Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

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..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Monday, July 06, 2009

Runaway Child

there is an undeniable sense of regret in matters of road taken and i feel at an absolute lost at my incapabililty to allow myself to love what it is that im doing. timetable's an absolute bitch and pulls me under so deep, i feel the need to lock myself in a room and sleep till i no longer even bleed.

it's not that i hate my classes, it's not that i hate being in class. it's the whole idea of it that denies me my freedom and acceptance to even want to go back to it all. it really isnt about being lazy either its about doing something i know i really have lost the passion for; a dead end at a frozen trail and all i see is this monochromed lie thats slowly burying me inside.

holidays are meant to be good for you but what happens when you never really recover from it?

my next tattoo is a suicidal fairy straped to a revolver, unladylike and fierce; a piece i fell instantly in love with yet had no proper meaning to. it just stared back at me begging to be imprinted, with words "think happy thoughts" in place of the model of the revolver. it felt so me somehow yet brought no reason or that 100% clarity of being a permanant mark on my body that time around. classes have started and i fear depression setting it; it is right now that it brings a deeper sense of being somehow. i think this week will be a good time to get it done.

i just want to run away from it all, run away from the expectations of others and live my life happy and free. "you and everyone else" i hear the words scream back in my head. but i guess im not as strong as everyone else is now then am i? im not that girl with ambition or drive to make something of herself and like many other people i have become a downcast in the cruel eyes of mankind and the society we have been brought up in.

on the bus my thai friend asked, "why are you called emo girl? i know you so long and you like happy all the time only?" it's true, i've been quite the carefree child over the months of skipping classes and doing things i want but today, right now, in the midst of forcing myself to get ready for class i sit here in front of this lighted screen and finally after months, break down.

Labels: body art, confessions, emo, personal, sad, study, upset, wordy

-BabyGinz-