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..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Sunday, December 31, 2006
T_T....
there was 4...
and then 3...
and now 2..
T_T....
MAHAI. LAST DAY OF THE YEAR ALSO WANT TO PLAY.
WHAT THE FUCKING HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?
i wonder if you would hate me if you knew the things that often go through my head when im with someone else.
wont you wake up now and realise the truth around you.
To you,
i think i might actually be falling for you...
To you,
i hate you more than ever.
Saturday, December 30, 2006
im not sure if its a good thing or a bad... i havent exactly had the best year... but then a new year is coming.. sigh.. which means school is starting... =/ i want a longer holiday.. im so not ready for school yet....
and another year older... feels funny...
Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing
And I remember when you started calling me your Mrs
All the play fighting
All the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I dunno why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Drinkin' tea in bed, watchin' DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty, grotty magazines
You'd take me out shopping
And all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
The first time that you introduced me to your friends
And you could that tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
When I was feeling down, you'd make that face you do
There's no-one in the world who could replace you
Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, it seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too
The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but it's so true
I know it's not right but it seems unfair
That thing's are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on
Tell me
Is this the end?
Friday, December 29, 2006
dont tell me you love me and you want to be with me 1 minute only to diss me the next..
what is it you really want??!
please....stop hurting me...
dear whoever it may concern,
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE make the school holidays longer by a month. OR AT LEAST A WEEK. OR AT LEAST LET IT START on the 8th INSTEAD OF THE 3rd. WHERE GOT PPL START SCHOOL ON WEDNESDAY WAN HAH. opps.. sorry..
i mean.. pretty pretty please with a cherry on top *big eyes*
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would u rather be the girl. the random girls he would suddenly pick up on. the ones he calls and sms-es and looks for whenever he has a fight with his gf or he's irritated at her. he may kiss you or hug you or whatever but only because you just happen to be there. what if you had feelings for him. what if you think that he actually has feelings for you seeing as his gf gets jealous at you when fact and reality is it's just her nature.
maybe he really does like you. maybe he really does have feelings. but who really knows? is this better? as there is no actual commitment. like a fling. but it's not really a fling because he never admits anything. all he ever says is we're just friends. and we havent done anything. but everytime you see his number on your phone your heart lights up. everytime you see him you just want to hold him tight. sometimes he holds you as well. and he lies to his gf that he's with someone else when in fact he's with you.
but in the end he always goes back to her. his gf. whom he always tells you that he's already broken up with. could you live with it? knowing after he leaves you he goes back to her. and he's holding her. kissing her. carassing her. sometimes he does it even in front of you. maybe you would feel better because he lies to her but not to you. would that mean anything? or is he really protecting her? or maybe just himself. or is it just a sign that you actually really mean nothing to him? which is it??
or would you rather be his gf. the one he's been with for quite a while now. but whom he always lies to and is never really sure about. 1 minute he tells you he loves you 1 minute he tells you to leave. he strays and looks for other girls when ever you guys have a fight but in the end you know he always comes back. but could you live with that? could you hold him knowing a few hours ago he was holding someone else? why does he come back? is it because he really does love you? but if he did why does he hurt you so?
who would you rather be? in fact. who would i rather be as well? sighh.. just some random ponderings
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~so the cycle restarts itself. we went out to sit on some swings overlooking kl last night. lol. he spent the night. and we went to watch eragon today which IS NOT BAD LOR SAM. SUMMOH THE DRAGON SO DAMN FRIGGIN CUTE.. OH OH OH and i finally bought a new speaker!! HAUHAUHA.. IN THE SHAPE OF A PIG SUMMOH!.. ladidadida
aih...
don't even know what im blogging about. very restless right now @_@
Thursday, December 28, 2006
to top that off... we fought and said its better if we just stop seeing each other again.. this would be the 397429837427458273583840 time.........
things really never do change... not even after 2 and a half years......
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
he said he'll teman me 3 days 2 nights .. let's see if he keeps his word....
cis... well.. my trip to melbourne wasn't particularly fun.. quite stressful in fact u_U.. and i gained back all the weight i lost.. cibai.. now my appetite is bigger den before.. what crap.. BUT BUT BUT.. THEY GOT SO MANY PRETTY DRESSES *dies* and i onmli got 2 T_T.. out of the 3872846274687236572645874 pretty dresses there!! WHY! BECAUSE I GOT NO MONEY THATS Y!! sungguh menyedihkan...
nothing much to blog abt melbourne @_@.. besides its retarded weather.. AND AND AND.. PEOPLE>. when people say go to the great ocean road to see the 12 apocalyse or whatever they are called thingies.. DONT DO IT!! FUCKING STUPID!!! .. I SWEAR IT COUNTS AS 1 OF THE STUPIDEST THINGS I'VE EVER FRIGGIN DONE IN MY LIFE >=( .. cibai rocks in the sea... waste time to the max...
nope.. no pics of the land of retarded weather. all in my sis cam.. havent got them yet U_U.. the sister is coming back next week.. hmmmmm.. and school is fucking starting.. this is so damn depressing.. i am so not looking forward to it T_T...
but i had fun yesterday!! hehehehe.. spent the day at ians and then off to dinner with muh bitches at rakuzen.. HOHOOHOH.. WE GOT FREE DESERT.. HOOHOHOHOHO.. after that tiffin bay.. and home... =3 a lot of funny conversations took place... hahaha.. 1 of them including reptiles and anal sex.. LIKE SO WTF RIGHT?!!?! hahaha.. and fishes that have dicks.. and lots lots more ;p but im a lazy arse and i cant b bothered.. so i shall just post pics of my LATE christmas dinner ;p
these are only a few of them.. lazy to post all.. and warning.. picture post @_@.. wah..my blog nowadays banyak pictures right... pics in no particular order..
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JENG JENG JENG
damn potong steam la chee weng "=_=
i dont know.. HUHUHUHU
HAHAHHAA.. OUR FREE DESERT.. HAHAHHAHAHAHA
This is what happens to sam when u feed her sparkling wine... continues by sex on the beach.. followed on by kahlua .____.
Meet Sam. She has big boobs. Go away. She's mine.
uh.. i wanted to take pic and he wanted to eat.. hence.. this happened
SO THE CUTE HOR..
HAHAHA.. LIHATLAH WONDERFUL WONG.. DIA MEMANG WODNERFUL WONT.. MENTOL LAMPU!
my fav toufu in a jap restaurant =D agedashi toufu!
salmon fishhead.. WAH. FUCKING NICE I TELL U.. if u ignore its hideousness.. BUT LIKE WAH.. SO NICE.. i think this was like the best dish..
sparkling fruit wine in sake cups ;p hehehehe.. not bad not badtoday.. me and my troops walked TO TAYNTON because the MONKEY PIG refused to wake up.. WE WALKED IN HEELS... well.. xcept CHAN CHEE WENG.. hmph. who wore comfy slippers... took an hour and a half before the pig finally got off his bum and got ready.. and off we went for chicken rice.. WAH I TELL U ALL.. DONT EVER GOT SEGAR EIDI.. NOW I ONLY NOE SEGAR CHICKEN RICE SO EXPENSIVE.. CONNOUGHT CHICKEN RICE THE BEST!!
after that me and ze pig was suppose to go for movie marathon ... but something came up U_U .. so me and the other 3 just slumber in my room... sighy... kuantan morrow with muh baby =D cant wait cant wait.. IF EVERYTHING goes as planned ler =/ hmmmmmmm... i very geram jor... stupid msn cannot connect.. HAIHZ...
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
I just found someone who copied my welcome entry and I'm like farking tulan now buden really I should be flattered because she chose to copy my post.
Buden. Buden. Buden.
IF IT HAPPENS TO YOU YOU WILL TULAN ALSO WAN RIGHT!!!!!
Dushhhhhhhhhh
fyi, Gin's coming back on Christmas day. Arriving at night if I'm not mistaken.
6 days to Christmas yay
I lost the paper she gave me!!!!!
I sincerely wanted to blog about her .. car ride buden I lost it! Die die die die die.
Btw, I'm Hui Yat, her alcoholic monkey =D
Eh Sam .. you remember what she said mou .. *dies*
Oh but I remember the part she stressed about on that piece of paper.
She was in the car backseat with 3 more people. So in total, 4 at the backseat which is illegal actually.
And then JENGJENGJENG
There was a roadblock.
So and then .. guess what.
They shoved someone into the car boot.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Am guest blogging for her. Will post more when I finish deciphering what she has written on that piece of paper she gave me @_@
Saturday, December 16, 2006
LIKE I WAS CHATTING WITH SAM N CW
AND I SPAMMED THE MSN WINDOWS LIKE SO
OMG OMG OMG
OMG OMG OMG
OMG OMG OMG
OMG OMG OMG
OMMMGG OMMMGGG OMMMGGGG
I AM STILL IN STATE OF SHOCK.. SURPRISED,..
AND HELL EXCITED @_@
WHY!!
CONGRATULATIONS STEPHANIE CHIN!!! WAHHH
OMG OMG OMG OMG
FEB 26 2006.. OMG OMG OMG OMG
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
I CANT BELIEVE THIS... SO SUDDEN.. SO SHOCKING...
SO.. OMG OMG OMG OMG
(2.36am edit. my OMG-ness has ended. i seem to have made a mistake. it's not 2006.. its 2008 U_U... )
Friday, December 15, 2006
THE VAGINA SONG!!
and its damnn cute i tell u!!!
hahaha.. seriously not joking...i uploaded it just so you guys could dl it ;p click HERE
WHY THE HELL IS HE HOME TODAY.... DAHLAH MY STRESS LEVEL MACAM 1 KIND EIDI AND THEN HE COMES HOME.. WHAT THE HELL.... HALLO? YOU're LIKE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE IN THIS HOUSEHOLD ON THURSDAYS... MAY I KNOW WHY YOU ARE HERE TO FURTHUR TORMENT ME....
and then because of that i cannot go out... 2 invites to go maisons also cannot go.. ok la.. nvm la.. since everybody knows how much of a *fan* of maisons i am... BUT BUT BUT... >=( .... wanna go mamak yum cha also cannot now.... cibai... dahlah i have to go aus out of force now i wanan go out also cannot... WHAT THE HELL.. DAMN CIBAI OKAY........
IF THAT WASNT BAD ENOUGH... ian wants to stay over... >=( CIS...
WHYYY LAAAAAAA.. WHYYY LAAAAAAAAAA ARE YOU FRIGGIN HOME TODAY..... MAH CHOW HAI....... LEAVE ME ALONE CAN?
Thursday, December 14, 2006
| Your Five Variable Love Profile |
 Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is high. It's your way or the highway when it comes to love. You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life. No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together. |
| You Are Strawberry Pocky |
 Your attitude: fresh and sweet Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper You always see both sides to everything |
| Your Love Number is 4 |
 You are a creative and expressive lover - a true romantic at heart. An introspective soul, you know exactly how your ideal relationship should be. But if you don't get that ideal, you tend to get a bit pouty and dramatic. You need someone who can roll with the punches, that's for sure! |
i always wondered why the number 4 was my fav no @_@
| Your Birthdate: February 18 |
 For you, love is a feeling that lingers for really long time - even after a relationship is totally over. In fact, you still make have strong feelings for the first person you fell in love with. You usually are reluctant to end relationships. And sometimes you're the last to know that things are ending! Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 9th, 18th, and 27th of the month. |
@_@....hm
the fact that there's an event and u invite a person and NOT invite their significant other and expect him/her not to go either..
and don't say aihya.. he/she is his bf/gf wad.. he/she can invite him/her if he/she wants to ma.. why must i invite.. THE POINT IS YOU STILL SHOULD MAR.. IF U WANT TO INVITE 1 AT LEAST HAVE THE DAMN COURTESY TO INVITE THE OTHER LA
whether u want that person to go or not the thing is that person is your friend's significant other and you as a friend SHOULD RESPECT THAT and make a point to invite both of them to avoid further misunderstandings or come out with shit like.. i also didn't invite her/him/you .. why he/she/you come for what. i invited him/her onli ma. not you him/her/you also.
ANYWYA I NOTICE I HAVE A LOT OF him/her/you/he/she thing going on but it's cuz this is a general statement of some sort and so it applies to both sides of the party. pfft.
and yes. i am pretty annoyed right now.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
it all started like this ... ian stayed and the 2 rascals sleep with me.. so miko kept trying to sleep next to him but ian kept pushing her away until she gave up and went to the corner where she usually sleeps..
in the morning i woke up thirsty and reached put for my water.. but.. u_u no water.. sighy.. so what to do..have to go down and get a new bottle...
when i came back up... i found miko in this position!! *below* i know la a bit dark but i like arh.. can annot..
SHE TOOK OVER MY SPACE.. like REALLY SMACK IN MY SPACE.. and when i tried to move her. she growled at me and nearly bit me!! @_@ WHERE GOT DOG LIKE THAT WAN U TELL ME. memang celaka.. "=_=
so i got back my space by annoying her.. whahaha.. i hugged her and wrapped the blanket on top of her until she got too hot and annoyed that she moved away.. lalllaa.. but not very far "=_= just to the top of both our heads.. so her paws were like poking my face and her tail was on his head.. U_U i have weird dogs...
hmmm.. stop staring at my specs!!>=( he was wearing them too but hes too vain "=_=
<3
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
there are about 85-95 hearts there.. im not sure.. i keep losing track.. and behind each heart it says i *heart* u ian... like the post it notes he wrote for me a month+ ago .. =)...
lol if u cant see n ure 8..just ask me for the pic la.. ish
Monday, December 11, 2006
the day has barely started and all plans have already crashed... *blinks*
Sunday, December 10, 2006
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how does a person genuinely laugh and smile with someone he/she really hates.. is that really possible or is he/she just insisting that he/she hates that person when he/she doesnt but just doesnt want to admit it *o* and is constantly triggered by the outside influence of people.. *ponders*
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ahhhh..so many many strange things to ponder about lately.....
who's telling the truth.. who's not..
who's really being themselves.. who isn't..
who really knows who inside out.. who doesn't..
who's really a friend.. who's not...
who has been with one long enough to really know the real him/her.. who doesnt...
ahhh...so many many questions =)
Saturday, December 09, 2006
but i trusted someone 1 really hated to find out.. she really is a real bitch.. and hey.. i never said i wasnt 1 either because it takes a bitch to tell a bitch shes a bitch
remember the bitch i was talking about in my previous post.. well.. ian asked her to send me and sms to tell me not to worry and yahde yahde yahde yahde.. and YES.. I BELIEVED HER... and i even said sorry for what happened previously and THANK YOU for sending me this sms to make me believe her...
TURNS out.. it was all just a ploy.. and she's bulldozing her way EVEN DEEPER into becoming the 3rd party of us.. and the funny thing is.. if my sources are right... this isn't even the 1st time she's bulldozed her way into becoming the 2nd girl of a guy while he's attached... =)
so fuck you bitch...
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anyway why was i happy that day =) well.. it was ians dad's wedding.. and after all the food and stuff ian held my hand and brought me around the tables to introduce me =D heeeee.. already like that very happy eidi.. cuz like since our fight like 2 weeks ago he hasnt held my hand except to sleep...
dahlah like that... he then brought me downstairs *the grooms side was all upstairs and the bride's side downstairs and the bride had a WHOLE LOT more tables than the groom* SO THERE WAS A WHOLE LOT MORE PEOPLE DOWNSTAIRS... and he brought me to the front of the front meaning the stage there and where the biggest table is and introduced me around again AND HUGGED ME.. LIKE IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY! ian has issues with public displays of affection in front of famiy members but its like THE WHOLE FAMILY OF THE BRIDE were like looking at us and he hugged me.. really really hugged hugged me.. wah.. that time so happy can die..
and then and then later loons n bryan wanna leave eidi..so they came down.. then i wanan bercamwhore with them wan.. but den loons blur a bit so he said to ian.. EH.. your gf wants to take pic la.. hahaha.. den i dunno la..either loons blur or ian blur la.. cuz ian tiba tiba grab hold of me and demand the photographers take our pic =D not just hold me you know! its like those really grab and hug tight those type of hold.. wah.. happy giler..
but i wasnt that happy cuz he dun lemme go maisons T_T saying very dangerous cuz my dad and stuff.. but he gave me a goodbye hug and kiss.. IN FRONT OF MY MUM WHICH IS LIKE OMG 1ST TIME...
oh yaaaaaaaa!! he even nuzzled my neck at the dinner table earlier on.. hiaks hiaks.. eventhough all his family members were watching.. so i damn happy la.. ^-^
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anyway my head still hurts like fuck.. so i dun think its normal anymore.. going for a brain scan on monday.. hmmm... and then cuddle at home to watch dvds with ian den off to sunway for tony romas =D ..if...there is no change of plans
Thursday, December 07, 2006
i wonder if it has anything to do with hitting my head on the piano on sunday
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
and hey.. i never said i wasnt.. u can brand me any name u want and i would be fine with it because different people have different opinions and nobody really knows the truth
well.. at least nobody but the both of us.. and dont even expect the truth from him because even 1 of his very close relative called me and said ian just wants face only lar..
and to the others who asked... why do i continue staying in a relationship where i am constantly physically abused... really i dont know why either.. maybe it's love maybe it's not..
yes.. he has hurt me very badly and the worst 1 being on sunday because of that bitch... my head still has that lump from sunday and yes it still hurts... yes.. hes thrown my stuff and broke them and then pretended that he had never even touched them b4...
yes he's even lost his temper and threw noodles all over my living room and praying alter.. which is quit funny if u think abt it.. and yes he did throw and break my parents crystals as well.. but thou he hurts me most.. he makes me happiest as well..
and ive explained this over and over again.... so why keep asking me the same things over and over again as well.. sigh.. im getting tired of explanations..
to everyone else.. go ahead and judge before you even know half the truth. it's just basic human nature and im fine with it. really. but seriously..how much do u really know.. and how much do u really understand.. i dont think any of you will even be able to survive standing in my shoes.
and is now falling into depression...
so who knows when ill blog again
Monday, December 04, 2006
what ian says. what makes u think it's the truth? ian is a guy. he will always leave out parts of the truth just to keep face. insttead of judging things from 1 perspective. why not try digging the real truth out?
yeah. we did break up. in face we broke up for well over 5 months. but we got back together on the 21st of october. mid november. the 17th to be exact we got into a fight and were once again suppose to break up. and i clearly told him. i will return my pair of house keys and go his hse and take all my stuff. but ian never came to take the keys. he would always say tomorrow. tomorrow. he even refused to give my back some stuff like a particular cd from a friend that he is EXTREMELY JEALOUS OFF. don't even ask me why. because i neither talk to him on the phone or sms him often. i've seen him 3-4 times my entire life and 1 time was just by coincidence
so in a sense we never actually officially broke up. 1 day we did get into a fight. he wanted to get out of his hse. but he couldnt find his own keys. which was the real reason he took my keys. i didn't give it to him. and neither did he ask for them. he just snatched them out of anger. but the key is now back with me if you're all wondering.
anyway after the fight on the 17th. i stopped calling him for a week. i didnt even message him. and instead he started to call me.
he would call me once in the morning. once in the afternoon. and 1 more time around 4-5 am every day without fail. and as all of you know me. as usual. in the end also i give in. just like the past 2 yrs. OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
and no. this isn't the 1st time ian has come to my house to tell my parents something. it has happened before. and no. this isn't the 1st time ian has been telling ppl that i force him to be with me because it is in fact the 3rd or 4th time. the cycle is just repeating itself.
so after 1 week. it would quite generally be about 2 weeks ago things started getting rocky for us. his problems with his whole bookie business thing got worst. and then he asked me to leave him and stop loving him. i asked him why. his reason was because he didn't want to get me involved and that he didn't deserve my love.
but i am who i am. and so i decided to stay. how many of you have known ian. everytime something happens. ian never solves it. he always runs away from it. if any of you know him well enough. from there on. our fights got worst. and HIS situation with the money got worst as well making additional stress.
so what does he choose to do. the typical ian. tell me he hates me. tell me we never got back together. tell me he never asked to get back togeher and that he never loved me. like the usual.the entire of last week. we were together every night. on monday he got EXTREMELY DRUNK and stayed in my house. where he started telling me things that made me want to hold on even more.
tuesday we were on the cruise. and wednesday i stayed over again. we fought that day. he didnt want me to stay over saying he had no feelings for me and we were over. but i stayed anyway. we went out with some friends. and he got drunk AGAIN. i was watching tv when he suddenly starts his whole i love you and im sorry routine again. this was why my blog constantly asked whether to believe a drunk person or a sober person. on thursday night we were together again. this time at another friends house
this were a bunch of people we never met before. and when they asked if i was his gf. he didn't deny it. he sat next to me. i cooked for him. i fed him. he drank and u know the whole ask your gf drink also la situation. yea. that happened. in the end he was sober. he wasn't that drunk. i ask him to stay over. and he said no. but in the end he came in. he said only for a while. but he ended up staying over entirely. that night again we talked on the bed about our situation. and it was still the same thing.
he asked me to leave him because he didn't want me to get hurt and involved in his problems and that i didn't deserve this kind of relationship and i needed something better. but at the same time he still wanted me to hug him to sleep and hold him.
so don't judge before u even know what happened. there's more but i just don't feel like telling about it in my blog atm.
"fuck off bitch"
"ei? why suddenly so rude er?"
"because im his gf. that's why"
fast forward
"none of ure business"
"why is it none of my business? he is my bf for 2 and a half yrs"
"and the worst part is. he is willing to do it"
"do what le? =) fuck u? =)"
which she den doesn't reply. but hallow... he is willing to do it... quite obvious right that ure saying u gave yourself to him and he fucked you eventhough he was with me.. *big eyes*
u played around not enough ah bitch. ir is it your hobby to mess around with other people's life?
and no. im not embarassed nor anything because i was never on good terms with my father anyway. im not the 1st person in the family he's hit. my father is abusive just like ian =D so it wasn't a big deal for me
but i hope you guys had fun ^_^
because it will just get more fun now.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
valentines 05 (cyberview lodge cyberjaya)
spaghetti making sessions
dvd's on the floor
10th may 05
quando quando quando
like a star
bubble baths
walking under the stars
right here waiting
valentine
pink bedsheets
lavander oil
slow long kisses
warm silent hugs
dancing in barfly
tiffin bay
shishas
the show about richie ren and candy lo on the beach 1
bali 06
little black "dress" and ears
pink lacy bras and bunny ears
pink bikini
strawberry daiquiries
long comfortable silence
cuddles
black CK thongs
a dozen roses
post it notes
rose petals
that pink drink from station 1
making out in the car
honey green tea
unagi in KLGCC
chiko
pigs
monkeys
near death on ride in a famosa water park
camwhore sessions
pigging out sessions
strawberries and chocolate fondue
strawberry popsicles
starbucks leisure mall
hot chocolate
french fries and onion rings
spicy tomato sauce
27th October 06
air conditionless car rides
kissing in the corridors
white tops
matching outfits
kisses on the neck
lame jokes
chocolate brownies
chicken rice
long afternoon naps
neoprints
jogging in bukit segar
tennis in KLGCC
gucci envy me
estee lauder beyond paradise men
mooncakes
and so much more...
i feel like doing something stupid.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
like what the hell? Genting he don't go also you cannot go? what logic is that.. so many other people going.. OR GAWD FORBID... could it be.. my boy is YOUR ONLY FRIEND?
PLEASE NOTE. YOU ARE SINGLE. HE IS NOT. SO DEAL WITH IT. OR GET YOURSELF A GF OR EVEN A BF IF THATS YOUR PREFFERENCE.. ONE THAT IS NOT ALREADY ATTACHED..
mahai.. both of us sleeping also you can magically appear outside the house like it's your gf/bf's house like that... the sister also stoning why you are there.. don't talk abt the sister.. he himself also.. HUH? why he coming here for wad.... say go out and talk to whatever *illegal* thing u guys r doing but kononnya always never cuz why.. aihya.. who also know why la.. sure cannot get the money wan still want to say you already settled it and it's a small problem.. *rolls eyes*
i dont think i ever got so annoyed at any of ians friends before.. MALE friends...
but he is pushing me over the edge and irritating the fuck out of me. GO YOUR AUSTRALIA LA.. from sarawak become australia but what! news is not going already! WHY AH! go faster la! or u very mmm seh tak ian? @_@ tsk tsk tsk tsk
dah lah like that.. im in his hse also u can appear shock and ask him why am i there.. DAHLAH IM THERE ALREADY.. im still there and then ask him summoh WHY IS SHE STILL THERE. WHY NOT YET GO HOME WAN. ya. i can hear you through the phone. your voice very loud okay. if not i hear wan it's ian who tells me anyway. I CANNOT BE AT MY BF's HSE WAN MEH? it's technically my 2nd home wad. i got clothes there. got my own set of keys. know where everything is placed.. so why is it so shocking that im there and not yet go back hah? why? jealous meh?
LAGI BEST 1 situation. people go out as couple.. 2 couples in fact. but you want to make it 2+2+1 ... haihhh.. macam lah like that not bad enough.. SEEN BY PEOPLE WE KNOW SUMMOH.. lagi better still.. let ppl ask why u jadi tiang.. memang tak tau malu wan... AIH.. summoh not invite wan.. just tell you going where cuz u asked and then sendiri kata wanna ikut
wah! another thing!! ian's dad don't like his friends to go upstairs wan lor.. people go upstairs change also.. u sendiri go upstairs.. memang aisheh... i come in only see you walking down the stairs.. .______. i ask ian eh.. how come ju koon upstairs wan. your dad not don't like wan meh.. you called wan ah.. ian answer no lor! i went upstairs to change he ownself come up wan lor.. i also dunno why
haihhzz haiihhhzz haiihhhzzz....talk about u also i headache.. aihhhhh....
in the star deck.. OK LA.. I CAN SEE ITS AFTER NOON AND GOT NO STAR LA. GO AWAY CAN...
waiting for our ordered food. whahahaha.. come here to get fat..
father and son "=_= ... haihz.. kaki judi berumur 12.. aku menyesal intro mereka. AND STOP STARING AT MY NON EXISTANT BOOBS WITH MY FLABBY STOMACH LA OK.. ITS THE ANGLE
the deck right..at night right.. farking romantic sial..got all the xmas light.. i saw i ws like.. wahhh! if go romantic songs playing den couples slow dancing super yeng..and so e suggested that for x-mas. but im not here T_T
sad people like us play bingo.
see ians face.. super got feel @_@
Sam's angle very the weird @_@
DOESNT THE SEA LOOK DAMN CHUN
Beer in wine glasses.. hahaa..
i know very wai la my face... but see ian la ;p ..
i like to give love bites
this is like friggin addictive.. damn slots.. lucky we play no need money. whahahahha
the obligatory camwhore
our souls are leaving us.. U_U
the fatty. the stick. and the stuck in between.
i hate smoking but i like this pic @_@.. so sue me
pengacau no 1.
Ian's fav pic.. but im not sure why @_@>. could anyone enlighten me.. he said very nice @_@
Jie Jie Gin n Mei Mei Sam
The pool
Very blue Us
Our ROOM! suppose to be VIP *pouts* but too many people so we got degraded.. sighy.. oh well ;p better than those itty bitty pull down board excuse as a bed rooms.. whahahaa..
the buffet~
looK! flat screen tv! cool no? they have porn channel also @_@
and finally... our *illegal* ship who will soon be our new hangout place.. hohohooh