry
You were gone that day, so you may have missed
My goodbye

Oh, and sometimes in my dreams I hear you say
"If you really care you won't go away"

What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?

What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?
What if I leave?

Labels: confessions, emo, him, lyrics, personal, sad

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Delicate Emotions

I guess i should have know how short lived my happiness would be. It's Ginny, simple happiness never comes easy with me. At least not long lasting ones.

The day has been dreary and right now, the night proves only lonesome and undecidedly upsetting. It feels like one of those times where i would be curled up in the corner of my bed sobbing quietly but instead it's more of an angry sadness and tears only appear as a figment imprinted in the story of my life.

I wish i could talk to you but i know i can't. troubled silence seems to forever coexist between us and i really do wonder just where the hell we're heading.

i wish you would hold me and tell me you love me. just like those times in the past when i could actually understand your meaning of never let go.

who am i?

who are you?

Damien Rice-Amie

Nothing unusual, nothing strange
Close to nothing at all
The same old scenario, the same old rain
And there's no explosions here
Then something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all
I saw a spaceship fly by your window
Did you see it disappear?

Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me
Nothing unusual, nothing's changed
Just a little older that's all
You know when you've found it,
There's something I've learned
'Cause you feel it when they take it away

Something unusual, something strange
Comes from nothing at all
But I'm not a miracle
And you're not a saint
Just another soldier
On the road to nowhere

Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me

And Amie come sit on my wall
And read me the story of O
And tell it like you still believe
That the end of the century
Brings a change for you and me

Labels: confessions, emo, him, lyrics, sad

-BabyGinz-

Monday, April 06, 2009

this song doesnt really represent anything but the melody kind of relates to how im feeling right now. it popped up on my winamp after a really long time and i forgot what a beautiful song it is.. do look it up =) and shes gorgeous.

Natalie Imbruglia-City

Had a dream
Had a drowning dream I was in a river of pain
Only difference this time
I wasn't calling out your name yeah!
Has it ended before it's begun
You hold on
And I try to run but

Anybody heading in my direction
Away from the city
Anybody wanna change the way they feel
step inside
Doesn't really matter where you wanna take me
Away from the city
I wanna start again
I wanna start again
I wanna take it back
I wanna start again
Start again

Funny how those friends forget you when you tired of their games
You miss a show or a party that blows
And they've forgotten your name, yeah
And you wonder what you've become
They pull you back when you try to run

Well anybody heading in my direction
Away from the city
Anybody wanna change the way they feel
Step inside
Doesn't really matter where you wanna take me
Away from the city
I wanna start again
I wanna start again
I wanna take it back
I wanna start again
Start again

I left the me I used to be
I wanna see this through
Left the me I used to be
If only you'd see it too
Well I wonder what you've become
You pull me back when I try to run

Well anybody heading in my direction
Away from the city
Anybody wanna change the way they feel
Step inside
Doesn't really matter where you wanna take me
Away from the city
I wanna start again
I wanna start again
I wanna take it back
I wanna start again
Start again

Labels: lyrics, natalie imbruglia

-BabyGinz-