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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p
Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.
..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Sunday, November 30, 2008
it was an almost perfect sunday morning
now wouldnt it have been perfect if a breakfast of sunny side ups and toast came complimented with orange juice on that cosy little bed.
i guess it doesnt really matter even if our status remains undefined,
but thank you for my morning,
i hope your feelings were just as mine.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
it's sound echoes in a way almost too cruel for a human child.
the emptyness it brings tears my soul apart to a point i feel nothing else.
how much more can i endure,
i wish i could go back just 18 hours earlier.
no words could tell you why.
Friday, November 28, 2008
i sit here and my anger grows yet i wonder if i saw you in front of me, would it evaporate like droplets on the desserts snow or would it remain, fist clenched together and eyes set ablaze.
maybe its the hormones speaking. wont it be funny if your dream came true.
i wonder if u even noticed how much of my life has been sacrificed for you.
"it hurts"
those words.
they make me boil.
all your life you've only known how to run away. it's always about YOU YOU YOU you said. perhaps its time u opened your eyes and looked at the bigger picture instead.
i hate sitting here while i type this. suffocated by my pets. my treasured babies yet my allergies to them have grown so intense, i cough and i wheeze and i sit here and type all these.
my head hurts and my eyes arent any different.
it must have been the lack of oxygen and the possibility of dehydration.
i asked myself this many a time. i wonder how would it feel like to die while i cried. such strange thoughts arent all that strange for i really cannot breath.
i have a charity fashion show tonight, one i really wanted to be in. yet now i refused to turn up and finding a replacement seems really hard, as hard as can be.
i wish i could this time.
but it isnt your house anymore.
...and all i can do is sit here and cry
this happened when you came along.
i shrank into this little girl. that little girl that sat and cried in the dark until someone would come along. she would tug on your sleeves and refuse to let go; that was until she was put to sleep. vulnerable and weak; i became everything i laughed at, such pityful believes.
i gave you everything, even the childlike and vulnerable me; in exchange of the promise of care and trust, i did.
i let myself trust you, a trust so deep i gave even my life. to have fallen so pathethic, i became that needy little creep. trusted your words, believed you were willing to care for the real and broken little me.
"...i knew you're be that person i'd treasure most in my life..... i want to keep you with me always..."
" i see a bench, you and me......that picture is just about you and i."
"...to me, you're no filling that completes my life, you're my everything i've ever wanted, needed, and more than i could ever think and imagine. ..... to have you by my side was my birthday wish, to have you with me is my wish and dreams everyday......if i could, i want to hold you forever."
"...be my baby always..."
i wonder wheres that bench, we never actually found it. abandoned coldplay videos and empty streets, seperated pets from those they grew up with. i guess it was stupid of me to have believed, believed you would be able and willing to take care of me even at such times of need.
for look what happened now, betrayal runs deep.
you stripped me bare, walked out and left me alone, alone with nothing but broken dreams.
a potrait sits on the table top, just next to the tv. it's family potrait, yet now a stranger stares back at me.
and then the computer crashed, and i lost my entire post.
i wrote it in tears, i wrote it with heart.
and how i gave u myself, vulnerable and childlike to a promise of care and trust.
i cant rewrite the post, the words will no longer flow.
maybe later, i'll feel that need and write you that post.
the post that my computer refused to send.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
yet i laid there and cried. words meant nothing. the silence proved everything.
i wanted to tell you to stay. to hold your hand and tell you how much i loved you; then i remembered the past, and how i asked you. you would never be happy with me, decide before you stepped into my part.
i kept all your messages, they always made me smile.
now i wish i could erase them, erase this pain that pushes me to the dark.
i told myself i wouldn't make myself bleed, no, not this time. i kept it on repeat. i wonder how long i'll last? it's been a while since i last watched myself drip. drip those pretty crimson drops on those tiles, cold and shimmering mask.
remember how i always told you, the rain falls for me?
well, today.
the rain; it falls with me.
like the tears that fall,
silent and painful
onto that cold hard floor.
...its been 2 years since we met.
hello there.
"i want ice cream"
....those words....
they pierce like an arrow.
of a dream; full of artificial smiles.
all i wanted was for you to at least tell me when there isnt enough and when it was being withdrawn.
it doesnt feel right to suddenly be told your bank acc is almost empty without even knowing when the money had been withdrawn.
but you're always so headstrong.
so sensitive all the time.
getting angry or annoyed at everything and everyone.
maybe you're right.
maybe im not worth your time.
if only you would take the time to notice the growing gap between us and how different you once had been.
or maybe i'm just not in your heart like how i used to be.
i know what you're thinking. i know what u want to say.
but these hidden tears and scars aren't things you would have noticed.
Ingredients
- 2 Cups Flour
- 1 Egg
- 3/4 Cup brown sugar (molasses sugar)
- 1/2 Cup sugar
- 1/2 Cup shortening (vegetable fats)
- 1/2 Cup butter
- 1/2 Teaspoon salt
- 1 Teaspoon baking soda
- 1 Teaspoon baking soda
- Vanilla essence (as much as you like but dont overdo it "=_=)
- Chocolate Chips/ Chocolate Chunks (up to you how much)
Important Notice
* please note that the shortening can be replaced by butter. AND USE BUTTER NOT MARGERINE. using shortening will give u a crunchier feel while substituting it with butter will give you a more rich buttery and soft feeling*
you can also reduce the amount of sugar which i tend to do alot but it depends on your taste buds. you could make the batter with less sugar first and then taste it and if its not sweet enough add more =)
Directions
1.Preheat oven to 180 degrees.
2.Beat the shortening, butter, sugar, egg and vanilla together.
3.When well mixed, mix in the rest of the ingredients except the choc chips.
4.Add the choc chips in last.
5.Bake for 8-12 mins or until golden brown like the picture above.
the batter should be stiff and not wet and watery. it can be. a wet and watery batter will make the cookies flatter and spread more white a stiffer dryer batter will make fatter and smaller cookies that dont spread as much. if you think the batter is too wet,just add in a bit more flour. =)
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
i never thought i would reach the day where i would become afraid to blog about my own thoughts of feelings. maybe it's just the pms talking; or perhaps we all just lke to console ourselves about the prospect that it is just the PMS talking.
it isnt about the strangers who read and talk about it like they know me but more about the people around me who actually care enough to know. a fear of being read and predicted like a map laid out in front of a person's very eyes.
i dont like being seen through. i dont like people being able to read me.
i guess that's why i'm such a recluse. i like being alone yet i hate being alone.
i contradict myself so often..
i wish i was just that little bit more common.
bad day.
pfft.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
this is some seriously addictive strawberry shaved ice thing in daily fresh, ikano.
its a lot nicer than the ones in 100 yen shop.
cookie baking day
havent made these in a long long time
mmm.. choc..
my fav choc chip cookie recipe.
and then he got tired of spooning the stuff so he made them into this "=_=
product of the bfs cookie dough mass
"=_=
Monday, November 24, 2008
during my one week of depression i lost weight. in recovery stage I GAINED MORE THAN I LOST. on the bright side. i got some free treatment voucher from bizzy body slimming center worth 660 or something and it says a guaranteed 5" of total size loss.. hmmmmmmm
smells fishy but oh well. its free ;p thunder thighs need some dealing with even if its just temporary =(
i seem to be suffering from insomnia now while my dog is happily snoring at my feet.
dominos latest new york crust is some seriously addictive shit. i kid you not.
and i like unicorns.
do u like unicorns *o*
12.12am edit : i forgot to mention. i was struck with the most dissapointing of news yesterday =( .....rapidshare has a daily download limit now!! OH WOE IS ME!!!!!!!!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
i would seriously rather have a private tutor but they are darn expensive. if anyone has any contacts with an acceptable price do leave me a comment yea
this was my first time there.. note the date... 4 months ago and i am now a frequent visiter of the place because the bf hates steamboat but he likes this one *o*
the addictive tom yam soup
clear soup
the boy excited at his new toy. which i chose ;p
HOOHOHOH
hues of red n pink @_@
the dumpling noodle set. 7.90 i think
lamb noodle set. 9.80 I THINK
EHHEHE. all pink. and yeap. the bfs new toy is the recorder on the right. HAHAHHA. too match my stuff.. wtf
Saturday, November 22, 2008
it funny how things spread through word and especially apparently through MY MOUTH. do note that you do not mistake a question from a statement. i'm sorry did you not understand that?? heres an example
when i TELL you something and SPREAD something. it sounds like this.
XX bought a dog yesterday!!
when i ask you something which has no proof. it goes like this.
Did XX buy a dog yesterday?
CAN YOU SEE THE DIFFERENCE YET?
or maybe this example.
telling: XXX HAS HERPES!!
asking: Does XXX have herpes?
or a more commonly used way
telling: the exams are tomorrow.
asking: is the exam tomorrow?
IT IS A HUGE FREAKING DIFFERENCE OKAY. DONT GO AROUND SAYING THAT I SAID SOMETHING AND THEN CHANGING PART OF THE WORDS USING MY NAME TO MAKE YOUR SORRY ASS LOOK INNOCENT for something that you nochantly said you didnt give a damn about!!.
pfft.
some people just never grow up.
and we wonder why i hate the human race so much. pfft. and dont give me that shit abt not everyones like that and im human too okay. JUST DONT.
Friday, November 21, 2008
i have been in mild depression mode for over a week but i think im starting to get better now. have also been craving packeted nasi lemak for the longest time @_@
this is such a pointless post.
yellow
the two people i forced to join because im too lazy to run myself. HAHAHAH
spot the baby samurai
aaron on crack yo.
such well behaved yellow people
random
ooo..yummy chicken chop thing at charms the usual.
=( .. they were leading but the security lady conned them on one of the clues and they ended up getting consolation.. BYE BYE 10 k =(
Thursday, November 20, 2008
makes me sick of life itself.
just shoot me already.
i was woken up by the sounds of squeling, screaming and barking. so went down to investigate. the maid was poking at a rat hiding in the corner while screaming and one of my dogs was trying to eat it =(
so i got the maid to tie the dogs and i got the bf to move the thing that was blocking the rat...
and then the rat went and did something i didnt expect.. T__________T
it rat right into one of my dogs.......and then managed to escaped and limped inside the house where he was furthur attacked by my other 2 dogs T________T OMG WEI.. by the time we got to him he was already breathing hard and had blood coming out of his nose T_________T so i wrapped the poor baby in a towel and stroked him but he died about 15 minutes later.. T_______T
WAH IM DAMN SAD LOR SERIOUSLY. if you think rats are damn ugly maybe you should go get one and look properly because they are one of the cutest rodents alive!! T____T
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
these 2 babies were left abandoned at the pound and will be put to sleep this weekend. initially it was suppose to be on the 20th but we have managed to drag it to the weekend instead.
both dogs are perfectly healthy but are currenly underfed due to the mistreatment of previous owners as well as the pound.
They are currently residing in DBKL Klinik Kembiri in Setapak awaiting their turn to be put to sleep.
please help pass the word around
Alsation (German Shepard) Male. about 18 Months. has weak hind legs but is a very quiet and well mannered dog.
Rottweiler. About 2 Years Old. Really Gorgeous Face Features. has very strong hind legs.both dogs have a mild skin problem which can be easily remedied by any certified vet. do note that both dogs are perfectly healthy otherwise and are of good temperment.
if you are interested or know anybody who is interested please call 012-3310243 (wilson) Or email whackowilson@gmail.com or me at sweetsimplicities@gmail.com
4-5 July 08
do u see what i see?
do u see what i see?
mwehehehe
chocolate scented bubbles!
actually its damn smelly lor "=_=
but so cute cannot resist.. wtf
bunny couple ring.. HAHAHA
more like self proclaimed couple rings
moo moo and miu miu
salmon something pasta at Pasta de Gohan @ Sunway Pyramid
tofu salad. quite nice
katsu pasta. also pretty good..expensive though.. zzzzzz
yumm
some scallop potato thing. realllyy good
or so claims jane/sze ye
chee june gave me this!!!
DAMN CUTE RIGHT. damn no heart to eat.
sigh
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
it is indeed time to fix these problematic thighs of mine. =/
le sigh.
Monday, November 17, 2008
well generally there are easier ways and easier programs to do it but im too lazy to download new ones so i just use photoshop. and cs 3 and 4 is about the same. not too sure about the older versions. i cant remember @_@
but please note that this is how i do it. IT MAY NOT be the BEST OR THE MOST CORRECT way to do it but it works fine with me so yeah =) if you cant see the pics clearly click on them for the original ones.. im sorry @_@ i uploaded them all in medium size before i realised.. kakakka
btw sorry if all my words are all in a paragraph. blogger messed up my editing and the html codes are just too messy for my drowsy brain to handle right now ;p
open the files you are using. do make sure that they are all of the same size. then use the magnifying glass and make them all to maybe 25 % or smaller depending on how many you have so you can fit as many windows as possible on your screen.
click on windows and click on the animation part like above.
you will then have the animation bar at the bottom. arrange your pics in order of how you are going to arrange them. first to last. then put your first main picture somewhere so it doesnt mix with your others like above. AND MAKE SURE IT is still selected for the next part.
if you notice on the right hand side. the layers bar. click on the small box next to your layer to hide the layer. it will then look like the little squared up boxes you see on your left.
then when you are still selected on your first picture with its layer hidden. click on the duplicated slide button. which is at the bottom of your animation bar. the second last button. on the left of the trash can. duplicate the total number of pictures you are gonna use.eg. i used 21 pictures so i duplicated 20 more slides to make it 21 slides in total.
now you can start filling your layers. click on the select tool or to make life easier ctrl+A. then just use the drag tool and drag it over to your first picture.
after every picture you have dragged into your main picture. hide its layer. not necessary but this is to make it easier to see if your next picture is completely covering the whole box or it isnt. an example will be in the next step.just layer one pic on top of another by sequence of second to last.also, close the picture you have already dragged over to avoid confusion. or you could always just minimise it.
see. sometimes theres a space like that. and when theres a non hidden layer behind you would usually not notice this. i noticed this happens a lot if you drag the picture from the top. so its better to bring it from the bottom.anyway if this happens just delete it and drag the pic in again. no big deal.
now you will have all your layers stacked on each other. and all layers hidden. looks like this.
now click on the first slide on the animation bar and show the layer by clicking on the same box you clicked on to hide it. notice the other layers are still empty as the other layers are still hidden. THIS IS IMPORTANT. each slide SHOULD only have 1 layer showing or else your final gif will be all over the place!!
another thing to note. because your first slides layer is the background. each subsequent slide will have a layer number less.eg. slide 13 will be on layer 12.
when you are done with all the layers, click on the little button below the picture on your animation bar to choose the time frame of each slide.
notice my time frames are different. but this depends on your gif. just random put the time and click on the play button to see how fast or slow you want your gif animation to be.
when youre done and satisfied. go to image and click image size. (this is if you want to resize the picture as a large gif image may take up too much space and it doesnt look as pretty due to the pixelation and noise)
using percentage to change the size is usually easier than using pixels.
now that you're done. go to file and save for web and devices.
make sure gif is selected at the top of your presend. the left side of your picture where i circled is your image size. if its still too large for you. you can always resize your pic again. now just click save.
and this is what you get! =)oh yeah. if youre uploading gif through bloggers default uploading system, it wont show because blogger creates another file and renames your image. so you need to upload it to your album or photobucket or server or whatever and manually insert the image.