Sunday, February 06, 2005

depression cant even begin

depression cant even begin to describe how im feeling..we're together again..but like...it doesnt feel like we are...more like a forced thing... ugh..don't even ask... didnt really sleep much last night...really tired..and still really depressed now...i want to see him so badly... talk to him..hear his voice.. but when i call..he sounds distant n cold...unloving ...un..him...im so confused...im stuck..i don't know whats what anymore...he doesnt really need me.. so why do i make him stay with me?? why?? if i love him.. shouldnt i let him go??why cant i??

...i dont know..no mood today..so didnt get to go to the gothic thingie....went to old folks homes to give ang pao....wid dad n bro..den got dragged around... feeling really...dead....hurt....depression really is my life...

-BabyGinz-