Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

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..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

u aint worth mah time

i feel stupid..stupid and used... again.... how could i be so stupid...to believe times like the past 2 days would last with him? haven't i been battered and bruised enough to wake up already? to wake up and face reality?? haven't you had enough of your fun yet?? isn't my heart broken enough?? isn't it??

once again..i was used and taken for granted...being an object of his desires...not love but desires... only taken when needed..when nobody else is around...an object to remove loneliness... not worth sacrificing for or worth loving...

i was warned...many times by all those around me.. he isn't worth it..look at the way he treats you..u deserve better.. just let him go... i ignored those advice.. i ignored my brain and followed my heart... to forever believe in hope that 1 day he might really change and his love for me might become real and genuine... but how much can a girl like me really take? how much can hope really stay with me?

i could have let go...honestly i could have... right now i could b with someone else ... or at least trying to get the attention of someone else... be free... free and rid of him ...rid of my pains and sufferings ...the feeling of loneliness...the feeling of feeling like trash all the time..feeling so worthless...losing my self esteem more and more each day... but he had to come back... he had to sweep me off my feet again... continuously... with words and actions... stupid little things that melt my heart and make me believe in *US* ... only to be cheated and lied to again....

when will my sufferings end?...... i can't take it..i can't.....i don't want to be in a relationship where it's only 1 sided love... but i don't want to be friends when we are both in love... so what is it really? 1 sided or real love? ...there's only 2 choices i'm willing to take... to be strangers and never speak of each other again or to each other.. or to be together...but...having actual love involved ... i can't keep living in between.. i can't....

-BabyGinz-