Monday, April 11, 2005

let go

hahaha~! i am a superficial bitch after all~!! ian's hair sucks.. realllll bad...i hate it..i felt like slapping him..and because of his hair we fought and i really hurt him..and u know what?? i don't feel the slightest bit upset.....i think i may just be sick and tired enough to let this relationship go.. i mean?? hey??? i'm like willing to let go now just because he has a really bad haircut and he loves it and i hate it and i want it gone...and he doesnt..and im willing to make him pissed..insult him...hurt him..and not feel bad??

i mean?? is this the ginny we all know?? i used to cry whenever i shouted at him i would start crying...he looks at me wid those sad adorable eyes of his and i melt and have a break down... now?? because of his hair?? he looks....just not mine anymore...it's like a slap across my face telling me...ian isn't really yours...

i mean who on earth looks at her bf and feels like slapping him just because of a bad haircut?? that has to mean something?? and he can't ACTUALLY say that looks is a factor to me..cuz?? i doubt it?? i mean...my ex...he's cute yet??? i dunno..everybody used to say i was blind... i sound like a downright bitch now..lol... well thats not the point..and ian??

well somethings ppl just wont be able to understand...when u look at a person and u feel lost...like he isnt him anymore....then...everything just dissapears! just like that..u can tell a person's cahnged..jsut by his or her appearance...and maybe..it is a factor... cuz now..thanks to his hideous hair.. my baby ian is no longer my baby ian~!!

geee..i wonder what im crapping about...and this may just bring me closer to letting go...how weird is that?? i guess i've changed as well...

-BabyGinz-