Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

..She Supports..

..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

angsty and annoyed!

RARW!

-BabyGinz-

over the years i have noticed the one most significant change in me would be my utmost distrust and annoyance towards people.

i started out at this kid who would and could trust anyone and everyone yet never really got on the bad side of it because i grew up learning to be manipulative and sly. i could have been patient with the people around me but i chose to be demanding and aggressive hence being given the term arrogant and lan si. it wasnt because i was generally like that, it was more like a defence mechanism for me. self protected and undependant on those close to me. i took pride in being the one people came crying to. i was the girl that would beat up the guy that made my best friends cry. the head of the pack for quite some time.

and then i started to mellow out choosing to stay within the shadows because people no longer mattered all that much to me. i was in my own world. growing up with betrayals and the occasional need to grow up too fast. and with the latter that was exactly what i did. at the age of 12-13 my childhood was thrown behind me and i was the sort of quiet girl who did what the grown ups did. or so to say.

as the years past, i notice my patience wearing thinner and thinner by the day. and i've come to realise, i really barely even trust anyone anymore. a last minute cancellation for someone else would easily put me into a state of utter distress and annoyance and the need to backlash would seem almost impossible to contain. jealousy seems to envelope me. things that never really used to matter now puts me in a frenzy of absolute disbelief.

..i wish i could stop my growing hatred towards humanity...

i want to be that carefree and innocent me...

-BabyGinz-

no car =( this sucks.

pfft

-BabyGinz-

am suddenly starting to feel nostalgic =(

je manques mon classe francais. or is it ja'i?? pfft..whatever

i dont miss miss my french class.. but i miss the language all together.. i hated how i was taught..it was vocab vocab all the way and it never stuck with me..because it bored me to death =(

i wanted to learn french like a child in kindergarden. songs and poetries and simple story books but my french school thought that was the wrong way to teach us probably because most of the students were much much older than me.

=( i want to start all over again.. with a teacher on a more personal level.. someone who would actually make the class more fun to be in.. sigh sigh..

-BabyGinz-

Friday, January 30, 2009

3-6 Oct 08

decided to cook at home.honey bbq chicken. sam n cw joined us. hmm.. didnt feel that long ago @_@

looks good no? hehe. sorry la..im not pro..never bother to wipe the plate when i spilled sauce =S my mashed potatoes are awesome.com yo

with lychee!! yum

i was going through some cooking obsession. heh. made omelette rice for the boy.

rarw!

8-10 Oct 08

i love these milk biscuit things! these adorable ones are from the 100 yen shop

haha..bought this giraffe hanger thing

the sad mess that is my cupboard

and the extremely rare occasion that is my desk that looks even remotely clean!

Chillie! u may remember him from the guinea pig vid

this is how big he is.. Heh..

he was named after the word chinchilla because he used to look like one

muuuu

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, January 29, 2009

2 October 08

squigee and my feet

pink bunnies are love

baby and adam

squigee all grown up.. i think?

or maybe not so.. haha

adil and ghost cat.

love love

happy boys

hari raya food

mmmm

im hungry "=_=

i miss tying up my hair =S

happy colours

pigs

with babies.

tomato pasta. looks good no =3 hehe. i made it =D

purple coals

mint

geralds shisha pot. huhu

the boys fav frozen pizza "=_=

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

..........omg............

i was with a friend today and i was telling her about how long it's been since ive last seen coins in my ang pau! u know when we were much younger they used to put like one ringgit coins in these cardboard thingie.. its like a piece of cardboard about the size of an ang pau den it has 6 slots! or however many slots la depends.. and then they put coins in!!

DOES ANYONE KNOW THIS??

because apparently none of my friends know this "=_= and SO FAR..none of them has ever received coins before.. wtf wtf

i find this very amusing because those coin angpaus bring back a lot of memories and it was pretty cool collecting them 1 ringgit coins and putting them into my bank *o* and watching it all pile up.. like u see..eyer.. why so kedekut wan but when u actually count the number one coins you get.. it adds up to pretty much..

hell.. as the years increase my ang paus decrease "=_=

i remember as a kid i could easily get 1k or more..

now it doesnt even reach 400 "=_= ....... hahaha..sadness wei.

BUT SERIOUSLY?? do u guys reallllyy not know about these coin cardboard things?? *O*

-BabyGinz-

i have an issue. there is this intesely annoying voice in my head that screams at me every few hours a day. it says "UPDATE YOUR BLOG GINNY!!! UPDATE!!" yet when the moment comes this voice shrinks and whispers "i dont know what to say"

and as annoying as it it, still there is that un-defy-able (i know there isnt such a word..) need to blog. about what? absolutely nothing would be most precise.

ho hum.

28-29 Sept 08

my forehead is GG.COM .. i should take care of my skin more =S

mine. Nippon Tei KLCC

with udons.. i love those adorable fish cakes

soba! his

with tempura again. mmmmyum.

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

just because i feel like it.

-BabyGinz-

Monday, January 26, 2009

so far it hasnt been a very good chinese new year for me. started off with bad waffles and fries BUT a really good long chat with my 2nd bf ;p whom i heart to bits. he came and got me despite the fact that he had barely any sleep for the past week and ended up almost waking his whole neighbourhood at 2 am because he set his house alarm off.. =3

and then i was woken up at 8 am when the so called vegetarian breakfast only started at about 10...only to find out THERE WAS NO vegetarian food "=_= ... and i didnt really have much left to eat but a plate of veggies.. wtf.. but that wasnt the point..it was the whole woken up for nothing thing that got me annoyed considering i slept around 3.30-4. sigh sigh.

and then back to seremban it was... ONLY TO END UP CRYING THERE.. wtf freak.. stoopid siblings was watching AFC and there was this programme about the biggest chinese restaurants in the world.. in one scene.. THEY FUCKING SAWED A LIVE DUCK OPEN AT ITS CHEST AND PULLED OUT ITS BEATING HEART T_______T omgwtfbbq.. lim su ann!!the duck was those adorable white ones that you adore =( ... can u imagine..the poor duck was 100% alive and watching the whole scene... arghhh.................

and then my dad went oh! that is too much that is seriously too much then he went to check whats for lunch and exclaimed OH DUCK RICE!! VERY GOOD!! ............... wtf............ i swear i wanted to die right there.. the irony of the whole situation was funny in such a sad way i cried at the table and refused to eat anything but veggies again.. pfft.. my aunties and cousins thought i fought with my sis or something "=_= stoner.

i now officially swear off duck as well "=_=... oh well! progress to being a vegetarian!!

i swear sometimes im ashamed of being asian "=_= its always asians that end up doing shit like eating a monkeys brain while the monkey is screaming in pain.. pfft.... my bro was just saying how very soon i will refuse to acknowledge the fact that im chinese because apparently youre only really chinese if u can eat anything and not feel bad abt it.. wtf wtf...(not meant to offend anyone. he said it as a joke)

HOWEVER..the brother offered to pay for a UN trip to cambodia to help build roads..(his colleage wants him to go and he refuses so he wants to send me in his place..wtf) ive always wanted to do shit like that.. but.....true to my sisters words... i feel no compassion for human beings... pfft.. they take all hope from my innocence.... so.... would i really do it?? all the pain sweat blisters and 3rd world facilities *o* .......... ho hum. i wonder... to go or not to go =S anybody else up for it?

eh sorry la.. my blog forever rant rant rant.. im not a very happy person neither am i very humourous... in fact i barely even have a sense of humour.. i especially get annoyed at jokes that go like this (these jokes have been very frequently said to me)

person: EH..my car very dirty! go wash car for me la!
me: why? why i wash?
person: u work for good year what! so you go wash my car lar!!

person: hey..so where you studying ah
me: help
person: why help? because you need help ah?

..............these jokes...........all they do is make me want to spit in their faces but no instead i smile and pretend to think its funny. oh the "joys" of growing up and having to live a life full of facades and artificial smiles.

.... well in continuation to my not so great chinese new year... something i would rather remain a tad bit more private made me feel extremely unaccepted and unwelcomed.

........i will never belong or be accepted by them. and you never even try to do anything about it. never once was i ever defended in front of them. and tonight... the none existing invitation just makes me wonder.......

..........maybe if i left....... they would be much happier... and then maybe you would too.

-BabyGinz-

Happy Official Chinese New Year!

red enough for ya?

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, January 25, 2009

my happy bubble has just been brutally destroyed...

i dislike having my relatives come to my house.. all they do is agitate me and my dogs...

its funny how one of my dog only goes berserk towards my family.. and i hate how they call her stupid and hit her like she isnt a living thing... it hurts to surpress my urge to slap them back....

screw family reunions.

i was never the family kind of girl anyway.

-BabyGinz-

Whee! imma happy child once again!!

i finally bought my first proper button up shirt and i am so crazily in love with the shop!!! i swear their shirts are freaking gorgeous.. gonna go back and get some guy shirts

its at bangsar village 2 and its called dude and the duchess.. weird name i know..lol..at first glance i thought it was DUKE and duchess... pfft.. =3 .. AND OMG even if u dont intend to buy their clothes U HAVEEEEEEE to try something just to check out their fitting room. its so awesome. I KID YOU NOT

anyway happy chinese new yr!

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, January 24, 2009

do you know that feeling when everything seems to go all the wrong ways and even the slightest of things causes your blood to boil and your temper to flare.

im having one of those days with a killer headache to boot.

and it doesnt help when the people you think closest to you furthur agitates the situation and pisses you off even more to the extent that you're absolutely positive that you will break the neck off the next person that crosses your path.

i want to hit something. slam something against the wall. shoot someone. i havent felt so violently angry and annoyed in a long time.

i almost hit my rabbits today.

that is not a good sign. not a good sign at all.

i fear for myself.

and i fear for those around me.

baby come back quick =(

-BabyGinz-

ever since the whole gummy bear vitamin thing, i seem to be on some major sugar binging session @_@ im constantly craving sweets and what nots. this is seriously not helping my diet "=_=

i had a lot on my mind earlier today but the heat is causing me a headache and i cant think straight.. urgh...

its kinda sad that another one of my closest friends will be leaving to melbourn THE DAY BEFORE my birthday =( .. and we were in the car together today and we passed by somebodys house and the both of us kept almost calling said person only to realise she went off somewhere today! pfft!!

and then because she wasnt home.. we went home. wtf wtf.

end of sadistic story.

-BabyGinz-