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So i finally got around to sorta finishing my layout. still a bit buggy here and there but im not free now la! later la ;p
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..The Princess..
I am the very sin of life itself, living in a world and civilization i deem unworthy of the many now ruined perfection it was blessed with. The social
anti-social i be but thats another part of me you will
eventually see or hope to see.
I suffer from a bipolar disorder and can feel extreme happiness and sadness in the most disturbing of manner. Manic depressive some often call me or "emo
girl" for short.
But who am i really?
That girl on the street you thought was hot or perhaps that girl you laughed at the day before.
What you see is your perception of me but what you know is something that even i find much a mystery.
Yes that is me in the picture and yes that is a pink cigarette i'm holding but no i'm not a smoker. But believe what you may for doubts will inevitably
be existant.
..She Supports..
..Talk..
..Credits..
I'm Ginny; girly, emotional, rough and fundamentally retarded. Oh, mustn't forget extremely lazy and amazing at procrastination as well and err...well, clumsy (don't ask). The surname's Yap and no my full name isn't really necessary in introductions. Arrogant, stubborn and well, what more might you ask?
IM AWESOME. Nuff said.
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
ppl always think.. especially ppl like ian believe that opposites do not belong together because of their conflicting opinions and minds... clashing and banging and fights constantly erupting.. but i beg to differ.. to me.. i think it takes 2 very different ppl to make 1 perfect person because their differences help each other grow and learn...
ppl of the same characters... may make good friends but they will never b perfect as a couple.. because they will forever remain naive and lost.. in fact..more clashing than that of opposite characters...i guess to me..it would just be boring...and the relationship is lifeless
what if for exmaple both persons are dark.. and they have death thoughts all the time... what woul it result it.. death of both person.. so what if 1 was bright and happy..and the other was sad and dark ... ixed together.. they will learn.. and create a perfect balance of light and dark... wouldnt they?? isnt it better to be different in a relationship than to be the same?
where would balance be? if the perfect couple were alike? it would b too much of one thing.. lacking things that other ppl have..
ian has hurt me in many ways..some ways none of u could ever imagine.. but without a doubt..i still love him.. and i still continue to forgive him...i may neveer forget and occasionally bring them up when there's a fight... but...the most important is.. that i forgave...so...this is why im still with him....time...patience...and will .. =) the key ingredients... cuz i seriously dont believe in reationships where everything is perfect and no fights happen... that onli happens after everything has settled down... and the hard part has been overcomed ;p
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Saturday, December 24, 2005
am sick on xmas eve.. so so sad....coughing...and flu..quite sure a fever's gonna happen anyyyytimmmee soooonn...
well if u havent seen me in a while.. u definitely dont want to see me now.. i look horrendous!! scary beyond belief... I MISS MY NICE CLEAR SKIN AND SPARKLY BRIGHT HAPPY EYES.. *whimpers in corner*
wonder when ill die?? looking at my life line..seems to look shorter each time i look at it @_@.. seriouslyyyy..my life line a lot shorter than normal ppl's 1...its onli like 2 inches long!!
garh..i cant wait 4 the yr 2005 to fly by.. its been a crappy year.. but at the same time TT.. I DOWANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL LAR!!! AIHYOOOOOOOO.........DAMN KESIAN WEI
Monday, December 19, 2005
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
many things have uncovered themselves over the past few days..btw in case ure all wondering.. my comp is infested with a flithy bugger virus and i can no longer start windows.. but ahh...hahaha..i dun wanna reformat myself la ;p cuz i cant save my c drive.. so right.. now ahhh...waiting 4 my mum to call dell and see what they can do instead ;p
juz so ure wondering.. abt the me n ian thing.. lol.. im still not sure what we are.. but hes sleeping like a baby now =) ...hehehe...today we spent the day at sungei wang... ^_^.. SO SO SO SAADDDDDDDd... i saw so many prettier...cheaper dresses den mine *cries* TOO LATE
i love love love the ssticker pics we took today..i would upload them..LOL..if i had my camera cable or there was a scanner here ;p mebbe next time
but seriously.. i havent been this happy in a while..and my hearts all fluttery fluttery...i actually cried in happiness earlier.. lol....
Friday, December 02, 2005
........hahaha.....thats exactly how i feel right now... sitting in front of the com at this weird hour... waiting to see if he'll come online.. tears streaming down my face to the likes of james blunt, sarah mclachlan..aerosmith...coldplay and nickelback....
i just want to lie in somebody's arms as i cry....someone warm.. who makes me feel secure.... i miss that feeling....... and i need it.... right now............i want to close my eyes... and dream of those moments.. and never wake up.....
(2.44 edit ...i was crying like fuck not very long ago.. but all of a sudden rage burst out from me when i realised..that little 2 faced fucked up bitch lied to me again.... =) ... posted it at my other blog.. =) ...smirks)
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Echo
Come to me in the silence of the night;
Come in the speaking silence of a dream;
Come with soft rounded cheeks and eyes as bright
As sunlight on a stream;
Come back in tears,
O memory of hope, love of finished years.
O dream how sweet, too sweet, too bitter-sweet,
Whose wakening should have been in Paradise,
Where souls brim-full of love abide and meet;
Where thirsting longing eyes
Watch the slow door
That opening, letting in, lets out no more.
Yet come to me in dreams, that I may live
My very life again though cold in death;
Come back to me in dreams, that I may give
Pulse for pulse, breath for breath:
Speak low, lean low,
As long ago, my love, how long ago.
Francis William Bourdillon
The Night Has a Thousand Eyes
The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.
The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.
George Gordon, Lord Byron
When We Two Parted
When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow—
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame;
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.
They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me—
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well:—
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.
In secret we met—
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?—
With silence and tears.
William Morris
Love Is Enough
Love is enough: though the World be a-waning,
And the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,
Though the sky be too dark for dim eyes to discover
The gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,
Though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,
And this day draw a veil over all deeds pass'd over,
Yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter;
The void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter
These lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.
Percy Bysshe Shelley
Love's Philosophy
The fountains mingle with the river
And the rivers with the ocean,
The winds of heaven mix for ever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single,
All things by a law divine
In one another's being mingle—
Why not I with thine?
See the mountains kiss high heaven,
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdain'd its brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea—
What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?
Robert Browning
Two in the Campagna
I wonder do you feel today
As I have felt since, hand in hand,
We sat down on the grass, to stray
In spirit better through the land,
This morn of Rome and May?
For me, I touched a thought, I know,
Has tantalized me many times,
(Like turns of thread the spiders throw
Mocking across our path) for rhymes
To catch at and let go.
Help me to hold it! First it left
The yellowing fennel, run to seed
There, branching from the brickwork's cleft,
Some old tomb's ruin: yonder weed
Took up the floating weft,
Where one small orange cup amassed
Five beetles—blind and green they grope
Among the honey-meal: and last,
Everywhere on the grassy slope
I traced it. Hold it fast!
The champaign with its endless fleece
Of feathery grasses everywhere!
Silence and passion, joy and peace,
An everlasting wash of air—
Rome's ghost since her decease.
Such life here, through such lengths of hours,
Such miracles performed in play,
Such primal naked forms of flowers,
Such letting nature have her way
While heaven looks from its towers!
How say you? Let us, O my dove,
Let us be unashamed of soul,
As earth lies bare to heaven above!
How is it under our control
To love or not to love?
I would that you were all to me,
You that are just so much, no more.
Nor yours nor mine, nor slave nor free!
Where does the fault lie? What the core
O' the wound, since wound must be?
I would I could adopt your will,
See with your eyes, and set my heart
Beating by yours, and drink my fill
At your soul's springs—your part my part
In life, for good and ill.
No. I yearn upward, touch you close,
Then stand away. I kiss your cheek,
Catch your soul's warmth—I pluck the rose
And love it more than tongue can speak—
Then the good minute goes.
Already how am I so far
Out of that minute? Must I go
Still like the thistle-ball, no bar,
Onward, whenever light winds blow,
Fixed by no friendly star?
Just when I seemed about to learn!
Where is the thread now? Off again!
The old trick! Only I discern—
Infinite passion, and the pain
Of finite hearts that yearn.
In kissing and romance, you lean toward qualities exhibited by Water Signs -- you may be a little shy when it comes to public displays of affection, but you're a truly passionate and intuitive lover who is as interested in giving pleasure as you are in receiving it. You're not really interested in short, meaningless affairs, either; you'd much prefer to wait till you find your perfect life partner -- and you do believe there's one person out there who is just right for you. You'd probably love to be with a Cancer, a Scorpio or a Pisces lover. Read more about these Sun Signs to find out what else they're like!
You scored 33.3% Earth
In kissing and romance, you lean toward qualities exhibited by Earth Signs -- you're incredibly sensual, you love beauty and luxury and you expect your lover to treat you like royalty, a favor that you will gladly return. You prize commitment and loyalty in a relationship; as long as your sweetie gives you no reason to be jealous, you're as sweet and happy as can be. You're not against short-and-sweet affairs, but you're really looking for something more long-term and durable. You may find a Taurus, a Virgo or a Capricorn lover to be the sexiest and most committed match for you. Read more about these Sun Signs to find out what else they're like!
You scored 25% Fire
In kissing and romance, you lean toward qualities exhibited by Fire Signs -- you like things fast and passionate and see no reason to wait when what you want is within your reach! You also might not see any reason to tie yourself down to one person when there are so many attractive people in the world. Commitment may not be one of your strong points, but what you lack in loyalty you more than make up in dashing panache! You'd most likely match up best with an Aries, a Leo or a Sagittarius lover. Read more about these Sun Signs to find out what else they're like!
You scored 0% Air
In kissing and romance, you lean toward qualities exhibited by Air Signs -- someone has to match you on an intellectual level if they expect to stimulate your more carnal desires. You're not opposed to long-term relationships and commitment, but sometimes you lose interest in a relationship more quickly than you'd want to admit! You're likely to be most turned on by a Gemini, a Libra or an Aquarius lover. Read more about these Sun Signs to find out what else they're like!
this quiz can b found here
What greater thing is there for two human souls that to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories. ~ George Eliot
You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived, are the moments when you have done things in a spirit of love. ~ Henry Drummond
Love works in miracles every day: such as weakening the strong, and stretching the weak; making fools of the wise, and wise men of fools; favouring the passions, destroying reason, and in a word, turning everything topsy-turvy. ~ Marguerite De Valois
Love is the emblem of eternity: it confounds all notion of time: effaces all memory of a beginning, all fear of an end. ~ Germaine De Stael
The heart has reasons that reason does not understand. ~ Jacques Benigne Bossuel
Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile. ~ Franklin P. Jones