Life's Bittersweet Simplicities.

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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p

Oh and if my layout is wonky on your browser its probabaly because your browsers old "=_= go update it.

..The Princess..

I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will eventually see or hope to see.

I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo girl" for short.

But who am i really?

That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.

What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.

Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably be existant.

..She Supports..

..Talk..

..Credits..

I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask).

The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?

Born 18th Feb 1990 though it looks like I was only alive since 2005 considering my innate obsession for all things cute and furry with the addition of my rather child like mentality equivalent to that of a 5 year old.

I'm sugar, spice and everything nice. Or so this is what I would like to think. POWERPUFF GIRLS ROCKS MY SOCKS!

Ginny is also short thus therefore becoming one of the main source of entertainment for those towering above her. Measuring at A MAXIUMUM of 160 cm, (note: maximum, therefore I'm actually really shorter than that.) she is very often rejected for jobs that require a minimum height requirement. Oh woe is me. LOOK, even her dog is taller than her U_U

With a shoe size of only 4 and when she's lucky 5, she doesn't really balance very well. Hur hur hur.

Loves food which would be the main contribution of my ever expanding waistline yet loves animals just as much. This therefore equates to a SAD Ginny trying very hard to cut down on food and attempt to slowly turn vegan. *pats self on back* Thank gawd for ice cream (NO MEAT!!).

Ginny is also highly obsessive compulsive and is rather anal about her food being mixed together. I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT STAND IT when my dishes are touching each other and mixing =(. I'm quite the oxymoron considering that I cannot stand a dirty and messy room yet I live in one. Ah, how oh so typical of me.

Also adores all things frilly and sexy, Ginny has a rather unhealthy obsession for bikinis, lingerie and costumes (ie. Nurse, French maid, sexy pirate). SO WE ALL KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR PRESENTS YA. However her bra size shall not be disclosed here and if you do intend to get her lingerie do get someone to check on her size first =p

Not into fashion as a whole but loves clothes just as much as any ordinary girl out there. Almost never wear skirts but I just can't seem to stop buying them @_@ I do however love dresses and will almost always be seen in them if my legs have been waxed (which is pretty rare) I have more dresses than bottoms *O* and a majority of them cannot be worn on normal days. Pfft.

This perpetually retarded princess is also inked with a fairy on the right side of her back. It's a naked emotional fairy if you can't already tell. WHAT? It's very me what!! Yah, I love fairies and all things magical. CANNOT AH NOW? Got her tattoo in 2007 at a friend's shop in Sunway called INKED. I REALLY REALLY WANT MORE if anybody would like to sponser me =3 ladidadida.

Ginny also realises that this description page is getting way too lengthy but while selecting pictures she accidentally picked too many and insist that she uses it all, so do bear with her please. How la can you say no to that innocent face of hers. HOHOHOHOHO.

Also goes by the name Cheekypixie and Babygin, this multi personality abomination of a female can be the most annoying bimbo you will ever meet yet at certain points in her life becomes the nerdiest geekiest creature alive. (though not necessarily smart) Ignoring the dumb, daft me, I LOVE LOVE LOVE BOOKS (another hint on what to give me lar hor) especially complicated twisted ones.

Also loves music and extremely into theather. Not that I can play any intrument but lets forget the loser side of me yea. Listens to almost anything but isn't that big a fan of heavy metal. More into mellow quiter songs and the occasional fast paced ones. If I were to tell you my favourite songs you would probably be reading for the next 5 hours.

Loves electronical games and is an avid Final Fantasy fan. Plays almost any kind of games except 3rd person shooter games and sports (extreme sports don't count) but her favourite being puzzles and RPGs. I love Earthworm Jim. DO YOU REMEMBER EARTHWORM JIM?? Is also still upset that she hasn't bought a Wii and an XBOX yet but she loves her PS3 (WHICH SHE WON YA) and her now semi abandoned PSP and the "stolen" Nintendo DS.

Okay, I am now officially tired of typing and self desciptions arent really my thing anyway. So if you need to contact me, e-mail me at sweetsimplicities[at]gmail.com.

Oh btw, did I mention?

IM AWESOME. Nuff said.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

great "=_= i realised my link is in the list of bloggers.. WHY IS THIS SO "=_= ... cruds...

now i have to change blog add's again

HAIH.. but not now.. very emo n lazy now

-BabyGinz-

Friday, September 29, 2006

oh. i found something new. seeing as i need a new cam n u know u all love me. no cam also. got ipod i sell and buy new cam also i happy..

click HERE

create an account and vote as many times as you can!! NO LIMIT OKAY!!

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 28, 2006

im so lost.

so hurt.

you mean the world to me.

and i mean nothing to you.

-BabyGinz-

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Stay at my blog a while. And wait for the song to load aights? it's currently one of my favourites.. u_u ... it might take a while to load seeing as the file is pretty big... oh.. and what do you think of this song? not many people i know listen to indie u_u

because...

here are the lyrics..T_T ..if it doesnt load.. click HERE

April March-Nothing New (English Remix)

it's really nothing new
as far as stories go
you're like pinoccio
wondering what i am doing here

you have an expertise
that's like a real disease
such a strong disease
that I just weaken in the knees
you're heart is so untrue
but i love only you
it's really nothing new

it's really nothing new
you're neither here nor there
you're like swampy air
will you stay or will you go?
i wish i didn't care

you're heart is so untrue
but i love only you
it's really nothing new
it's really nothing new

all the little things i do
they're all lost on you
i'm all alone it's true
it's really nothing new i

t's really nothing new
they said our game should stop
i should let you drop
and watch you just disappear

all the lies in my heart
they all want you
it's really nothing new
it's really nothing new

-BabyGinz-

well.

today the doctors in Sunway Hospital has officially stated that..

....i am...

seriously mentally unstabil right now..

and that i may be suicidal..

yay.

i now have weekly sessions with a phychiatrist =D

i wonder how much help will it do..

seeing as the problem will still be here.

sigh.

how did we ever reach this point.

-BabyGinz-

somethings weird.

i know something's happened.

i was trying to sleep but couldnt fall asleep and finally i did. but i woke up with a start about 15 mins ago. and just as i woke up. chippy started barking.

now i feel weird. like somethings missing or something's happened. or just something.

.....wth? .....

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

when i was younger. i always heard stories of abusive relationships. i've even seen it within my own family. and it made me wonder. how did the abused one take all of it. why didn't he/she just leave? why are they so stupid to let themselves get beat up the way there were...

and then i found myself in one. i was slapped. hit. punched. kicked. had my head banged on the wall. had a belt tied around my neck until i turned blue and couldn't breath. strangled. pushed against walls and cupboards and even mirrors.

it lasted a few months. but i stuck through it thinking that maybe he would change. how long would that girl have a hold over him. yes. he abused me. over a girl. yes. that girl. the 1 he tried to kiss on aaron's birthday in atmosphere. yeah. that 1.

i couldnt take it. so we broke up. and he admitted. he did those things to me. because he hated me because she layan him so much that he fell for her. but then later on. when i tried to move on i nearly succeeded too. but. he wouldn't let me. he took the guy i liked away from me. he did things to try and mend it between us.

and he told me. he wanted me more than anything in this world and that THAT GIRL no longer meant a thing to him and he would do anything to get me back. he did things. he even told her during someone's farewell that he wasnt suppose to talk to her. and she threw a bitch fit.

or so says he and his good pal. how far this thing is true. i really don't know. but i believed and i fell. i fell again. i couldn't get out of it. i was so addicted to him. we were suppose to get back together. but something happened. and we changed out minds. but yet. we acted like we were together. every single day.

yesterday we had a talk.i asked him if he loved me. and if he really wanted me to stay with him. he said yes. den i said. are you willing to sacrifice things for me. or are u more willing to sacrifice me for the things you are doing now. he didn't know. so we decided. that we would give him a week to think. and on the 1st of October. he would tell me his decision.

we weren't suppose to speak or see each other during this period. but we couldn't resist. and we ended up going to dinner today. he lied to me. we fought. things happened. and for the first time in over 6 months. he hit me. again.

possibly 1 of the worst times he has ever abused me. because this time. he tried to push me out of the car. head 1st. and i would have fallen. if i hadn't been holding onto the car door. and now. i wished i hadn't held on.

this wasn't enough for him. it continued with more slapping and hitting. and the last 1 being him trying to strangle me. why did he do this? what was the reason you wonder.

well. it was this.

money.

greed.

and his addiction to fusball dota and pool.

and why do i still love him? this question. it makes me wonder even more. i know he never loved me. i know he just loved the love i gave him. so why? why am i so stupid? to go through this for so long. for over 2 years i've been in this.

the funnier question still. i'm not even his gf. so how do u end up in an abusive relationship with an ex? hahahaha.. funny isnt it. i wonder if i had been his gf at that time. would i be dead now? that would have been a lot better wouldn't it?

no. im not suicidal. but i really did wish i could die.

the ironies of life.

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 25, 2006

i hope i die of your abuse.

really.

i do.

i hope all the times you've hit me. including today.has actually caused some things to malfunction in my body.

my head hurts a lot now. i wonder if it had anything to do with you banging my head against the car door just now??

i hope it does.

maybe i'll land in the hospital and die there.

isn't that what you've always wished for?

maybe that's why you won't let me go.

because like she says.

you want me to die in your hands.

and so.

i really hope i do.

=') ... but no matter.

i still love you.

so it's pretty cool if i die in the hands of the 1 i love most.

it's so dramatic i know.

i can't die so easily.

its just banging my head against things.

that won't kill me.

but.

i can't help wishing it will...

can i?

i really hope it does.

after all.

love kills.

doesn't it?

-BabyGinz-

hmmm..seeing as i havent uploaded a pic in a while ;p so here's a bunch of them.. kekeke..stolen from sam who so kindly did this ;p hohohoho so i didnt have to do it myself =D i know it's a little small here because my layout also small u_u .. so.. if u want to see the full pic.. you can either visit my yafro, my public blog.. or click here =D toodles

-BabyGinz-

Ginny+Mondays= Disasters

T_T... wth man.. like every monday also something bad happens to me... today i was on my way to school and as usual i was lying down in the backseat sleeping when my mother suddenly breaks and i FALL down and HIT MY HEAD AND MY SPINE.. T_T.. its been 2-3 hours and my head still hurts T_T .. i actually cried when this happened.. LIKE HOW RARE IS THAT

not very long ago i was messing around with verlyn and i sat on her..and she jumped around till i fell off and I FELL FACE DOWN on the front spraled with my legs and hands like the vertruvian man "=_= .. and i didnt even cry... i just laughed at the stupidity of the whole situation.. well..i wanted to cry..there were tears but i was laughing more.. and usually when i fall i laugh...

SO U CAN IMAGINE THE IMPACT OF THIS THAT IT WOULD MAKE ME CRY continuously for like 15 minutes before i stopped!!! now my neck aches and random parts of my body will suddenly have sharp pains "=_= zzzzzz

and i just got a new maid yesterday.. and already today my parents made her cry "=_= my goodness.. she hasn't even been here for 24 hours yet @_@..i wonder how long will she last u_u

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, September 24, 2006

urgh.. i should stop watching emo shows and cartoons!! 2day i think ive fallen in love with the anime honey and clover on animax.. AND YOU KNOW WHAT...!!

NOW IM ALL EMO AGAIN.. aGRHARHAHRGhagrhAGRHgrAHRaHRAH

ginny misses having a bf T_T....wuuwuuw

*points at u*

DO U WANT TO BE MY BF OR GF?

*runs off giggling*

-BabyGinz-

right..before i forget.. I MAY HAVE JUST FOUND MY FAVOURITE MOVIE OF THE YEAR!!

....

*drum rolls please*

THE BANQUET!!

reallllyy wannnnn!! damnnn chun okayyyyyy!! watch watch..some parts dahlah a bit corny true..but still..ITS DAMN COOL OKAY..and wahh!! aihya! u see la.. <3

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, September 23, 2006

whhee!! lantern festival in ssg..nothing special.. BUT GINNY IS HAPPY.. many praises for brownies.. wahhahaa.. ok ..yahde yahde..blah blahhh

so chee weng came over..and we camwhored ..me..sam n chee weng.. WITH..... EARS!! HUAHUHAUHAUA..u know how i love my ears and how nobody ever wants to play with me..especially guys! AND FINALLY! he even wore my bunny ears!! had fun!

and there's this gathering of old friends between a bunch of us.. but it's in the making atm.. lol.. cant wait cant wait! CAMWHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHA...

ok..ginny's a bit high right now..she should stop.. ciaoz ;p

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 21, 2006

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!

I THINK IM GOING TO GET A HEART ATTACk..

I CANT FIND MY MINI BOOK OF SELF REVISED RECIPES!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGG.. after all those testings and fidling with my favourite recipes..i finally get what i want in proportion and WROTE IT DOWN.. AND NOW...

IT HAS GONE MISSING?!??!

THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN TO MY HOUSE LATELY.. HAVE ANY OF U SEEN A LITTLE BOOK COVERED IN COWS WITH MILK BOTTLES!!

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

"=_=

mother.. damn stupid sial this girl.. i never said i didn't like her i never said she playing with her boy...i said i wasnt FOND that they were together...

a lot of people know this because there are certain things that were in the past a lot of them don't know about AND they don't need to know about either because it's another person's confidentiality.

PLEASE GET YOUR DAMN FACTS STRAIGHT MAN before going around wanting to throw physics books in moi *the bitches* face okay. "=_=

but u're welcomed to if u really want to =^-^= i've got physics books too ;p

i really wonder what you heard lor... PLEASE LAR.. ASK YOUR BOY LAR.. WHAT EXACTLY DID I SAY. but then.. maybe it might hurt you more. so better not hor. but at least 1 thing is for a fact. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU. ITS RELATED TO YOU. BUT ITS NOT ABOUT YOU.

or perhaps people tell you other things to protect themselves so they can put the blame on others. AS FAR AS THE WHOLE WORLD KNOWS. if i have something to say. i"ll say it. SO WHEN EXACTLY DID THE WORDS. *** *** *** I DONT LIKE THAT YOU"RE WITH ****** BECAUSE YOU ARE JUST PLAYING HIM.

if got hor. i STAND THERE AND LET YOU SLAP ME ALL YOU WANT MAN.

-BabyGinz-

=) today wasn't that bad a day.. im getting less close to the group of 4sc1.. but from this i gained something else =) and i think its pretty worth it.. hehe

today i talked to friends whom i havent talked to in years.. and it felt pretty good knowing that i still meant something to them.. take girl A.. i havent talked to her since we were 10!! lol.. a long time i know.. but i was in the 1st class and she said the people in 1st class are just UNAPPROACHABLE...but we got along just fine today.. even if it was just for that half an hour.. but it's rare to see old friends talking again after losing touch for so long..

den there's girl B and C.. lol.. we still talk but not as much as we used to since we got into form 1.. and we spent over an hour just reminiscing about out past and all the stupid things that had happened over the years of our friendship....

heee...i wonder if there will be anymore old friends talking to me now since im no longer 1 of the *unapproachable group* people.. pretty cool i think ^_^

..oh.. this friday is the mandarin club of my school's lantern festival.. who wants to go tell me.. but then again @_@ im not sure if im going.. darn tuition "=_= .. but tell me anyways ;p im suppose to help promote.. lol

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 18, 2006

you know what?you know how i was blogging about how happy i was the past few days? well HOORAY.. today it has officially ended...

yesterday i slept at 6am ..so i din't go to school.. but my dad went into some mad scream fest and demanded i get up and change and he'll send me to school.. like wtf..i was literally dying.. I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE.. NOT SLEPT FOR MORE THAN 24 HOURS OKAY!! you know me la.. always need to sleep wan

so if the day didn't already start crappily.. i found out how retarded my friends really are.. IF YOU EVEN WANT TO CALL THEM FRIENDS?

which i must quote this statement when i said im going to bloody blog about how angry i am ..

" DONT!! keep it!! DONT DO THIS!!"
dont do what?
" DONT TELL THE WHOLE WORLD! keep it confidential!! DONT DO THIS TO THEM"
them who? do what
" DO THIS TO YOUR FRIENDS!!"

uh.. funny.. i don't think the word friend would even reach this level..at the beginning i thought they were just thinking about going to interact.. CONSIDERING THE OTHERs WERE GOING.. next year join interact la.. okay okay.. and thye would answer see 1st la..see how la...

BUT IT TURNS OUT.. THEY ALREADY ARE IN INTERACT.. AND YOU KNOW WHAT? if it was like a month or 2 months ago also not so bad.. IT WAS WAY OVER 6 MONTHS AGO.. with official letters and what nots.. and the best part is.. i didn't even know about this..

and in front of me..they still pretended like they were still thinking about it... like wtf...

and u know the funniest part is.. i wonder if all this started because i was friends with a certain someone most of you didn't like.. and still don't like...? because it was around feb this year that i noticed how differently you guys started to treat me...andthere was 1 thing you guys requested me to do that really pissed the fucking ass off me.. but then it was someone else's birthday.. so fine...

so someone accidentally invited her.. YOU PPL DIDNT WANT HER THERE... but it had nothing to do with me.. because i only found out AFTER HER.. and later onwards..most likely because you didnt want me to bring her along.. OR ..perhaps an even more entertaining reason *smirks* ..so what? you make me "uninvite her" like wtf... at that time..

AT THAT TIME.. she was my closest friend..and the bunch of you made me lie to her.. just because you guys didn't want her there...and what was i to do? say no? to the people i though had been my closest friends..?

what could a simple little lie do.. but you know what.. it hurt me.. it hurt me that i had to do that to someone close to me... for the sake of another person's dislike towards her??

i never believed in disliking people by their attitudes and the way they act.. AND I KNOW A BUNCH OF YOU ARE THINKIGN THATS NOT TRUE! YOU HATE A BUNCH OF PEOPLE!.. hello? if you must know.. just because im not fond of you does not mean i don't like you.. and as a matter of fact.. I DONT LIKE PEOPLE WHEN THEY DO THINGS THAT INTERFERE WITH MY LIFE...

so what if they are annoying at times...fake.. bitchy..they can be whatever they want to be.. as long as they don't mess around with things IN MY LIFE.. i will not dislike them.... PLEASE GET THAT THROUGH YOUR PUNY ASSED MINDS FOR A SECOND WILL YOU...

you bunch just on 1st glance..1st meet and alreay don't like and keep that same thinking throughout the rest of the time.. sometimes im so sick of it..

but no.... i have to face all of you anyway.. but you guys should be happy.. because im not exacty friends with that girl anymore.. but UNFORTUNATELY.. i had to find out about the whole interact thing NOW.....

and you guys have no idea how pissed off i am.. just put yourselves in my shoes for a minute .. huh? some of you might just break down and cry...

im really sick of this...

and to those who think they are innocent and had nothing to do with this post.. ignore it.. im not bloody sure who you are anymore.. so heck with it...

oh btw.. i dont hate you guys..im just really hurt and dissapointed that you guys would do this to me...

-BabyGinz-

i finally updated my template =) and i lvoe it..i spent a lot of time on it okay!! damn chatterbox very ugly..but i cannot edit the font size T_T at least i dont know how!!

my comments system also a bit whacko..so im too tired to edit it now.. hahaha..so..any comments leave it at the chatterbox ya?

other things that are missing..i will EDIT IT EVENTUALLY..but it's 2 am on a monday morning right now.. OH MY BLOODY GAWD! i have to be up to go to school in 4 hours but im not sleepy enough!!!

cruds..

(3.32 edit: HOLY SHIT!! IM STILL HERE............ @_@.. HOLY SHIT..i NEED TO SLEEP!)

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, September 17, 2006

you know what's perfect?

listening to chill out music while swaying to it's rythm under a hot shower...

really it is =)

i haven't felt this relaxed in quite a while.. and im all smiles and glowing right now...

ahhhh....

the simple pleasures of life =)

-BabyGinz-

And i THINK i'm finally over you.. =)

-BabyGinz-

today was a pretty good day =) i had fun at taylors with turtle-bear, alcoholic monkey and sweatlee ;p and go watch it! morrow still got 1 more day! mousetrap! quite superb for a college play =D at least i enjoyed myself! and i met the cutttsiiess wuuttsiiiesstt kitty katttt outside the entrace! anddd shee stuckk to meee..wah.. melt my heart..wanna take her home T_T

after that went to er...some weird restaurant..haha..not weird.. BUT THE FOOD SUCKED TO BADLY! U LA ICHIMARU!! >=( celaka.. wai jor ure football we have to be subjected to such bad food!! U OWE ME MORE STICKER PICTURES NOW! ...although i dont think u read my blog "=_=...

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hahahah.. why am i blogging in nicknames today...? well because i have a sudden urge to rant on something that has been pissing me off for quite literally half the year already but has been throughly ignored... but yesterday i got even more pissed off at it when i was talking to another friend about it.. and today when i read another person's blog i was reminded of it all over again.. and i got even more irritated...

seriously.. do i even like 4sc1? the answer would be no. why? because it's full of self centered selfish dickheads.. yes.. i mean even you guys.. my so called good friends...

so i have been in emo phase a lot.. and instead of actually trying to get that.. for some reason those closest to me have gotten closer to others... and somehow i've literally dissapeared from the whole thing all together.. and the only person who hasnt totally abandoned me.. would be.. yes you.. dearest fellyfummy =) ... so far you're the only one who has really ever been there for me and the only one who knows i still bloody exist...

well..this isn't what's pissing me off.. cuz u know what? i couldn't really care less.. i believe in having friends and close friends.. but i never assumed anyone to be my best friend anyway.. because u know what? that's so over rated.. a best friend is a best friend.. you people seem to have multiple best FRIENDS.. not A BEST friend? what is best and wad is friend? "=_= yeesh... yahde yahde yahde...

im more pissed off at this fact. i am in kiwanis. and i will be the kiwanis president next year.. as ALL OF YOU already know this... 2 of my closest friend's at 1 point were in kiwanis with me... but this yr.. they have decided to abadone me..knowing that kiwanis is full of pretty "useless" people..not useless useless..but they just aren't really there to help..they just want to go to a club where they can lay around and slack...or they want to go to interact because it's oh so great? "=_= .. interact isn't even known worldwide.. lol.. kiwanis is the international club..but unfortunately they havent made a name properly for themselves yet..

ok ok..im running off track..so see.. im already going to be short handed next year.. and THIS 2 so called good friends are leaving.... AND BETTER YET.. the other group of so called GOOD FRIENDS from INTERACT.. are trying very hard to get them there.. and have even tried assigning posts to them when they aren't even in interact yet =) i wonder if you guys had already realised that interact already has too many members which is why the school made this rule this year where they is a maximum amount of members..?

i don't know where im going with this.. but i just felt like ranting... and don't say that i didn't tell you guys about this..because i have..multiple times.. you people either FLAT OUT IGNORED ME... or you start repeating again with those.. EH EH! *so and so* YOU WANNA BE *inserts post* ANNOT!! be lar!! then the whole interact board of directors all us only! damn cool right? ...

you know what? it's not cool at all...you people don't seem to interact with other people.. which is sad? and the fact that you need to have the same group of people constantly around.. is also sad.. i wonder what's going to happen when all of you go to college @_@.. i know you guys were really keen on going to college all as a group.. but that's definitely not going to happen..

*this post doesn't apply to bamboo boy because he doesn't really give a damn ;p hahaa.. you know who u are...er wait..i think rollerbuzz has nothing to do with this as well @_@.. i think?? hahaha...nor does it apply to my geeky food loving pal fellyfummy.. BTW..i still am not liking the idea of.. *you know what..i support the other 1..not particularly fond of the current 1**

im sorry i had to post this... but im just really annoyed at this
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let me move back to happier things.. TODAY! my rabbits nearly died @_@ because the damn workers took them out of the garden and palced them somewhere else and it rained so friggin heavily..but yet nobody remembered them AND I WAS OUT!!

but i managed to rescue damn with my alcoholic monkey and we blow dried them in time.. so mwahahhaa..my babies are still okay...

okay..so that's not a very happy thing.. there was something i wanted to blog about..but i cant seem to remember T_T IM SORRY LAR.. AISHEH

but hor..actually lately.. i damn malas to blog eidi...

oh! i realised... my guardian's in school when i was in form 1 are still the sweetest bunch of guys =) even after not seeing them for nearly 2 yrs they still treat me the same.. i kinda forgot what it's like to be cared for by them ...

who are they? they are the graduates of SSG in the yr 2003..and they were the ones who took care of me when i was in form 1 ^-^

and 2 of them took me for haagan dazs fondue when i was beremo-ing on friday!! hahaha.. and it helped a lot.. thanks guys =) you guys are the best! BUT I DIDN"T GET MY STICKER PIC >=( BODOH PAIP!! GO AND BURST FOR WHAT! DAMN CELAKA OKAY!!.. CIS!!!

i realised today's post is quite random really @_@

-BabyGinz-

Friday, September 15, 2006

......its been over a year.. and she's still here.... hurting me.....hurting us....... destroying every possibilty of it ever really being US again...

why is she in such a need to have him? who doesnt she realise what she's doing?...

or.. why cant i accept the fact...

that he needs her more he needs me...........

........*blinks*

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 14, 2006

i seriously need to get out of my emo phase.. and there is only 2 ways to do that.. T_T

1. get a new BF ASAP

or

2. Ian miraculously changes and all his friends drop dead or leave the country abandoning him with no one but me.

no 2.. quite litereally impossible.. so yupz..i need a new bf ASAP before i literally emo myself to death

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

KEN CHONG CHENG SHOONG!! OMG I HATEEEE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!! arghhh.. why la today u only tell me about STRIP KL ?!?!?!?! WHY WHY WHYYYY the article came out in like AUGUST!! AND SUMMOH THAT TIME THE WHOLE AUGUST 50% OFF ALL TREATMENTS MAN!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

if you are all wondering.. it's because we were in conversation today and we chanced upon the topic of a brazillian wax WHICH I WANTED LIKE AGESSS AGOOOOO.. a year and a half to be exact but i never did find a suitable place to get it done.. it was either too expensive or.. they didn't have it..or they din't seem like they knew how to handle it..

and nooowww...there's a waxing parlous that SPECIALISES IN BRAZILIAN WAXING AND THEY GET IT DONE IN 15 MINUTES FLAT..and they can even do shapes like a heart =D.. hahaha.. go go..drag ure bf's and gf's there... hiak hiaks.. yeah.. they have it for guys too.. TELL ME THAT IS NOT COOL.. nyehehehhe..

dammit..but they dont have a website..so i wonder how many hundreds its going to cost.. T_T... haih..must get around to calling them up one of these days..if anybody has any idea.. do fill me in thanks!

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 11, 2006

im getting reallly reaally pissed off right now.. msn refuses to sign me in since this afternoon.. i want to sleep but i cant sleep.. i cant bring myself to study ...

arghh..im really cranky lately.. REALLY REAAALLLYY CRANKY...

-BabyGinz-

wtf is wrong with me this time... now my bloody eye decides to act up.. as if i havent been sick for the blardy past 2 weeks already...

my eye is now freaking bengkak and it hurts like fuck.. and the best part is.. my mother doesnt give a damn and she insist on me going to go school.. and FOR ONCE..i actually really do want to go to school.. but the thing is.. I CANT EVEN BLARDY OPEN MY FRIGGIN EYES...........

is this seriously funny? huh god? is it funny?

and to my lovely family.. DID IT EVER BLOODY OCCUR TO U DICK THWARTS that maybe im always sick and moody because of u friggin people? the fact that you never accept the things i do or the people im with...

if i didnt have to hear you scream at me everyday or hear how stupid i am for having a bf n putting my bf above my studies? maybe if people actually bloody accepted that i HAD a BF and i HAD a BF SINCE I WAS IN FORM 1 things wouldn't have turned out the way it did..

OR ACCEPTED THE FACT that i dont like studying..isn't getting mostly A's and B's enough? yeah.i dont sit in front of the table with a pile of books in front of me.. i dont like going to school.. BUT AT LEASt IM NOT failing anything..bloody hell..the only reason i've come close to failing or screwing up things is not because i dont understand or dont remember.. it;s because i just don't want to..because im so bloody sick of you people and im depressed all the time...

FUCK IT

-BabyGinz-

Sunday, September 10, 2006

it's funny sometimes how even the slightest things can cause such a sudden surge of emotions. an image or maybe even a scent or a memory of the past. something so small yet strong enough to make a person cry in a matter of seconds..

i was perfectly fine today...went for a movie... fooled around in mc d's.. met an old friend even =) and he's grown into such a cutie too.. well..then again..he was always the boy all the girls were after even at the tender age of 10 u_u ....

went to sleep.. woke up and was in one of those i just don't want to be disturbed mood.. just the typical just woke up thing... forced to go to dinner.. went around with the usual lan c look.. u_u...

during dinner i just stared at the wall refusing to speak to anyone.. when suddenly a family sat on the table next to us... and there he was.........

a boy of about 10....sitting there.. grinning with his average hair and typical pair of specs...

and something in me just broke..i wanted to cry... i wanted to just drop on the floor and cry my eyes out...but i held it it.. i didn't really have a choice... answering to my family is never really an option...

he looked just like you... the same funny egg head i was so fond off.. the same hairstyle.. the same kind of specs.. and..the most painful thing... identical grins... i remember looking at your childhood pictures with you... giggling at each one because u look so nerdy back then.. and then you would smile sheepishly at me threatening me with that " YOU LAUGH.. you laugh summoh la! later you see what happen" and then you would later hug me to sleep or sometimes the other way round whispering the words "i love you" in my ears.. and i would break out into this HUGE smile and hold you even tighter or snuggled into your arms even more breathing in your scent until i fell asleep....

and i wish you were here with me........

-BabyGinz-

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

-BabyGinz-

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Things I Hate About You...

you know... i really hate it when people know that you're talking to them and they pretend not to hear you.. i hate it even more when they read your messages but pretend they aren't there cause they are either trying to avoid you or are afraid to answer you

i also hate it when they lie to you and then pretend they are either asleep or in the toilet and then not answer the phone only to be caught when some1 else in the house is looking for them at 4 AM in the morning...

i hate empty promises..especially when they are broken for dumb reasons like dota and to teman friends.. i hate when you tell me you have no money but there you are off playing around with these friends of yours...

i hate how you promise my friends that you will pay them back the money i helped u borrow for you only, you are not even anywhere near home or even have that money in hand.. afraid that i will be the one having to pay them back instead...

i hate how you get jealous and yell at me or do something stupid..but yet..you dont see the fault in yourself.. it's funny how you never realised i never used to do this..at least not until you dumped me for another girl and your friends..and then went to flirt around with every other girl out there...

i hate the fact that you smoke and i hate it so much i've spent money to try to help you stop..the thing is.. you don't really want to stop.. not even for me... and that goes for ure friends as well.. who aren't very supportive of trying to get you to stop.. instead they make you smoke even more...

i hate how you tell me that i'm not your father or mother and i have no right to control you.. but the thing is.. u don't even listen to a word your father says.. is it a wonder why he spoils your sister a lot more than he does you?

i hate how you act so differently in front of me and yet so differently in front of others.. it hurts me a lot.. you just never noticed.. or if you did.. it never really bothered you..

i hate knowing that even when i cry in front of you, all you do is get angry and shout at me even more... i hate the fact that although i know this...my tears just keep flowing expecting you to somehow magically change...

i hate it when you're with me and all you want to do is sleep.. and when i try to wake you..you scream at me instead.. but once a friend calls.. you're wide awake like ice had been poured down your back...i hate it even more when you are awake with me.. that your phone rings and rings and rings.. and instead of telling them you're busy... you just talk the time away...

i hate the fact that everytime you make me angry.. you get angry at me instead.. it's funny because you're the 1 hurting me.. but yet i'm expected to sit keep quiet and smile.. once in a while it's okay.. but how do you expect me to do that when you hurt me nearly every night...

i hate so many more things about you...but i no longer have the heart to say...

because as much as i hate you...

i HATE this fact the most..

i hate how you are like my drug....no matter how much damange you're doing...i just can't stop myself from being addicted to you.

i love you. but i hate you.

-BabyGinz-

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

yesterday...i was quite angry... but i just rememberd it now.. to quote THE TREASURER of a CERTAIN SOMETHING..or at least this is what i was told

"hah? why want to help SPCA..why donate to them for what? they already got so many supporters. why don't you all help orphanages instead??"

and i can already imagine the tone she was saying that in..and seriously..this REALLY REALLY PISSES me off...

hello..yes lar..got so many supporters..but the thing is..NOT ENOUGH RIGHT? enough why must kill so many animals daily.. why? because of people like you that's why.. you think only people are important.. but if that is so.. why is it that people are the ones destroying the earth?

yes..orphanages are important..don't get me wrong..i love kids and if i could i would love to help them out.. but the thing is.. without a doubt..people are getting more attention than these poor animals.. i dont see anybody going into orphanages and shooting the poor kids to death or letting them starve out on the streets with no money..food or shelter... and because of this.. they are caught and killed...

sigh..i wish people would just wake up and see things for what they are..........

-BabyGinz-

Monday, September 04, 2006

i am sad T_T.... i mean i knew about this way earlier on but i never did have the time to say anything..in fact..i've got a lot of crap to do still..but i can't be bothered T_T.. my lazy streak is getting worst..

Why am i sad you ask...

well..because.. NO MORE CROCODILE HUNTER *bawls* ... i like mr crocodile hunter T_T.. u know when i was younger i always dreamed to have a TV show just like his.. he was my inspiration and it's because of him i fell in love with reptiles..

about 2 years back when my mother asked me what i wanted to be and why i wanna take pure science..i said.. because i want to be an environmentalist *only she called me stupid and that i chose a stupid and useless ambition T_T* ...

sigh... it was such a freakish incident..i meant.. DEATH BY STINGRAY? what are the chances of that!! what's worst is... HE WAS STAB RIGHT IN HIS HEART???!?! HOW RARE IS THAT...

god's strange ways... T_T......RIP Steve Irwin..u were loved and adored by many .. you helped change the world...

-BabyGinz-

greatttt... im getting lazy to blog as well..

well..it's monday and im not in school AGAIN.. dahlah last week i only went to school on friday.. aih....

i want to go shopping T_T

-BabyGinz-