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..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Sunday, July 31, 2005
first 1..one of my good friends passed away right after chatting with me.. but i didn't even know until a few days later... i don't know..it felt so real.. i just kept crying and crying.. even after i woke up i was crying... don't want to elaborate much about it.... makes my heart heavy...
the other one was well.. as i said... sumtin predicatable.. so u guys should know what im talking about wan lar .... wad else can it be... that predicated since the start to the end? lol
Saturday, July 30, 2005
watched fantastic four at klcc at 1030 in the morning!!! LOL ... ate breakfast at coffee bean..with wong chun hann a few tables away ^-^ ...noooo..i did not get a picture or an autograph.. and i must conclude..i think he's bi.. lol..he was wid a guy fren and... gosh..they way he pat the other fella on the back..got this gay gay relationship feeling .... well.. it might not be him but me and sean are like 90% sure it's him..and i called liz to ask 4 his discription properly.. n it fitted perfectly XD XD .. no joke ;p .. fantastic four was ok i guess.. but the island was sooo definitely better.. and.. the best part of the day was..... I BOUGHT ANOTHER BIKINI!!! WAHAHAHHA.. this times its brown and pink XD XD... brown wid pink beads on the string and pink mambo word on the butt ;p
they gave me an interesting sticker as well..haha..it had 3 blur monkeys on it saying see some evil..hear some evil and speak some evil.. kakaka..damn cute..also saw the most intersting shirt.. it said fuck you kids.. and had a boy and a girl..but fully dressed doing it doggie style *dont ask me.. i dunno?* i was kinda surprised cuz it was in full view... in malaysia oooo... interesting no..but sadly..no more money and anyways it was for guys.. from klcc ..went over to sungei wang.. geez.. 1 fella wanted to charge me 10 bucks.. go die lar.. crazy meh.. T_T.. less den 5 ringgit onli lor... and he dare to say ..all oso will be same price wan lar.. snorts...
had waffles and aimlessly loitered around lot 10 and sungei wang.. liz n sean were suppose to teach me how to play pool but we ran outta time.. oh well ;p ..lotsa time more.... dammit.. i wanted to write about something but for some reason.. i've completely forgotten what it was.. T_T.... how sad is that??? OH YEAHHH!! lot 10 was having this triuph bra promotion thing.. damnnn painnnn arhh!! no money!! but a lot of nice bra's.. and a lot of buy 2 free 1.. *runs to corner and cry* super nice lor got 1... look liek bikini de.. dammmit.. i dun care.. muz scratch out money go and buy di.. who wants to join me... BWhAHAhHAHAhAHa XD XD
took purikura...hahaha...it....was.....interesting.... kakakakakaka... so funny lar.. dunno why they so hard to fit..bbut i remember last time took like mroe en 10 ppl can fit so nicely..this time 8 onli..but like ..haih..super chaos... but it was fun ^-^.. and entertaining.. after that hung around wid john..josh n marcus a while... nothing particularly intersting happened..at least none that i can remmeber atm....
later went to mid valley.. IT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE A SHOPPING TRIP T_T...but...my mum came late..and in the end i onli got to trim my hair.. oh well ;p i still saved like 90 bucks on my hair.. BWhAHHAHAhAhAHHA ....sigh... anybody know any quick ways to get money ...i am in serious need of it.. saw sooooo many things i want man T_T... gonna die..i only have like 10 bucks left..and i have to go ice skating next week with another bunch of frens..... shit shit shit....
which reminds me people... i have permission to go tokyo di ;p so ark..im opening shop again.. my cookies n brownies..cookies preferred of course.. SPREAD THE WORD!! i need mroe this time!! MWhHAhAhAHHAHAhahHAhAhHAHAhAHHAh.... my aim is 10 k .... ....... hard.... i know.. BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST!!!support me..support me ;p
Friday, July 29, 2005
exams..sigh..more b's den a's.. AGAIN..so screwed..but i got the highest for english.. MWbahHAHAhAhHAA.. and theres like a report card day for it..HOW SAD IS THAT?? btw..i wrote a 17 page essay.. for my japan report... i think im crazy...
morrow going out.. MWhhehehHEHE.. movie at klcc.. sticker pics at sungei wang..den shopping n hair trim at mid valley!! MWhHAhAHAHAHHAHA... 1st 2 friends..3rd mum ^-^
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
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personality tests by similarminds.com
wicked...this is pretty accuretae @_@
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
You've built a love but that love falls apart
Your little piece of heaven turns too dark
Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They're swept away and nothing is what it seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams
Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye
And there are voices
That want to be heard
So much to mention
But you can't find the words
The scent of magic
The beauty that's been
When love was wilder than the wind
Listen to your heart
When he's calling for you
Listen to your heart
There's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
And I don't know why
But listen to your heart
Before you tell him goodbye
Listen to your heart
Mmmmmmmm
I don't know where your going
And I don't know why
Listen to you heart
Before you tell him goodbye
Monday, July 25, 2005
HERE~!!
i feel very random today...hahha..no idea why... my hormones must be acting up again.. moody 1 minute ..hyper the next... @_@
hmmm...im beginning to wonder about my relationship...er couple relationship thingie.. i think i may just be bi @_@... no..i am not joking....hua huaaa huaaaaa...i have no comments on this.. but i just think...lol..cuz im not sure myself ... noooo..i do not particularly have a crush on a girl... at least im pretty sure i dont.. but i seem to find girls attracting my attention these days... oooooo XO ... then again.. im still pretty attach to my asshole of an ex.. haha... don't ask.. i dont really know.. i mean like we've already been broken up for nearly 3 friggin months~!! thats like 3x my other ex~!! and i was pretty friggin attach to him if most of u here remember... u_u ...
well..as i was saying.. it's been like nearly 3 months already but i still have on and off feelings for him.. i mean... 1 minute i love him..the next i dont... teruk lar..i know lar.. but wad wor.... everytime i start to love him again..he just goes and betrays me for this other chick or pisses me off somehow and makes me feel worthless again... then anger and hate appears..and poof..my love just temporarily dissapears ..but songs like backstreet boys- imcomplete suddenly suddenly will make me cry... but then when i hear songs like the corrs..cant remember part..the one that goes.. i never really loved you anyway...both songs kinda apply to my relationship with him....
love hate relationship..lol...i never thought it was possible..but here it is~! it exist alright... but im really getting sick of his games.. since he's soooo loyall to that bitch.. yes.. he PLEDGE his loyalty to her yesterday or something..so he can stay with her.. cuz u cant be loyal to 2 girls at once....and im worth more than that..so if he doesnt wanna give her up.. DEN FRREAKINNNGG STAYY OUT OF MY LIFE U BLARDY FUCKTARD~!!! DONT KEEP REAPPEARING JUST WHEN IM ABOUT TO GET OVER YOU!!! I HATE U I HATE U I HATE U!! YES I DO... yet i love u..sighhhh... LOVE....the complicatedness of it
oh well... i shall go get myself attached to a girl then XD hahaha...im quite attracted to 1 girl in particular..but there's this other girl..who hasss thhheee looveeliisstt smile going after me now XD .. darn it.... the complicatedness of it all.. sucks... u_u.. what shall i do..what shall i do~!!! stay devoted to a love that just keeps breaking my heart and making me cry... look for another guy to love... or.... GIRLSSSSS~! XO X0 XO ...i know all ya ppls mouth must be looking like that now.. after this very random post... u_u
Sunday, July 24, 2005
is it ok..4 a guy to PHYSICALLY hurt a girl who he claims he loves but wrong 4 him to PHYSICALLY hurt a girl who is hurting the girl he loves? if he rather hurt the one he claims he loves... isnt it obvious that he doesnt love her and really loves the other one?
Saturday, July 23, 2005
ps :EVERYBODY~ vote for julia~!!! hhaahahaha... I MEAN IT!! it's still going on until 7th august~!! so vote larrrrrr... i know u guys know julia ;p SSG JULIA....spread the word~!
HERE
( the banner on the right...star search)
I was your girl
Gave you my world
My everything
But you wouldn´t see
I had your back
I backed you up
Whatever I did
Was never enough
Just you
You
That's all you ever thought about
You
You
No one matters like you do
What goes around comes around
You should know by now
Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
The palm of your hand
That was your plan
Gave me no time
But now you want mine
It's all about take
You took too much
Nothing inside
I'm all used up
Come on
You
You
Nothing else matters like you do
You know what I'm talkin' ‘bout don't you
What goes around comes around
You should know by now
Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
On your one night stands (should've thought about that)
Says she's just a friend (should've thought about that)
Are you satisfied now? (should've thought about that)
Cause you can't hold me down
Not now I wanna thank you ‘cause now
I'm free I can breathe again and I'm never going back to you
Bet you never thought that I could break you
Did you think that I would look the other way?
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
Yeah yeah
Bet you never thought that I could break you
(Bet you never thought that I could break you)
Did you think that I would look the other way
Yeah you had it all figured out
But tell me who's the one who's crying now
Marion Raven - Crawl (only part of it)
High on a hill
Heard a bird sing her song
Sang you were true
Well, she got it all wrong
She didn't know about you're Lies
And all you're stupid alibis
Don't you know, this bird got wise
Surprise surprise surprise
The writings one the wall
Yeah yeah
In letters written tall
Yeah yeah I thought I'd let you know before I go
I will see you crawl
Fell of the hill
Into darkest of dreams
Promises broke
Ripped apart at the seams
So now you know this bird has flown
You will repay me what you owe
Don't you know you're gonna live
Alone alone alone
Marion Raven- Here I Am
I'll protect you, don't be scared
No matter what, I will be there
I'll be gentle, I'll be light
These are the words you whispered in the night.
Here I am, here I am
Now I'm standing in the cold (Everything is said and done)
Atomic winter in my soul (From the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know Is I gotta let you go
So here I am (Everything is said and done)
Yeah (From the absence of the sun)
The only remedy I know Is I gotta let you go
So here I am, here I am.
Marion Raven - Let me introduce myself
You got everything that I want
You got him in the palm of your hand
But I know you've slept with everyone in his band
Again again again
You try to pretend we get along
But pretty little girl, you got it all wrong
I've got my eyes on you and I know what's going
On and on the fights begun
I'm not blind you see
And you're not fooling me
You've stepped into my territory
Let me introduce myself
Your enemy
He would be shocked if he knew what I found out
The canzonet that you play would get a different sound
You lied about your BC to keep him around
Around around around we go
I'm not blind you see
And you're not fooling me
You've stepped into my territory
Let me introduce myself
Your reality
Oh no what have you
Gotten yourself into?
But to be honest I don't give a shit about you
You
You
I'm not blind you see
And you're not fooling me
You've stepped into my territory
Let me introduce myself
Your reality
Your morality
I'm not blind you see
And you're not fooling me
You've stepped into my territory
Let me introduce myself
His fantasy
last song...u guys know what its about..^_~v
Friday, July 22, 2005
well..if ure wondering..i was suppose to go tokyo for christmas with friends for a week...and for sum weird reason..my parents agreed to it..as long as i find part of my spending money myself AGAIN.. u_u...TOKYO for CHRISTMAS!! how cool is that..but my mum said.. only if my current exam is good T_T.. there goes..christmas in tokyo.. *whimpers*
right...japan... JAPAN WAS AMAZING!!! and i miss it there..i miss my host family..i miss the friends i met there..i miss everything!!! it was sooo cleannnnn and at night the breeze is just so nice.. and it's sooo safe..even at night u can see little kids running around and young girls taking the train home alone!! XS but it's so expensive there..sighhh
haha..actually i don't have much to brag about as i was only there for a few days but it was totally awesome!!! i amm sooooo applying again next year!!! and hopefully the trip will b longer then!! MWhHAhAhAHhAH XD
she let him out of her heart.she did it a month ago. but he kept coming back. how foolish this girl. to have fallen into his trap. wake up baby girl.this boy is not yours. time to wake up and find someone worth more.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Monday, July 11, 2005
she was in so much pain...yet..she kept pushing herself...fighting to stand...she did..once or twice..only to fall back down again n yelp out in pain...all i could do was watch... it broke my heart....i burst there and then..i cried..i didn't want to leave... but my mother forced me to... i left my baby there..i left her alone..in that cage.... .... i'm sorry....im sorry baby girl..i didn't mean to leave u alone...
baby girl...i miss u and i love u...take care whever you are..i'll always remember u...from the first day u licked and chewed my toes..to the last day u pushed ureself and tried to stand even if it hurt u so much...i'm sorry i couldn't b there with u till the end... but i didn't mean it.. i really really love u..n miss u.. take care baby girl..iu'll always be in my heart *hugs n kisses*
yesterday...the lab+dal pup..suddenly couldn't move her hind legs... it turns out there was some problems with her nerves...the doc tried giving medication... but it didn't help... poor baby was put to sleep today...because it was to suffering.. her problem spread and reached her spinal cord..she couldn't even chew her food... i guess...it was better to put her to sleep than make her suffer even more... but she was a sweetheart...she could melt ure heart easily ... *love u baby*
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Your wise quote is: "Love is life.
And if you miss love, you miss life" by
Leo Buscaglia.
Yes, love is indeed what you desire in your
life. If you have it or not is another matter,
but it is in your eyes the most important
feeling. You tend to be a romantic dreamer and
want you and your love to have that kind of
perfect love that you hear about in fairytales.
However that can be hard to find, but it
doesn't mean you are going to stop looking.
What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.
What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
You are the Hopeful Bride!
Which Bride are you? -With Anime Pics!-
*solli..pic cacat..dunno why...hahahaha*
You are Fibers!
Fun and crazy at times. You are a warm fuzzy kind
of person. You run around getting things done
but still find time for fun! You have so many
diverse interests that it is often hard to pin
you down to any one thing. People love your
friendly attitude and carefree ways. You often
brighten other people's days. But Fibers Beware
- Sometimes people don't take you seriously
because of your happy-go-lucky ways. Sometimes
you find yourself feeling left out from
decision making that could directly affect you.
Even though you like to be happy and cheerful,
make sure others know that you can also be
serious and in tune with reality.
What scrapbooking item are you?
all those lies..just to get my attention and sympathy.. it worked all right..i fell for them...i fell hard..and so did all ure friends.. made us think..u really needed me... so why not.. give u a chance i though.. joke joke!! *ding ding ding* big mistake baby girl... it's just a tactic...hahaha
wasn't it? ian low?? wasn't it?? lies...u don't love me.. u just need me... well.. too bad.. i won't be yours...can't give me love and attention?? den too bad..u wont get my love and attention either.. fly fly away birdie.. flllyy aloonnneeee in ure sad lonely skies XD cuz this birdy here..is flocking with her other birdy pals..happy...free...giving everyone else but u the love they need XD
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Sunday, July 03, 2005
friday went to times square watched war of the worlds XD hahaa..at the satrt it was sooooo lammeeee..but longer..it was still lame but u just couldnt keep ure eyes off the screen..its tooo sci fi n fake 4 me.. but it was ok lar..not bad not bad...haha..n crashed into my cousin siow wei so many times man..n met hoongs in times square also XD kekekee ... siow wei n ming hui took me n drea back to mah hse..den went pasar malam ..XD but... my mother insisted on coming alone.. so.. beep... drea stayed over .. btw did i mention my hamster has babies..??
hsaha..today was a funny and interesting day..me..drea..lie peh aaron n lie peh's si went to my uncles hse to get lie peh's dog... haha...a lot of wrong turnings.. erm... and waitinf for my uncle..we went in..and so hard to choose the dogs man..so hyper active..i wanntt 1!! damn super wai.. my parents dun let TT say got too many jor..but that dog..is really special to me..well most of u noe why..so dunnit to mention ler.. huhuhu
went chin weng;'s hse.. hahahaha..everyone got thrown into the pool..so i ran up and changed into mel's swimming costume 1st XD kakakaa..dey couldnt throw me in earlier cuz my hp n my hse remote was in my shorts..lol.. had fun ler i guess.. havent been there in ages !! miss it .. mmm..so freaking tired...
Friday, July 01, 2005
i don't know..i feel an overwhelming sadness right now..and my tears just can't stop flowing.. i knew this would happen.. from the very first time we fought..i knew it would end the exact same way our problems started arising.. HER... it was fun while it lasted... haha..but at the moment.. i don't know..i miss him? well as they say... u just never realise what you have until u lose it... hahha...2nd time for me...oh well... life... gotta move on...give and take as they say
it's funny how i could furiously pissed off at him 1 minute...and miss him the next... of fuck... my tears are flowing non stop..i havent felt cried like this in nearly a month.. great... go to school dead with red blotchy face and bengkak eyes @@ and then i'll have to start explaining again.. ughh.... honestly..i hate the yr 2004 and 2005 a lot..i mean it.. in a way..i kinda wish i never got together with him.. but then..i think back of all the happy times we had... they meant so much... those times.. irreplacable...i wish...i could just turn back time.. pick the happiest days we were together and just keep reliving them ...i know..i might get bored.. but at least i would b by his side.. happy...carefree...in love....
my fairytale..my dream.. has ended..and it's finally time to wake up....